A super lousy bad day/s!!!!
Was mapling since I wole up at 12plus today. Hm.... I actually fell asleep while watching the Spurs game last night, then kana woke up at 5plus in the morning. By what? By cramps! OMG! Both my thighs cramped for a while last night already, then at 5plus, my right knee cramped till I got woken up! Argh!!! It's the first time I experienced cramps at a place that I do not know what to do.... Usually, you just have to stretch and it will go off after a while. But the part near the knee is somewhere I have not experienced before, and I do not know how to 'treat' it.... After struggling with it for like 10mins, during which I felt aches at my hips while keeping my leg straight trying to stretch it, I finally found the remedy to it. I should have just bear with the pain and bend my knee. It hurts, but it sure helps, as the cramps went off after like couple of mins time. What the hell.... Must be due to the strenuous workout that I got last night, playing to the fullest during p-ball, then to A.B.C for my part II. And that's after like 5 days of no workout whatsoever. No wonder I suffered the kind of cramps that I haven't experienced for a long long time....
Had a few weird dreams during the last couple of days.... 1st is that I dreamt about going on a tour, in Taiwan again I guess, and we went to experience flying in an airplane, those kind of fighter plane instead of the usual passenger plane. And the best part is, we only took off with the front operating part, the controlling area, instead of with the whole body of the plane. Hm.... How do we take off with just that and no body and wings.... Well, we do take off, and the pilot even perform stunts of spin and landing with the head facing the ground. Weird right.... Then because of the time taken for experiencing in the plane, I missed the coach that's fetching my tour group, but somehow because it's a dream, I managed to find the others having lunch at a place nearby. Guess what? It's exactly the same group that I went with during my Taiwan trip. And I saw that gal again in my dream. Is it because I have been thinking of her, that's why this weird dream happens??? Then the 2nd dream is about flying to outer space in a rocket. And guess what? The flying place is actually the ground near my old place, the place where I used to stay before moving to Aljunied. It's my old 4-rm flat! And I literately can see the rocket flying off at my old place. Though it's flying off, but I dreamt about my ex flying off in the rocket and not me, and I was watching it from my old place. Weird x2? Puzzling.... Then the best part is followed by my not so weird but very serious pondering dream last night.... I dreamt about all the nagging and caring parts of my mama and sis. They cared about my living, but I was just too pissed off by their nagging, and I actually threaten to kill them, or even end my own life! Now.... That's very serious.... How will I ever dream about such thing? Am I too stressed over what's happening lately that I became depressed? Or am I actually going crazy? Argh.... What's happening to me? It seems that I became too 'high' ever since my trip from Taiwan. Typically too enthu about the things that's happening around me, and getting my mouth in during talks and being too much a kpo to bother about things that happening around me and those who I know, whether good friends, friends, or just acquaintance. I like seeking attention everywhere, but don't know from who, for what. It's like doing it just for the sake of doing it, and my mind is not registering what had happened. I'm like don't know what gone on. What's happening???
Went burning joss sticks and those 'jin zhi' with my mama around evening time. The place is full of ants! Probably because of those sweet sweet things that's around for the praying. But.... the place was not like this in the past! Before the renovation of the park and upgrading of the lifts that is. There are never any ants or insects before the renovation took place a couple of years ago. I won't say no ants, but not a troop of ants! And it's not just a troop, it's several troops! Coming from all over the place! What the hell! It used to be so clean before the stupid upgrading took place. Now? You typically see everything that you can imagine a dirty place would have; ants, red and black, big and small, then cockroaches, snails, earthworms, millipedes, centipedes, and even rats! My place has become so @#$%& dirty and unsafe with centipedes and rats around! Don't know what the hell is the government doing! If they want to upgrade, find a contractor that's responsible enough to take care of the cleanliness after the project work! Or even during the project, which has been delayed before for don't know whatever reasons! Should have gotten a better contractor, instead of saving money to get those 'chap ba lang' contractors! Not that we didn't pay, every residents have to pay $300+ each ok! We paid, we expect better services! Not this type of half fuck standard & services! It really pissed me off! What the hell are those Ministries doing!!!!
Kicking at A.B.C hadn't been any better. 1st is that they are 20 players including me when I got there at 9pm. That's 4 teams, and goals are not any easy to come by. At least not with my team. Whenever my team plays, we kana knocked out within like 5 to 10 mins, Then when the other teams are playing, it's never less than 15mins. There's this game between 2 teams that played for like 30, or even 45mins! My team waited and waited, for mins and hrs, end up play 5, 10mins and we lost. Haiz.... My best game, or rather longest game today have to be the last, which Chee Ming got hit on the hamstring and asked me to sub him. His team got so many attackers that I went to play in front of the last man. Actually, I rather play there than on the wings, sure got more chances to touch the ball as Ivan's team sure attack more. Well.... I'm right, end up I defended more than I attack today, which is something good. I just want to have more touches on the ball that's all. No chance to touch the ball during my 1st 2 games, which we lost in a flip of the fingers. Sianz.... At least got a runout, despite my tired legs from yesterday's games. Soccer is still the time where I know what I'm doing, happiest time of a usually dull and 'sad' me. Guess football is still my best mate, ever since the first time I kicked it. Perhaps, I'm just not fated to find someone by my side, I should just keep something, my best mate, with me....
First time I went to this porridge buffet with Johnny and the others at Balestial Road, Quality Hotel. The food there is not bad, esp the duck meat and curry chicken. And the porridge of course. hehe.... The first thoughts that came to my mind is, I will bring my parents and sis here if I have the chance in future. But.... have to come after 10.30pm, as the dinner is $9.90++ and the super supper, which is from 10.30pm to 12.30pm is only $6.80++! Dirt cheap man! And you have 2 hrs to slowly eat and no need to rush. Damn shiok.... I took like 4 or 5 bowls of porridge with all the duck meat, curry chicken, veggies, beancurd, hotdogs, fishcakes, etc.... Shiok shiok.... And the freeflow of orange juice, just nice after a tiring game. woohoo! And the finale of the ice-cream. Oh my.... Damn full.... Chit chatted with the others while eating there, and I realized that somehow I began to click with them better nowadays, ever since I talked with a bit of foul languages lately. Not vugalities, just those obscene languages. I realized that words like those just came out unknowingly lately. Guess I really don't know what the hell I am doing and talking about lately, ever since my confidence dropped to a new low recently.... Seems to have given up on life and just live each day without thinking what I should do next.... Without only someone, like her, can guide me the way to go....
如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静 的时候
请不要让我如此心碎
如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静的时候
请不要让我如此心碎
如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
就在这样的一个夜里
不要把心围上层层堡垒
就在这样的一个夜里
不要说你永远无法体会
就在这样的一个夜里
不要让疲倦的心再枯萎
就在这样的一个夜里
就让我说一声请你给我 安慰
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
变成不对
Had a few weird dreams during the last couple of days.... 1st is that I dreamt about going on a tour, in Taiwan again I guess, and we went to experience flying in an airplane, those kind of fighter plane instead of the usual passenger plane. And the best part is, we only took off with the front operating part, the controlling area, instead of with the whole body of the plane. Hm.... How do we take off with just that and no body and wings.... Well, we do take off, and the pilot even perform stunts of spin and landing with the head facing the ground. Weird right.... Then because of the time taken for experiencing in the plane, I missed the coach that's fetching my tour group, but somehow because it's a dream, I managed to find the others having lunch at a place nearby. Guess what? It's exactly the same group that I went with during my Taiwan trip. And I saw that gal again in my dream. Is it because I have been thinking of her, that's why this weird dream happens??? Then the 2nd dream is about flying to outer space in a rocket. And guess what? The flying place is actually the ground near my old place, the place where I used to stay before moving to Aljunied. It's my old 4-rm flat! And I literately can see the rocket flying off at my old place. Though it's flying off, but I dreamt about my ex flying off in the rocket and not me, and I was watching it from my old place. Weird x2? Puzzling.... Then the best part is followed by my not so weird but very serious pondering dream last night.... I dreamt about all the nagging and caring parts of my mama and sis. They cared about my living, but I was just too pissed off by their nagging, and I actually threaten to kill them, or even end my own life! Now.... That's very serious.... How will I ever dream about such thing? Am I too stressed over what's happening lately that I became depressed? Or am I actually going crazy? Argh.... What's happening to me? It seems that I became too 'high' ever since my trip from Taiwan. Typically too enthu about the things that's happening around me, and getting my mouth in during talks and being too much a kpo to bother about things that happening around me and those who I know, whether good friends, friends, or just acquaintance. I like seeking attention everywhere, but don't know from who, for what. It's like doing it just for the sake of doing it, and my mind is not registering what had happened. I'm like don't know what gone on. What's happening???
Went burning joss sticks and those 'jin zhi' with my mama around evening time. The place is full of ants! Probably because of those sweet sweet things that's around for the praying. But.... the place was not like this in the past! Before the renovation of the park and upgrading of the lifts that is. There are never any ants or insects before the renovation took place a couple of years ago. I won't say no ants, but not a troop of ants! And it's not just a troop, it's several troops! Coming from all over the place! What the hell! It used to be so clean before the stupid upgrading took place. Now? You typically see everything that you can imagine a dirty place would have; ants, red and black, big and small, then cockroaches, snails, earthworms, millipedes, centipedes, and even rats! My place has become so @#$%& dirty and unsafe with centipedes and rats around! Don't know what the hell is the government doing! If they want to upgrade, find a contractor that's responsible enough to take care of the cleanliness after the project work! Or even during the project, which has been delayed before for don't know whatever reasons! Should have gotten a better contractor, instead of saving money to get those 'chap ba lang' contractors! Not that we didn't pay, every residents have to pay $300+ each ok! We paid, we expect better services! Not this type of half fuck standard & services! It really pissed me off! What the hell are those Ministries doing!!!!
Kicking at A.B.C hadn't been any better. 1st is that they are 20 players including me when I got there at 9pm. That's 4 teams, and goals are not any easy to come by. At least not with my team. Whenever my team plays, we kana knocked out within like 5 to 10 mins, Then when the other teams are playing, it's never less than 15mins. There's this game between 2 teams that played for like 30, or even 45mins! My team waited and waited, for mins and hrs, end up play 5, 10mins and we lost. Haiz.... My best game, or rather longest game today have to be the last, which Chee Ming got hit on the hamstring and asked me to sub him. His team got so many attackers that I went to play in front of the last man. Actually, I rather play there than on the wings, sure got more chances to touch the ball as Ivan's team sure attack more. Well.... I'm right, end up I defended more than I attack today, which is something good. I just want to have more touches on the ball that's all. No chance to touch the ball during my 1st 2 games, which we lost in a flip of the fingers. Sianz.... At least got a runout, despite my tired legs from yesterday's games. Soccer is still the time where I know what I'm doing, happiest time of a usually dull and 'sad' me. Guess football is still my best mate, ever since the first time I kicked it. Perhaps, I'm just not fated to find someone by my side, I should just keep something, my best mate, with me....
First time I went to this porridge buffet with Johnny and the others at Balestial Road, Quality Hotel. The food there is not bad, esp the duck meat and curry chicken. And the porridge of course. hehe.... The first thoughts that came to my mind is, I will bring my parents and sis here if I have the chance in future. But.... have to come after 10.30pm, as the dinner is $9.90++ and the super supper, which is from 10.30pm to 12.30pm is only $6.80++! Dirt cheap man! And you have 2 hrs to slowly eat and no need to rush. Damn shiok.... I took like 4 or 5 bowls of porridge with all the duck meat, curry chicken, veggies, beancurd, hotdogs, fishcakes, etc.... Shiok shiok.... And the freeflow of orange juice, just nice after a tiring game. woohoo! And the finale of the ice-cream. Oh my.... Damn full.... Chit chatted with the others while eating there, and I realized that somehow I began to click with them better nowadays, ever since I talked with a bit of foul languages lately. Not vugalities, just those obscene languages. I realized that words like those just came out unknowingly lately. Guess I really don't know what the hell I am doing and talking about lately, ever since my confidence dropped to a new low recently.... Seems to have given up on life and just live each day without thinking what I should do next.... Without only someone, like her, can guide me the way to go....
如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静 的时候
请不要让我如此心碎
如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静的时候
请不要让我如此心碎
如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
就在这样的一个夜里
不要把心围上层层堡垒
就在这样的一个夜里
不要说你永远无法体会
就在这样的一个夜里
不要让疲倦的心再枯萎
就在这样的一个夜里
就让我说一声请你给我 安慰
因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹
因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对
变成不对
变成不对
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