What should I do....

Been sleeping whole day since last night, from 1plus till 11plus this morning. Then came back after lunch and slept from 3plus till 6plus. What the crap! I won't sleep earlier than 3am when I'm at home! Guess that's what happens when I don't have my laptop with me ba.... It's always boring when coming to my sis's place, when I can't use her com. Usually, there will be chats with her, but her family is filled with her maple sons and daughters, so no time to chat also.

Lunched at Rivervale Mall, before going to buy my towels and socks. Nothing much happens, except for some joking moments and I have to say, it helps to brighten my grey sky lately. That's what usually happens when I come over to look for my sis. Her 2 kids and her never fail to make me happy, except at times when ah boy and xiao mei come and annoy me when I'm not in the mood. But that seldom happens. More often than not, it's always fun, esp today when xiao mei had a pillow fight with me. Then I would get hold of all her 'weapons' and catch hold of her and tickle her. haha....

Came home at 8plus to catch the Merseyside derby between Everton and Liverpool. OMG! Everton thrashed Pool 3-0! What the crap! I expected a tough fight and a narrow scoreline. Well.... The main culprit have to be Pool's gk, Reina. He made a mess of the shot from Lee Carsley, which resulted in Andy Johnson having the easy task of heading into goal. As for Johnson's 1st goal, the header is his 2nd, Reina is actually beaten at his near post. How could he have not covered that? Haiz.... Later on is the Man Utd game against Spurs. I have to say that Man Utd is damn lucky. They could easily have lost 3-1 or 4-1, if not for the lack of predatory instincts by all the Spurs's strikers. Defoe, Mido and Dawson all missed easy headers from less than 10 metres out. Lady luck is shining at United right now, but will it last till the end of the season, and win United their first title in 4 years? The commentator was saying that this is United's best start in more than 20 years, with 4 wins out of the first 4 games. But does that signal anything? What matters is the outcome at the end of the season, and not 4 games into the new season. Hello.... There's 38 games in total, what's with 4 games that's won?

Was smsing that gal in the afternoon, and she replied with short sentences, sometime just a few words. And when I asked her something, she didn't reply after that. Perhaps she's busy learning how to blade ba.... Hm.... Should I give her a call in future when I want to talk to her? Talking on the phone is much more communicative than smsing right.... I'm still scared to call and talk to her leh.... Haiz.... That's always the problem with gals that I liked. Don't know what to say, don't know how to response, don't know how to express myself, etc.... At times, I feel like telling her that I liked her and see how she response. At least I'll be more natural talking to her after knowing how she feel. Argh....

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成

整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以 不怕苦

懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰

整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以 不怕苦

看 那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹

哦 我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以 不怕苦

但那人是你所以 不怕苦

Problems after problems....

Went for the new Medishield launch today. It's quite a good plan, but have to take a look at the others 1st, before coming to a conclusion, cos TC told me NTUC offers the best package. Hm.... Will research a bit into it. Went to office with Joycelyn to learn how to fill in the various application forms. After that, came home for a short nap after lunch, before going for my CHI. If I can recall, the last time I failed is because I'm quite tired and didn't have the concentration. So I'm not going to make the same mistake again. While I lied on my nest before getting to sleep, I'm thinking of that gal. Thought about those times in Taiwan, chatting inside the bus and the times at the Bear Resort, having meals together and taking those little walks looking at the scenery, etc.... How I miss those times, and her....

YES!!!! Finally passed my CHI!!!! Finally cleared that stupid paper this time round.... I'm so glad when I saw the word 'PASS' on my computer screen! I almost jumped up in joy! Yes! Yes! Yes! Actually, thought of smsing this friend of mine to let her know I passed. But after what she said to me the last time when I sms her, thought otherwise. Wanted to share this joy with someone, but can't find anyone. And guess what? That 'someone' turns out to be my manager. She's the first person after that friend of mine that I wanted to call, and I did call her to tell her that I passed. Irony right? Haiz....

Met TC for dinner and he told me about his upcoming plans that he has. He also told me things that I find offensive at first, with his tone and way of putting it. But after analyzing and thinking through, find that what he said is true actually. After that, made my way to my sis's place. Didn't want to go over initially, but after he told me that my bro-in-law is resigning, decided that I should go down and find out what happened. Haiz.... Problems not settled, new ones surfaced. Why are all these happening at the same time???? If only he can wait for another few more years, when I have my cafe and he would have a place for him to display his cutlery skills, instead of doing things that's not his forte. But, sometimes, you can't control the way things happened, and going to happen. You can't stop time and tell it to give you a little more time to make things work before it moves again right? When things happen, it happens. You can do little to prevent it....

Had some bbq food as a result of my sis having a gathering of her maple family. I really have to take my hats off her. She can literately start her maple family with her sons and daughters, and have them coming over to her place for dinner and mahjong session and maple session. Sometimes I wonder whether is she playing the game, or making friends through the game. Now I finally understand why she spends so much time on maple, more than me, but still behind me in terms of quests completion and level. haha.... Was smsing that gal while I'm having my food, and had a short chat with her. Got to know her workplace and where she stays, hope to ask her out one of these days and perhaps, get to know each other better. *smiles*

风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画着圆圈
花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险

你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼 你的唇边
是不是也有笑意明显

明明是昨天的事情 怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题 我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电 就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电 一直甜蜜触电 直到爆炸

像一年四个季节
都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸

像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变
被你指尖 碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

明明是昨天的事情 怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题 我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电 就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电 一直甜蜜触电 直到爆炸

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话(你的情话)
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电 就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花(不要开花)
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电 一直甜蜜触电 直到爆炸

Motivating....

Went for my meeting at Orchid Country Club at 8plus in the morning. I wonder why my boss chosen that place, it's so far and so inconvenient to get there. Actually, it's just far lah, not really inconvenient as there's shuttle bus from Bishan. But.... it's damn far loh! haha.... Basically, the meeting is a discussion with the whole agency about our goals and targets for this quarter. Stress! haha.... After all the figures thingy, one of the staff from head office is specially invited by my boss to give us a talk. She's quite a nice lady lah, and shared things that's beneficial to us. One of them being the 'move forward' story. It tells a story about an old monk who arrived at this river with his little disciple, and saw a lady by the side. This lady wanted to cross over to the other side of the river, but she's afraid of water and dare not step into it. She's been waiting there for very long to get help, but no one came along until the monk and his disciple. Upon seeing them, she asked the monk to help carry her over to the other side of the river. As monks are not allowed to get in physical contact with ladies, he turned her down initially. But after much pleading from the lady, the monk finally agreed, and carried her across the river, since he also have to cross the river with his disciple anyway. After they got across the river and a short distance from the river, the disciple asked the old monk why he carried the lady across the river, when they are not allowed to touch ladies. The old monk answered:" I've already left the lady at the bank, why are you still carrying her in your mind?" The moral of this story is, whatever has past, is in the past. Don't carry it in your mind and move on with life.... *smiles*

Lunch wasn't that good, though it's a country club. Had a little discussion with my manager regarding our planning for this quarter, but it all comes down to I have to pass my CHI first. Argh!!!! Stressed!!!! Went to office to attend a tutorial on CHI. Hope to pass tomorrow, as I really need it in order to work. Been so frustrated over this stupid paper. So much so that I haven't got the mood to talk to my mama and sis, and those people who are close to me. Been neglecting their feelings lately, with so many things on my mind. But it all comes down to my CHI! No CHI = no work = no sales = no income = survival problems. Have so many outstanding bills to clear, and my spending for my Taiwan trip. Argh!!!!

Sorry to the lady who gave me lesson for my CHI today, as I'm so tired that I almost dozed off on a few occasions. Came back after the lesson and took a nap till 10plus before getting up to take my dinner. Damn tired.... Finally finished updating my selling blog. Feel free to take a look ya! The link is http://crazybazaar.blogspot.com/. *smiles*

落泪以前 再看一眼 你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你 而你凝视 窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否 住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否 能让什么 复活

你的笑脸 还在胸前 晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕血
如果我们 继续向前 走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否 住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否 能让什么 复活

明明从前 连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会 说句话 就能肿一边

我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否 住着伤口
我想不透 我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后 是否 能让什么 复活

End of course!!!!

Finally! Today is the last day of course. Not that I don't like the course, but being a foundation course, I'm not able to bring in any sales until this course ends. What's more, it's a full day, 9 to 6 course everyday, where got time to meet clients? haha.... Anyway, I have a lot of CPD hours to make up as I'm late again today and no hours will be credited into my account. Haiz.... Waited for my turn for the BI presentation. Arhg!!!! I made a mess out of it midway through the persentation. Not that I will fail, as it's a sure pass course, just that I'm disappointed with myself. Those things are what I have been doing ever since I stepped into this industry! Guess I have not improved with my 'years of experience'. I better start learning everything from scratch again....

Went for lunch before coming back to take our product assessment. As expected, I failed the first time round, but passed at the 2nd attempt. Thought I'll be the few that have to retake to pass. Guess what? Only 2 passed at the first attempt! And 1 of them actually copied from the answer sheet! Don't ask me how he managed to get the answers from the answer sheet, it's supposed to be a secret between him and me. haha.... After that is our debrief, where we have to access the trainers now. hehe.... Most of the trainers are fine and nice, except for 1 or 2, which I pointed out. Well.... If they are not good, they are not good. Since I can accept criticism, they have to. Otherwise, they will never improve and we, as 'students', are going to suffer. So.... ya....

Then Ezzy showed us a powerpoint presentation of his years in the industry and his achievements throughout his career, and how he lost his right leg from the groin down. It haven't been an easy thing for him to go through all those years of torture, which took away his right leg, esp someone like him who's so adventurous and likes outdoor activities. If I were him, probably I'll won't know what to do, where my direction is next and never be able to pick myself up. Guess that's what separates me from those successful people, a never-say-die mentality. After that, he showed us another presentation of a wonderful story of an agent selling insurance to a couple. Despite saying all the necessary, the couple still remains unconvinced, until their little daughter comes in and asked what the agent is selling, and what is insurance. The agent tells a story to the little gal, that says life is a Sea of Hope, where parents have to cross on order to see and care for their children on the other side of the sea. During the journey, there will be large fishes that will come up and take their parents away. What happens is that if one of them is being taken down, what's left behind is either their daddy or mummy, which makes the journey to the other side of the sea much tougher. But.... there's a ship that carries all the daddies and mummies over to the other side of the sea. So that even when during the journey, if the daddy is taken down by the large fishes, the mummy will still be able to get over to the other side of the sea to see her children. What they need, is just to purchase the ticket to get on board of the ship. Upon hearing that, the little gal asked her daddy and mummy whether are they going to buy the ticket to the ship. The purpose of the story summarise this; this industry is all about telling stories. No point you know all the facts and why the need to get insured and planning for you and your family's future. Who doesn't know that? But until stories that are told can make an impact on them, they will never never realize how important it is to get themselves covered....

Came back after the meaningful last day of the course, ate a bit during dinner before going to A.B.C for my usual soccer session. Wonder what's with me today, damn off form until Ivan asked me whether today is not my day, and I replied yes. I mean, what else can I say about my play today. Shooting off, passing off, dribble off, tackles also off. And it's not just about me, it's with my whole team! We like hit the post and crossbar a total of not less than 5 times, end up losing 9-5, where every shots they took got in between the 2 posts. But the main culprit is still me lah, missing more than a dozen shots on goal and countless missed passes. What the crap.... Wondering what's bothering me.... I'm so frustrated during the game today. Haiz....

Something to feel happy about, after a frustrating night at A.B.C. I managed to get her number! Someone who I have been missing since my trip from Taiwan. Thought all is lost when I failed to get her contact when she left on the final day. But.... somehow, I tried ways to get in touch with her and she replied with an email. That sure lift up my spirits! *smiles*

我怕来不及 我要抱着你
直到感觉你的皱纹 有了岁月的痕迹
直到肯定你是真的 直到失去力气
为了你 我愿意

动也不能动 也要看着你
直到感觉你的发线 有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊 直到不能呼吸
让我们 形影不离

如果 全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹

也许 全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里

我怕来不及 我要抱着你
直到感觉你的发线 有了白雪的痕迹
直到视线变得模糊 直到不能呼吸
让我们 形影不离

如果 全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹

也许 全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里

我们好不容易 我们身不 由已
我怕时间太快 不够将你看仔细
我怕时间太慢 日夜担心失去你
恨不得一夜 之间白头 永不分离

如果 全世界我也可以放弃
至少还有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹

也许 全世界我也可以忘记
就是不愿意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我总记得在那里

在那里

Moment of silence for the entertainer....

Got to training early today, thanks to the cab. Set my alarm clock at 7am, but still woke up at 8plus. Haiz.... Why like that.... I already got no money le and still got such extra expenses. Sianz....

Lessons before lunch today is damn bored. The trainer kept the lecture going all the way from 9plus till 1plus for our lunch. No break in between. and I'm so tired that I fell asleep a few times. Damn tired loh.... I only slept like 2 hrs, after busy loading all the pictures of my items for sale. Worse still! The trainer only gave us less than an hr for lunch! What the hell.... End up eating with the others at the coffeeshop nearby instead of the usual food centre.

After lunch is still the same, with all the assessments and lectures. Assessments usually keeps me awake and energetic, but the trainer is damn boring, though he's trying his best to keep us entertained with his not-so-funny jokes. And he kept saying things that are not relevant, like pickign on our vocal and grammar, which resulted in no break again and go back late. Damn stupid loh.... Haiz.... Wonder why he's a trainer....

Thought there's p-ball today, but called off because of not enough players as one player that makes the difference decided to back out at the last minute. Sianz.... Took my dinner at the coffeeshop during lunch, before making my way home. Rested for a while before going for my kicking session at A.B.C. Don't know why, but seems to play with better composure than usual despite so tired from so little sleep for the past couple of days, esp last night. Almost scored a goal today and got no chance of any assists, but still enjoyed the game play. Probably I found back the joy of playing my favourite game, the game that I hold so much passion for....

Went for a drink with Chee Ming, Fu and Ah Hui, who just came back from East Coast. Bought some drinks from 7-11 and sat at the usual coffeeshop spot. Didn't want to eat cos I set up my mind to lose some extra kilos and get back my fitness. But all these can only be done once I passed my CHI and train with Chris. Hope I pass it on friday.... Long time since Ah Hui joined us for a drink and he ordered wan tan mee with Fu to tempt me. Chee Ming even says that he got money, can lend me 1st if I want to eat! What the crap! But I withstand all the temptation and just drink my chocolate milk. Hey! Chocolate also fattening right? Realized it only after almost finishing it! haha.... We sat there and chit chat about the crocodile hunter, Steve Irwin. I didn't even know who he is when I first told of the news. Until I realized that he's the very bold and passionate crocodile and snake 'catcher' that I saw when watching Animal Planet with my dad. Only then then I realized that when guys turned into uncles, they will tend to watch animal planet and discovery types of channels, as Chee Ming, Fu and my dads all watching that kinds of channels! haha.... Ah Hui kept saying that Steve Irwin kana stung by the stingray, most probably devilray, because he go and disturb it. Maybe it's true ba.... Since he always want to get the effects by playing in very dangerous ways with the animals. Whatever the reason is, let's give the great entertainer our moment of silence as a form of respect. No matter how crazy, how arrogant, how well-known he is, he has brought a lot of moments to us with his efforts....

蔡琴: 这世界 乍看之下有点灰
王力宏: 你微笑的脸 有些疲惫
许茹芸: 抬起头 天空就要亮起来
孙燕姿: 不要放弃你 的希望和期待

周华舰 林慧萍: 沙漠中的一滴泪 化成绿洲的湖水
伍思凯: 真心若能被看见 梦会实现

庾澄庆: 手牵手 我的 朋友
庾澄庆 李心洁: 爱永远 在你 左右
张信哲 顺子: 不要再恐惧 绝不要放弃 这一切将会渡过
吴宗宪 陶晶莹: 因为你和我 才有明天的 彩虹

Energy: 手牵手我的 朋友
B.A.D: 爱永远在你 左右

张宇: 这一刻 不要躲在害怕后面
萧亚轩: 这个世界需要多一点 信念
蔡依林: 那尘埃 不会真的将你打败
江蕙: 你将会意外 生命的光采

游鸿明 苏芮: 风雨过去那一天 悲伤就要停下来
动力火车: 感觉你身边的爱 它存在

范逸臣 张清芳: 手牵手 我的 朋友
范逸臣 张清芳: 爱永远 在你 左右
周杰伦 张惠妹: 不要再恐惧 绝不要放弃 这一切将会渡过
张惠妹: 因为你和我 才有明天的 彩虹

Bridge: 我的手 握著温暖的火种
陶喆: 散发一点光和热 就看到笑容

周渝民 朱孝天 徐若瑄: 手牵手 我的 朋友
信乐团: 爱永远 在你 左右
Tension: 不要再恐惧 绝不要放弃
迪克牛仔: 这一切 将会渡过
庾澄庆 彭佳慧: 因为你和我 才有明天的彩虹

合唱:手牵手 我的 朋友
爱永远 在你 左右
不要再恐惧 绝不要放弃 这一切将会渡过
因为你和我 才有明天的彩虹

Machi: 手牵手我的朋友
S.H.E: 爱永远在你 左右
5566: 手牵手一起渡过
可米小子: 爱永远在你左右

合唱: 手牵手 我的 朋友
爱永远 在你 左右
不要再恐惧 绝不要放弃 这一切将会渡过
牵著我的手 看见明天的 彩虹

合唱: 手牵手我的朋友
爱永远在你左右
手牵手 一起渡过
爱永远在你左右

陶喆 王力宏: 手牵手 我的朋友

Johnny, go go go!!!!

Course starts with a test today, and I'm late. So not only do I have lesser time for the test, I also got no CPD hours. Shit! But some consolation though. The 2 tests today is so easy, passed it with no sweat. If only CHI is as easy as those. Haiz.... Watched a video on money laundering after that, before going for lunch. During the video though, I'm doing my weekend homework cos I know I'm sure to fall asleep if I just sit there and watch. I slept at 4plus last night! For goodness sake..... *yawnz*

After lunch comes the role play assessment. It's been so long since I last done it, probably years back when I attended the John Hancock starter course. But today is the first time that the whole assessment is being video down! Hm.... Going to be a star? haha.... Linus is very good with his presentation, confident and detailed. But probably due to nervousness, he's not very natural. But for first-timer like him, he's considered very good le. I'm worse! I actually forgot what to say midway through my presentation and actually asked for a pause. Like I call for 'cut'! Where got actor so big shot and asked for 'cut' one.... haha.... Even Fen is much better than me, though she's also very nervous. What the crap! haha.....

Went to Fen's agency at 4th level to play with the SIS for our homework. But.... there's not much details loh.... The product summary and benefit illustration didn't really tells everything that needs to be known. Haiz....

Came back and took my dinner. Thought today's p-ball day, so told mama not to cook. But end up no p-ball so bought food home, so as to catch the Ultimate Comedian in time. Hm.... Johnny and his friend is on show today, so rushed back with my food to watch it. Both of them are damn good man! Got 10 points for Huang Zi Jiao, and a total of 27 of out a possible 30! Well done! Then there's this lady that I thought will go on to win the contest during the first round of selection shown 2 weeks back. Guess what? She got perfect score for today's audition! 30 out of 30! OMG! She's really damn good loh.... Really deserves the perfect score. woohoo! Sent in sms to support Johnny and his friend. Well.... I always give my support to those who I know and those who deserves it. If I don't support my friends, who else is going to do it? Then what's the point of being friends? I sure 挺你到底! 加油! 加油! 加油!

我的世界
拢总算来没几项
初一十五月娘看来拢相像
我相信有梦就会红

我的理想
算来嘛是没几项
实实在在做人加认真打拼
我相信有梦就会红

有一天你会红
打拼拢是为前程 耶嘿
一定会出头天
有朋友鼓励牵成

有一天你会红
虽然不是大明星 嘿嘿
一定会出头天
不趁今日趁何时

我的世界
拢总算来没几项
初一十五月娘看来拢相像
我相信有梦就会红

我的理想
算来嘛是没几项
实实在在做人加认真打拼
我相信有梦就会红

有一天你会红
打拼拢是为前程 耶嘿
一定会出头天
有朋友鼓励牵成

有一天你会红
虽然不是大明星 嘿嘿
一定会出头天
不趁今日趁何时

只要有梦你会红

有一天你会红
打拼拢是为前程 耶嘿
一定会出头天
有朋友鼓励牵成

有一天你会红
虽然不是大明星 嘿嘿
一定会出头天
不趁今日趁何时

只要有梦你会红
你会红
你会红

Thanks to TC, for his direct and valuable advices/wakeup call....

Missed my tulip selling event for CCF. What the crap! It's supposed to be a charity event that I so wanted to help for the poor children, and yet.... Haiz.... Better make sure that I'll be there for all the next coming events for them. This, I promise!

Went to queue for Superstar around 3plus. Well.... It's supposed to be an event that I'm supposed to go with Ren and motivate him towards his dream, but end up I don't even know whether he's there or not. Well.... I do know later on after that when I sms him, and he said that he's not going to come back tomorrow as it's too late and he have to come back tomorrow due to the overwhelming responses. I sort of expected it, as it's not the first time I took part in such event. Saw Sijia and her cousin and her friend there. Actually, she's the reason why I'm there queuing for the event. Knew then that she's interested in singing competition and sent her the website for registration, and she agreed readily. As the ladies' audition is next week, she came today to support her cousin. She went off at 4plus since getting there at 1plus, while I left at about 6plus since I knew I would have to come back tomorrow. I can't come as I need to attend my foundation course so no point. Asked TC out for dinner and left after he came to find meat TPY.

After dinner, we went jalan jalan before sitting down inside the mrt station to chat. Hm.... Weird place for a chat right? It happens often for us, as we always thought about going home, but end up talking about life after getting into the station. Then we would go on and on without thinking about going home. Talked about our perspectives about getting a gf. Our differences in our views, our criterias, our type of suitabilities etc.... Hm.... Seems like we are quite different in our selections, as I put like maybe 30% in appearance, 70% in personality that can suits me, while he is the opposite. And he even said like 80% in appearance and 20% in personality! OMG! haha.... But given the way sg gals is, I even suggested to him to look for vietnam chinese bride. haha.... Then talked about our stages right now where it's not suitable to get a gf. 1st, we both have no time as he busy with work, personal and office studies, followup matters and his investments, while I have my papers to take, my course that may come in one by one, work, business and my passion, which is soccer. 2ndly, is because of no money and no career = no security in short for our partner to feel secured. Perhaps, it's really not the time for me to get a gf, though I really yearn for someone who can share my happenings with me, and I can care for her, show my concern for her, give her a hug whenever she feels down, be there for her when she needs someone by her side, lend her a listening ear when she needs to talk to someone. But.... .... ....

Slowly, we got to the subject that troubling me for these few weeks. My inability to pass my CHI, and all the things that implicating it. Talked about our focus and what we want in life and not making any plans or progress towards what I want. He even talked about me wasting time taking part in superstar and playing soccer, but he doesn't know the meaning behind it. All these things that I'm doing, is due to my passion. Soccer and such, all these are my passion.... Little do those who knows me, knows what it means to me....

時間已做了選擇
什麼人叫做朋友
偶而碰頭
心情卻能一點就通

因為我們曾有過
理想類似的生活
太多感受
絕非三言兩語能形容

可能有時我們顧慮太多
太多決定需要我們去選擇
擔心會犯錯 難免會受挫
幸好一路上有妳 陪我

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇窗能讓 視野不同

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇門讓 世界開闊

因為我們曾有過
理想類似的生活
太多感受
絕非三言兩語能形容

可能有時我們顧慮太多
太多決定需要我們去選擇
擔心會犯錯 難免會受挫
幸好一路上有妳 陪我

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇窗能讓 視野不同

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇門讓 世界開闊

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇窗能讓 視野不同

與妳分享的快樂
勝過獨自擁有
至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇門讓 世界變開闊

What's happening to me????

Seriously thought a lot about friendship last night, probably that resulted in my dreams.... Dreamt about a few of my secondary school friends, friends that had gone through thick and thin with me. People like Nian Hua, Kai Zhong, Sheng Zhi, Jiunn Ming, etc.... Can't really figured out who's who during those dreams last night, but it all happened the same way. Was attending a gathering, or rather gatherings, and when the birthday cake for them appears, I would just quietly leave my presents, and leave quietly while the others are singing birthday song for them. It happened not just on 1 or 2, at least 3 or 4 occasions. The same thing keeps repeating and repeating for the 3 or 4 of them. It's not the same person, but the scenerios all almost the same each and every time. Why is that happening? Is it a signal that I have not been a popular figure, and that I have to leave any celebratory scenes before I spoil the happy atmosphere? Perhaps.... I really am not a worthy friend afterall....

Was watching this local movie starring Liu Qian Yi. It' a story about he being an insurance manager, taking care of group of agents. Though that's the case, he doesn't just sit there and wait for the so-call overwriting comm that he's getting from his agents. Instead, he goes round selling insurance, and settling his clients' claims with much efficiency. No wonder he's able to get to where he is. But alas, things don't go smooth for him, as for all of us. He suffered from Kidney failure as he didn't have the time to do a full body checkup for 3 years. Even though he's unwell, he still goes round doing his work, doing what he needs to. If only I'm half as good as him.... Anyway, during the times when he's unwell and in hospital, he learnt to be more caring, doing things to help others that's outside his scope and not asking for any rewards or returns, unlike before. There's this part that touches me most. His brother, who stayed with him for a year plus after being thrown out of his house, decided to donate his kidney to him. When Liu asked him why did he do that, he cooked up all sorts of excuses like, I've been drinking the milk that you bought for me for the past one year, you have been providing for me even though I am your agent that brings in more MCs than sales, etc.... When Liu asked him is it worthy for him to do that to him, to donate his kidney to him, the truth came out of his brother's mouth. 'Of course it's worth it, because you are my brother.' This sentence really send tears down my cheeks.... Usually, I'll just allow the tears to flow and wipe it away whenever I saw touching scenes. But today, the tears just flowed like nobody business and I buried my face in my towel. How come today is so different? Is the sentence really that strong to makes me much more emotional than usual? Or is it I've been suppressing myself for weeks that I just want to find an excuse to just let go of all the tears that's been waiting to erupt inside me all this time????

Went for my game at Braddell. We won 7-4, but we could have lost 1-4 or 0-4 instead. Reason being that we do not have enough players and managed to get 3 players who are training there earlier to play for us. If not for them, we could easily have been whacked jialat jialat. Part of the reason is me of course. Think I am at fault for all 3 goals conceded, amid the penalty that they scored. 1st is I didn't get back to cover the young striker where he's left with the easy task of beating our gk one-on-one. 2nd goal is I failed to head away the shot that comes in from an indirect freekick. 3rd goal is I failed to fall back fast enough to stop the winger from shooting. Not only that, playing as a left back, I failed to stop the opponents' right winger time and time again. Not once or twice, but at least a dozen times throughout the whole game. Guess what? The right winger is at least in his late 3o's or even 40's! And yet he can outpaced me! And I'm always proud of my pace! What the fuck! Guess I am not as fast and pacy as I once was. Guess I am really getting old....

我 为何要存在 为何要感慨
为何顫抖停 不下来
你 为何要推翻 为何要离开
为何给我这 个答案

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

你 话中的计算 准确的伤害
像精心打造 的对白
我 画开了动脈 也许不醒来
至少昨天无 法毀坏

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

我们最后这么遗憾
我们最后这么无关
时时刻刻每个现在
都在嘲笑我

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

我们最后这么遗憾
我们最后这么无关
时时刻刻每个现在
都在嘲笑我

我们曾经那么精采
我们曾经那么期待
最后你把回忆还我
要我好好过

我们最后这么遗憾
我们最后这么无关
时时刻刻每个现在
都在嘲笑我

都在嘲笑我

Am I asking for too much????

Woke up early this morning and managed to take my breakfast before going for course. Shiok! To be not rushing for time and having time to eat and not late. Love that feeling. I will take it into my strife and keep on being early and serious in my work. Course quite dull before lunch, listening to lectures and reading notes. Sianz.... It's so much better after lunch, where we do case study and that brought me alive. Got assignment to do and it sure keeps me awake man! woohoo! Then later part after assessment was very dry lecture that I fell asleep. OMG! Not nice man.... But I really damn tired, having slept so late last night and got up so much earlier today cos it starts at 9am today, instead of 9.30am. *yawnz*

Took bus 100 all the way from Alexandra to Serangoon, before taking train to Hougang to meet one of my friend. She wasn't feeling good today, so despite being very tired, decided to accompany her. Actually, wanted to watch movie, but she wanted to go ktv so.... ya.... Went ktv and sang from 7plus till 1plus. During the session, she told me a lot about the various songs that she sang, those that she sang to her ex(s) and those she got her ex(s) to sing for her, and also those where she didn't have the chance to hear it from him/them. We also sang a few duets together, but I always spoilt the songs lah.... She sang so nice, and yet I can't sing it well, eps when I'm so tired today. Worse! I kept reading the lyrics wrongly and fail to catch up with the tune. Haiz.... Except for one song, we sang very well. Hm.... Guess that's only song I can sing together with her, or whoever sing duet with me. Loved that song, and sure can sing it well. Almost wanted to tell her that the song is for her, but.... Guess it's not possible between us lah.... Different thinkings, different characters. She won't be interested to give it a try with me anyway, so.... ya....

Though I have managed to cheer her up earlier on, but parted on a not so happy note. She's actually angry with me because I didn't want to tell her something that's really nothing at all. End up will talk about me, so what for.... She's damn angry loh.... Just walked off like that, leaving me behind. Even when I try to hold her back and called her, she just pick up her hp and walked off. Should I be angry with her? Or did I do the wrong thing again, by saying thing that I shouldn't have said? Haiz.... So much for.... Never mind....

Darling sent me sms about her plans to set up store and told me to go and support and bring some friends along. Why is it that friends will only find you whenever they need help? Why is it that they never thought of you when they want to go for meals, movies, activities, just for a drink and chit chat? Why is it that I, ME, only comes to their minds when they help something from me? Am I really such an unworthy friend that they don't bother to keep ties with me, until they find that they need me? Called Shao yesterday and I can tell you, we have not talked on the phone for couple of months, not to mention meeting up. And the response he gave is like.... where's my betting tickets that you owed me? Then after that he said that he's going for his badminton session and call me back another day. Will he ever call? I doubt so.... Probably when he needs me then I will get a call from him I guess.... What is friendship? Am I asking for too much from my friends? Perhaps I am, cos I expect them to care for me the way I care for them. But, what have I got at the end of the day? And what have I given them at the end of the day? Perhaps nothing given and nothing taken....

Jacky: just a gentle whisper
told me that you’ve gone
leaving only memories
where did we go wrong

Jacky: i couldn’t find the words then
so let me say them now
i’m still in love with you

Regina: tell me that you love me
tell me that you care
tell me that you need me and i’ll be there
i’ll be there waiting

Regina: i will always love you
i will always stay true
there’s no one who loves you like i do

Together: come to me now
i will never leave you
i will stay here with you
through the good and bad i will stand true

Together: i’m in love with you

Jacky: now we’re here together
yesterday has past
life is just beginning
close to you at last

Jacky: and i promise to you
i will always be there
i give my all to you

Regina: living life without you
Together: is more than i can bear
Together: hold me close forever

Jacky: i’ll be there
Together: i’ll be there for you

Together: i will always love you
i will always stay true
there’s no one who loves you like i do
this i promise

Together: i will never leave you
i will stay here with you
through the good and bad i will stand true
hold me closer

Together: our love is forever
holding us together
nothing in this world can stop us now

Jacky: love has found
Regina: love has found
Together: a way
Regina: yeah....

Regina: i’m in love
Jacky: i’m so in love
Jacky: yes i’m love
Together: i’m so in love with you

Being an artiste isn't easy....

Arrived late for my Foundation, then didn't bring my tie as I thought it's a course, no need to be so formal. Fortunately, the trainer is kind enough to pardon me this time, but I'm told to bring my tie tomorrow. His name is Herman, and he asked if I have a tie. Guess I look young enough to let people have the impression that I'm a greenhorn at work. haha.... Then he offered to bring for me in case I don't have, and I told him that I'll be wearing purple tomorrow. Guess what he said? He said that those who loves wearing purple means they have not make out for very long. Hm.... If that's true, then I should be wearing purple since the day I'm borned! haha....

It's so cold and so hungry throughout the whole morning, as I didn't take my breakfast and the aircon is so freaking cold. On course is always a torture, though I have to admit that you do learn a lot of things along the way. Went for lunch at the hawker centre opposite Queensway Shopping Centre, and didn't really talk to anyone much as I'm having a stomachache. Argh.... Came back and almost falling asleep on a few occasions, until the trainer tell me that if I wanna fall asleep, I can go and stand at a corner to stay awake. Then he was saying about his OCS days where the training officer would do that to those who fall asleep. Hello! I have ORD long long time ago, and this is not even N.S! I'm already serving my ICT! For goodness sake.... Then there's an exercise where I'm the odd one out and he offered to do that with me. Ok lah, after that, we actually have a better understanding of each other. He's quite a nice guy afterall, and when he lectures, ho man, he really knows how to hit you hard on your soft spot! He makes a perfect salesperson, if he ever wants to be one. Oh well.... He used to be an ex-agent, and I gather he must be those top performers back then. Then there's a group assignment and I was like fooling around and enjoying being high. haha....

Slept on the bus, came back and slept again after my dinner. Damn tired.... End up haven't do my assignment and I finished it at almost 3am. Tired.... Was watching kang xi lai le, today's episode is on artistes that are not famous. There's one of them, Wang Pei Rong, who actually used up all her savings and left with only $5! Damn pitiful loh.... And she's not the only one who are left with so little to get on with life at the end of the day. Then still got those when they held event where we can go up and get their signatures, only 10 person turned up and listen to their singing and asked for their autographs. And even at times when they got like 30 audiences, 10 of them is actually their relatives! Damn sad right.... And then there's those people when singer throw their posters, they avoid it instead of jumping to snatch it like those big stars! What the hell.... Since you all are there already, can't you just give them a little bit of support? Artistes like them who just entered showbiz, who really want to make a name for themselves in showbiz, who have given a lot and put in a lot in showbiz, really need your support. Please be a bit appreciative with what they have done, their efforts, their sacrifices, their will to hang in there....

Tank: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
一阵风 一首歌 摇晃思
念只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言 离别

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
一颗心 一种病 不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结

合: 有没有一把剑
Tank: 可以真斩了藕断丝连
合: 有没有一条线
Selina: 能缝 扯散了缘

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

Tank: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
她微笑 她捧花 都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
看倔强 带幸福 越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切

合: 有没有一把剑
Tank: 可以真斩了藕断丝连
合: 有没有一条线
合: 能缝
Tank: 扯散了缘

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

S: 我站在柳絮扎眼 寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然沉默 泪流

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧

合: 独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

What's going on????

I'm getting very very pessimistic, and very very fedup with my CHI. Today is my 4th try at it, and I failed yet again. Can you imagine that kind of jinxed and frustrated feeling? The kind of pressure to pass and yet you keep failing? The tension is building up, and picking up, and the volcano is set to erupt soon. I had been getting all kinds of shit from my manager and my own expectations. Guess anybody who steps on my tail now is going to get a hell lot of shit from me. Please stay away from me, to avoid getting brunt by lava....

Dreamt about one of my past love interests last night. Dreamt that I picked her up from work and went to our friend's chalet. As we got there quite late, we just go there and chatted with our friends, before everyone is so tired and took our nap. Hm.... Strangely enough, why is she the one who came into my dream? Is it because I still have that bit of feel for her? Anyway, since she came to my mind as I recalled that dream after my paper, decided to sms her about my disappointment over my CHI. End up getting myself more upset with her replies. Haiz.... I don't need you to analyze what went wrong for me, at least not now. I just want to seek a bit of consolation from you. Sometimes, people just need your concerns instead of finding solutions from you. Jul is still the best lah, keep consoling me when I talked to her over the phone. So nice of her.... At least she understands what I really needs, though we are just friends. Thanks a lot! Jul.... You like my aunt agony like that, always can lift up my spirits whenever I needed a pull.*smiles*

Talked about her bgr matters with 2 of her suitors. Hm.... Told her to think and find out what she really wants before making any major decisions, before she regret what she does. It's kind of complicated, and I'm like so engrossed in it that I board the wrong train towards the wrong direction. haha....

Went to my sis's place to take pictures of my shipment that came in just yesterday. Spent about few hrs arranging and letting my sis pick what she wants from the clothings and ornaments that I bought back. Kind of delighted when she commented that I have quite good taste in fashion, bringing in the nice nice cute cute dresses. hehe.... Ordered pizzas and chicken wings for dinner. Actually wanted to order Pizzahut, but sis's maple son said that Canadian is cheaper, while she also finds that Canadian pizzas is nicer. Kind of regretted it after that, as Canadian is not very nice, esp the seafood. Milano is still the best that I ever tasted. Used to go to the Funan branch with my secondary schoolmates as often as we can after soccer matches. You know lah, schooling don't have much money one, so can only enjoy while we can. But now, it seems that you can't find any of Milano branches nowadays. What a pity.... Haiz....

Finished taking all the pictures only at about 11plus, and end up taking a cab back with all the stuff. Eh.... Not all lah, not enough hands to carry so many things. Still left some at sis's place. Anyway, if really got buyer, I can also send out the items from there as the Singpost around Sengkang is quite near her place. Anyway, loaded all the pictures up to my laptop, rename it and taken note of it before going to bed. OMG! It's already 3plus! And I still have to get up at 7plus to get ready and go for my course at 9.30am! Hope I'm not late tomorrow. Heard that AIA is very strict with punctuality. The guy from training department even called me up and reminded me about the time and place, and told me not to be late. Otherwise, I have to go for the next session. Oh no....

这时候 最能让我想 起你
多希望你在 这里
你总是愿意
把你的手心 借给我握紧

该往哪里 我总是依赖 着你
你是我的方 向感
我可以确定
你会带着我 朝对的方向 前进

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得 渺小
我遇见一个最懂 我的人
我会提醒自己 把这份爱收好

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手 就知道
我不是一个人在 这世界停靠
因为我拥有你(拥有你) 在我心里

thinking of you 有你真好
thinking of you hu oh

该往哪里 我总是依赖 着你
你是我的方 向感
我可以确定
你会带着我 朝对的方向 前进

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得 渺小
我遇见一个最懂 我的人
我会提醒自己 把这份爱收好

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手 就知道
我不是一个人在 这世界停靠
因为我拥有你(拥有你) 在我心里

因为有你
我看见世界的美丽

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手 就知道
我不是一个人在 这世界停靠
因为我拥有你(拥有你) 在我心里

i'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手 就知道(我就知道)
我早已经没有任 何缺少
因为我拥有你 在我心里

thinking of you 有你真好
thinking of you 有你真好

Crazy or what?

Seems like I wanted too much to have a child that I can dote on le, dreamt about how I protected a child last night, so much so that I go as far as carry her and jump from a high place and ran from place to place to escape from bad guys. What the hell.... What a weird dream sia.... Am I going crazy? Hm.... If I know that something is wrong with me, I should be able to contain it right? So I am not crazy after all.... But then again, I might know what's going on, what's wrong with me, but I can't do anything to it if it's getting out of hand right? But if I know that it's getting out of hand, I should be able to get a hold of myself right? Hm.... This will go on and on and will have no end. Guess I know what's going on best lah! haha....

Decided to work further on my CHI cos I need it to be contracted for my work. I'm going to take it again tomorrow, please pray for me.... haha.... Watched the ch.8 show at 7pm, and Christopher Lee was so desperately looking for job, until he finally got one. But end up his ex-employer came over and talked about his bad past, and caused him to lose that opportunity. What the hell! People is in a bad enough state, must you push people up the wall? He just need a job to survive, can you just give people a chance? Beware that one day you will be the one looking at people for opportunity! No one will feel sad for you! You will not be successful all the time, beware of your karma! And I pray that you this kind of people deserves no sympathy from others! Not only that, others will stamp on you and make sure you never get the chance to turn around again! Hate this kind of bloody assholes most! Bloody IDIOT! And Lee got himself so drunk that he was saying despite already in his late twenties, he has achieved nothing. No job, no career, no one with him by his side. Hm.... That sounds so familiar.... Will I be like him when I'm reaching my 30's? Really said out my xin sheng.... Suddenly, that gal came to my mind, and I thought about whether will I be good enough for her, taking into consideration that she's a professional in her own rights. How am I going to convince her that I'll be the right guy for her when I have achieved nothing in my 25 years? But then again, the feeling for her is always on 1st sight....

Went for my soccer session at A.B.C around 8plus. Hm.... Went there early today, so as to catch more action and get more exercise. It's been so long since I jog there, I've been walking there rather than jog there lately. What the hell.... Whenever I'm there at 9pm, it's packed and I will have to wait. Today I went there at 8.30pm, and turn out I'm the 3rd player there. OMG! Is the correct timing at 8.45pm then? Haiz.... Since no one is there yet, I went for further warmup by running round the small circle surrounding the basketball court. By then, plus the stretching exercises, my whole body is perspiring like hell. I must be damn unfit....

Game started with just 8 players. Hm.... So it's not the timing that's wrong, just that it happened to be a no players day. haha.... I realized that after the little bit of warmup, my brain works faster, and my movements are faster too. The negative note is that, because I'm still struggling with my fitness, my legs are aching when the game had just started due to the running before the game. Hm.... Got to work harder on my fitness. Had some planning to go with Chris after my course ends the week after next. Hope I'm discipline enough ba.... Anyway, game is quite fun today, maybe because I've began to enjoy my football more and I'm not so moody anymore. Football is still the thing that can never fail to put a smile on my face, but with more fitness and more cooperation with my teammates of course. Though today's game is fun, but it's marred by one of my fellow player, as he really think he's RVN when he wears the Holland jersey with RVN behind. What the hell! You so good, can play alone, then what for you need us? When defending, didn't even see you, only know how to get the ball and dribble and shoot. You know what's called teamwork or not? Bet you don't know, because you don't even know what is a pass! Damn pissed off by his attitude! *angry*

Came back right after the game, as Chee Ming and Fu didn't come down today so didn't go for a drink. Though the fellow in my team today annoyed me a lot, but I still feel quite happy. Not because of the tons of goals I scored today, hattrick in the first game and 2 in the 2nd game, but more on the fact that I've found back the kind of joy playing football. The kind of joy that I will joke around and talk a lot during the game, really enjoyed playing the beautiful game. It's been so so long since I last played so happily. I'm so happy! woohoo! But after the 'shortlived' joy, it's back to my stressful moment; studying for my CHI tomorrow morning! What the hell.... No slot in the afternoon tomorrow and I'm taking the 11am slot. Sianz.... Have to finish reading and reading and reading by tonight. Time now is 11.30pm, time to study! haha....

你怎麼可以這樣糊涂
竟打算給我你的全部
放棄了整座森林
只為了一棵矮椰樹

如何讓你明白讓你懂
說到長廂廝守 就頭痛
朝朝暮暮守著 一棵樹
不敢擔保自己承受得住

如果有一天 我有了大肚腩
你對我是否意興闌珊
如果有一天 你成了黃臉婆
我是否 會嫌你又老 又羅嗦

如果有一天 我有了大肚腩
你是否 會愛我依然
如果有一天 你身材走了樣
我是否還會為你摘下星星 月亮

這時代瞬間萬變
談戀愛像吃快餐一樣方便
因為沒有勇氣相信永遠
只好向你承諾我會 珍惜眼前

如果有一天 我有了大肚腩
你對我是否意興闌珊
如果有一天 你成了黃臉婆
我是否 會嫌你又老 又羅嗦

如果有一天 我有了大肚腩
你是否 會愛我依然
如果有一天 你身材走了樣
我是否還會為你摘下星星 月亮

如果不小心 我們白頭偕老
上帝保佑我們恩愛依然
當我們老掉了牙 花白了頭髮
讓我當月亮來溫暖你 縐縐的臉龐

如果有一天 我有了大肚腩
不要緊啦 拿來當枕頭睡羅

In all kinds of moods....

Went for my C.H.I today. Again.... Can't seems to understand why I have not been able to pass this stupid paper! Guess what.... I FAIL! Again! What the hell.... When I saw the paper today, I'm so confident that I can pass. I was smiling all the way throughout the paper. But then again, how did I fail? For goodness sake! If I can't pass this simple paper, I can forget about taking other paper again. It's so damn bloody easy ok! Shit! I'm like so jinxed to pass this damn stupid paper! What the hell!

Watched 麻辣一家親 on youtube. Kind of fallen in love with this show, but too bad sg don't sell it. Otherwise, I would have got it and watch it, instead of having to wait and wait for youtube users to load it up. Anyway, thanks to those loaded it up. I won't even have the chance to watch it if not for them. When I'm in Taiwan, I stopped at the part where Wen Rou's daughter had not appeared. Today, I managed to catch the episodes after that. Her daughter, Xiao Wan Zi, is so sensible and so caring towards her mum, thought Wen Rou is a workaholic and always throw Xiao Wan Zi somewhere to attend to her work. But then, Wen Rou do cares a lot for her. She will go around crying and look for her whenever she realized that she had lost her. But time and time again, instead of being angry and spoilt, Xiao Wan Zi will always appear in front of her and tell her not to keep working so hard, must have enough rest and don't be too tired out. If I ever have a child like Xiao Wan Zi in future, I'll be so touched that I'll cry everyday. sobsob....

Finally played my last pq at maple today, as I reached lvl51. Actually, if not for the bulk exp that I can get by finishing the pq, I wouldn't want to do it. Cos the rewards at the end of it is not that great. You get pots, mana pots, elixirs, ores, etc.... Those common items that you can get. Unlike the pq for lvl25 to lvl30. I would want to go for that often. Hm.... Perhaps, it's time to play my bowman or work my ice mage towards that. haha.... Today, I experienced all the four moods that appeared on my intro board. Joy, anger, sad, happiness, and more than that. I experienced disappointed, touched, 'she bu de' and 'pan wang'. Still thinking about why have I failed my C.H.I again. Is my memory really that poor? What can I do to rectify that problem? What must I do? What should I do?

你笑我除了记性什么都好
我想想也不算太糟糕
你生日几月几号我知道
只是你几岁 没那么重要

我觉得我的心思够用就好
才不想储存太多烦恼
只要能和你一起相守到老
我会把幸福 都写成小抄

我可能忘了生气也忘了坏心情
却记得要逗你开心
曾有过什么风雨 我很难记得仔细
只有甜蜜 加倍甜蜜

我常常忘了休息常忘了我自己
只记得别让你担心
没有你那么聪明 我怎么活到如今
忘了一切 没有关系 我有你

你笑我除了记性什么都好
我想想也不算太糟糕
你生日几月几号我知道
只是你几岁 没那么重要

我觉得我的心思够用就好
才不想储存太多烦恼
只要能和你一起相守到老
我会把幸福 都写成小抄

我可能忘了生气也忘了坏心情
却记得要逗你开心
曾有过什么风雨 我很难记得仔细
只有甜蜜 加倍甜蜜

我常常忘了休息常忘了我自己
只记得别让你担心
没有你那么聪明 我怎么活到如今
忘了一切 没有关系 我有 你

我可能忘了生气也忘了坏心情
却记得要逗你开心
曾有过什么风雨 我很难记得仔细
只有甜蜜 加倍甜蜜

我常常忘了休息常忘了我自己
只记得别让你担心
没有你那么聪明 我怎么活到如今
忘了一切 没有关系 我有你

When will I have my own kids....

Woke up and went to meet TC & Jul at Bugis after settling something. Was late as a result, very late. Jul actually to meet at 1pm, but I suggested earlier at 12pm. End up, I was there only at 1.45pm! So paisei.... They both have their things to do, and they both have busy schedules. I'm so sorry....

Met them at Billy Bombers, one of my fav after going there for the 1st time with darling. Well.... Food there is nice, esp the root beer float. And the environment is so 'fu gu', great place for sentimental guy like me, brings back a lot of old memories. Though I'm not in that era, what I'm referring to is the surrounding, makes you savour the past.... Anyway, we discussed about our ways of distributing our items, the profit margin that we going to have and what are our future plans. Will it be a one-time thing? Or will it be a continous affair? We decided due to the inconvenience of getting the stuffs in from aboard, it shall be a one-off partnership. For the time being, as Jul is getting very busy with her work and rehearsals for performance, while TC is also juggling with his work, followups, work studies and his personal studies for degree. Well.... Guess time is always not on our side, in whatever we do. In whatever most of us do, to be precise.

Got to The Cage for a soccer session with Brandon and his uncles and friends, as well as some of the Schwarz Star players. Hm.... Wonder have I made the wrong decision.... Never mind.... I just wanna go there and have fun. Was told to play for Brandon's uncles' team, as they are short of a player. As if I cared, I just wanna have some fun, with my best mate, the soccer ball. The uncles are very nice, and very good players. They played the ball around with vision and brought the ball forward with skills. And included me in their moves, don't treat me like a stranger at all. So nice.... The only thing that lacked, of course is their fitness. Well.... You can't really expect much from players in their 40's, or even 50's right.... It's not so obvious in our first game, as we are playing with players that aren't that good. But the 2nd game showed their tireness, and we lost to the Schwarz Star team 3-0. They are just too fast, and too fit for us to play against. Well.... Kind of enjoyed playing with the uncles, though we lost, as they are very tactical, and very cooperative. Attack and not forgetting to track back and defend, just that we lost out in the fitness department. I'm no exception. That's why I have been stressing that thougt I'm 25, but I'm like someone is his 30's, late 30's that is. I had ENOUGH of this, I'm going to do something about it, and hope I can get a couple of friends to help me to instill discipline so that I won't side-track. You know, things like these really need discipline, esp for lazy people like me. haha....

Supposed to come back for dinner, but kana dragged by Brandon's parents and uncle for a meal at Oasis. Actually, I quite paisei. They already paid for the soccer session earlier, and now treat me to dinner. Thanks! Uncles and aunties. If everything goes well in my work, I'll give you all a treat back at The Cage for a soccer session the next time round.*smiles*

Brandon's dad gave me, and his cousin a lift back, as his cousin stayed just 2 blocks away from me! OMG! So near, and yet we haven't seen each other before. Well.... That's how small, and big, the world is out there. sg can be so small, and yet we might never even bump into someone that we knew, even until the day we die. The world is so big out there, but you might just bump into someone you know when you go for holiday. That's how strange fate is. If you are destined to see someone, you will. If you are not, you will never ever see him/her again.... If only fate permits, I would love to see her again....

Got home and watched the games between Villa vs Newcastle and Blackburn vs Chelsea. Most enjoying though is 'wo cai' late in the night. The part where they have to guess who is the fake 1 out of 3 specialities. There's this little gal, only 5 yrs old, so cute.... The way she answered questions and getting away from Jacky when he asked the little gal to kiss him. So cute.... And when she played the table-tennis, she's like a professional, at only 5 yrs old! Can you believe that! OMG! The way she moved around and hit the ping pong ball, so cute.... Kids are always so cute, just like those little kids who played at The Cage with me today. Kids are so nice, so cute, so carefree, so innocent.... Just being with them brings you back to the time where you have nothing to worry about. How I wish I can have my own kids....

亲亲的我的宝贝
我要越过高山
寻找那已失踪的太阳
寻找那已失踪的月亮

亲亲的我的宝贝
我要越过海洋
寻找那已失踪的彩虹
抓住瞬间失踪的流星

我要飞到无尽的夜空
摘颗星星作你的玩具
我要亲手触摸那月亮
还在上面写你的名字

啦啦呼啦啦 啦呼啦啦
还在上面写你的名字
啦啦呼啦啦 啦呼啦啦
最后还要平安回来回
来告诉你那一切
亲亲我的宝贝

啦啦 啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦 啦啦啦啦啦
啦啦啦啦啦啦 啦啦啦
啦啦啦啦啦啦 啦啦啦

亲亲的我的宝贝
我要越过高山
寻找那已失踪的太阳
寻找那已失踪的月亮

我要走的世界的尽头
寻找传说已久的雪人
还要用尽我一切办法
让他学会念你的名字

啦啦呼啦啦 啦呼啦啦
让他学会念你的名字
啦啦呼啦啦 啦呼啦啦
最后还要平安回来
回来告诉你那一切
亲亲我的宝贝

啦啦呼啦啦 啦呼啦啦
让他学会念你的名字
啦啦呼啦啦啦啦啦呼啦啦
最后还要平安回来
回来告诉你那一切
亲亲我的宝贝

Completely outclassed....

Got up and tidying my Maple accounts and characters. OMG! I have so many useless chars inside that I deleted and added some. Just for fun and for the sake of playing different chars whenever I'm bored with the current one, my main. haha.... In between the sessions, went down for my lunch, and bought some batteries for my digital cam. Kind of used up all during my Taiwan trip. haha....

Met up with Chris and Jon at the bus stop near my place to get to Serangoon Stadium. There's a testimonial game for Tim, arranged by Matt. Hm.... Heard that our opponent are from one of those U-17 team. OMG! We are going to play against youngsters! Guess the average age of my team is about 30plus, our total average age might just be double than that of the team we are going to play against today. Diaoz....

Game kicked off with a bit of fight, but as the minutes ticked away, the youngsters managed to pick up their tempo and totally dominated the game. By half time, the score is already 2-0. Final score? 6-0, or 7-0. To be frank, fitness do plays a huge part in today's game. 30mins per half, 60mins in all, but we only played them for the 1st 10mins the most. We just couldn't close them down and let them play their passing game. They are quite well-drilled to be honest. Aside from a couple of players who run with the ball, most of their game are 1 to 2 touches play, hit and run. One-Two's aplenty, plus a couple of runs by their wingers down the flanks. We just couldn't get any possession, with 80% or 90% of the time chasing after the ball. That's how outplayed we are....

After the game, went to buy my dinner at the coffeeshop near Serangoon Stadium. Bought a pack of rice, beehoon goreng and 2 chicken wings from Do & Me. Hm.... It used to be around my place, but ever since like years ago, don't know where it gone to. So.... it's now at Serangoon. hehe.... Well.... Today will be the last time that I pamper myself with so much food. Ya.... I've made up my mind that I'm going to shed a few unwanted kilos. I want a body of 25-yr-old, since I'm only 25. I don't want a 35-yr-old body!!!! Hope my cough and phlegms will go away soon, it's been making me very uncomfortable and lazy to move around. Haiz....

Watched the Man Utd game, and they managed to record another victory without Scholes and Rooney, thanks to goals from Silvestre and Giggs, though the Giggs goal is a gift from Watford. Nonetheless, glad to see United won against a team that I don't want to see in the EPL next year. Watford shouldn't have been promoted at all. Just don't like them. haha.... Another 3 points lost for a team surely fighting against relegation. Yeah! hehe.... Unlikely goal from Silvestre, but it's surely well-taken. 1 touch is all it takes, don't have to stop the ball whatsoever as the ball laid back by Saha is too perfect. But, he really can't defend, for goodness sake. He allowed Ashley Young to get past him too easily on the flank and pulled back a perfect center for Damien Francis to slot home from a couple of yards out. Haiz.... United need better defenders than him, if they are to go far. United is really lucky to win, as the winning goal of 2-1 by Giggs is really a gift. Backpass from a Watford defender back to his gk, is challenged by Saha and slowed the pace. Giggs ran on to it, bring it round the gk and slot in home with his weaker right foot. What luck, what goal....

我是不停止的风
追逐灿烂的晴空
从来不曾有过改变
从不曾 厌倦

我有不服输的梦
追逐灿烂的时空
世界纵然不断改变
我不曾 疲倦

啊 啊 海阔正天空
啊 啊
所有的路 都不孤独
梦隋我飞舞

让太阳跃升起来
它与我同在 为生命喝采
让海洋澎湃起来
它与我同在 为梦想开怀

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得到
为自己骄傲

我要让风扬起来
我要让梦飞起来
我和我的勇气赛跑
从不怕 失败

我有不服输的梦
追逐灿烂的时空
世界纵然不断改变
我不曾 疲倦

啊 啊 海阔正天空
啊 啊
所有的路 都不孤独
梦隋我飞舞

让太阳跃升起来
它与我同在 为生命喝采
让海洋澎湃起来
它与我同在 为梦想开怀

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得到
为自己骄傲

让太阳跃升起来
它与我同在 为生命喝采
让海洋澎湃起来
它与我同在 为梦想开怀

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得
到为自己骄傲

让太阳跃升起来
它与我同在 为生命喝采
让海洋澎湃起来
它与我同在 为梦想开怀

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得
到为自己骄傲

让太阳跃升起来
它与我同在 为生命喝采
让海洋澎湃起来
它与我同在 为梦想开怀

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得到
为自己骄傲

啊 啊
我不怕阻碍
我知道 我做得到
为自己骄傲

How I miss those days....

Got up at 2plus, due to a late late last night, playing pq on my maple. My party members are all very on; go in, come out, go in, come out and go in again, total we did about 5, 6 times, until 6plus in the morning! I really 'pei fu' them, some are even students who are getting ready to go to school during the interval. Hm.... How they managed to study har? How do they stay awake to pay attention in class? Sure can multi-task man.... haha....

Chatted with Chris about tomorrow's testi game for Tim, and found out that he's going into coaching. Well done.... A lot of my friends went into coaching recently, perhaps I should get myself a soccer coaching license as well, so that I can do something that I loved when I'm older, tired of working. haha.... See if I can get a few of them to join me, then I might just go for it. hehe.... We also talked about the ECL grouping and some of the team's playing style. What luck! Barca is grouped with Chelsea yet again this season, the 3rd year in succession. According to Ronaldinho, it's a blessing to his and co, but I thought otherwise. Chelsea have a few players that's great in ECL, notably Shevchenko. Guess Barca won't have it easy this time round....

Went out to meet one of my clientat 4plus, before meeting Les for dinner. We are going for our pool game after that with Henry. Hm.... It's been so long since we last play pool together. Coming a yr? Ya.... Almost there. Ever since Les didn't join us for p-ball, we seldom kept in touch. until that day when I'm in Taiwan. He called me up, happened to be my birthday, and asked if I wanna come out for a drink. So touched that day.... He actually remembered my birthday, though we seldom talk over the phone. We used to be the best partnership at p-ball, I'll supply and he will finish. But, ever since his knee ligament injury, have been out of action for close to a year, that's when we didn't get together for a while. We used to go out for regular pool games into the night, or chill out somewhere for a drink and watch football, chit chat. We would look for lounges to go, instead of pubs, as we just want to sit down, have a drink and chit chat. Not the kind of clubbing or partying, not our cup of tea. hehe.... How I missed those days.... Going to get those days back together again! *smiles*

Pool game session today included 2 'guests'. Well.... At least to me, as it's the first time I see them, Paul and David. Paul is Henry's colleague, while David is Paul's cousin. Klassic had become so popular that it's always full house, to the extend that we are on the waiting list tonight! Never happened before to me, but it seems that Les and Henry always expect to be on the waiting list. They are the 2 that plays often, a few times a month. hehe.... Paul and David are very good players, esp Paul. His cuing is very solid and accurate. Nice playing with them, as they are the easy-going type. Les still as good as ever, if not better. But today a bit off form, placing not very good. Even he also admit that he's not very focus today. Well.... We all know what's he capable of, so when he put in a few bad games, something is not right somewhere. haha....

Reached home at 1plus after the session. Wow! We actually played from 8plus to 1plus! OMG! That's a long session man! Well.... That's usually how long we would play actually. haha.... Came back and took my sis on a maple tour at Ludi, Omega Zone. She har.... Haiz.... When playing her warrior, can understand that she's afraid to be killed, so dare not go walk around. But now playing her cleric le still dare not move around. Hello! You got heal, won't die one loh.... Haiz.... But then again, it really depends on who's playing actually. I can play with my bowman and also won't die, so.... ya.... Even when I'm with her just now, she still kana killed! And with me to party her and protect her with my cleric! Can you imagine??? She just go out of my sight and when I see her, the tomb is already there.... What the hell.... How to die when you got healing power? And the mobs are not really hitting you half of your hp. OMG.... Guess she's really not cut out for games like this, which you have to use your brains. haha.... Like when I give her training on jumping and teleporting, she will still bump into the mobs. Hello! Tele is for you to siam the mobs, not go and hit the mobs! Haiz....

这些年 一个人
风也过 雨也走
有过泪 有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过 才会懂
会寂寞 会回首
终有梦 终有你
在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话 一辈子
一生情 一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤 还有痛
还要走 还有我

这些年 一个人
风也过 雨也走
有过泪 有过错
还记得坚持甚麽

真爱过 才会懂
会寂寞 会回首
终有梦 终有你
在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话 一辈子
一生情 一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤 还有痛
还要走 还有我

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话 一辈子
一生情 一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤 还有痛
还要走 还有我

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话 一辈子
一生情 一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤 还有痛
还要走 还有 我

一句话 一辈子
一生情 一杯酒

Fridge not working, but something to lift my recent spirits....

Darn it! My fridge is not working for days, ever since my sis came over on Sat. Hm.... Should I blame her and her 2 kids? My fridge always fail after every visits they paid. Hm.... Not every visits, but most of the time they came over. I discovered that they like to keep my fridge opened for a long time while looking for drinks, food, etc.... And my fridge is like reaching retirement age, so tends to be unable to cope with the long long 'opening'. Sianz.... I have not had any cold drinks for days, and that seems to make me feel so tired these few days, coupled with my low spirits.... Haiz + sianz....

Finally something positive to look forward to.... My application for my new workplace is approved! Finally, after weeks and months of unemployment, I can start looking forward to work, and not rotting at home. Just like today, I only got up at 6plus to take my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner that my mama brought back after cooking it at work. I slept at 5plus this morning after watching the midnight games, and got up at 12plus to answer my manager-to-be, now my manager, call to give her the final details regarding my application. Few hrs later at 2plus, her sms to me reads this: "Ur contract no problem will be on 4 sep! Pls start work" OMG! I have been waiting for this day for so so long.... Finally I see a bit of direction, a bit of light in the darkness, a road that leads to the castle in the wilderness....

Continued my sleep after receiving the 'good' news and got up at 6plus, basically no motivation to get up, until the news that I'm employed. But then, still very tired, probably thinking of someone who I can share this news to. I've been so stressed ever since out of job in June. Now just want to break this piece of news to someone, but I realized that there's no one. There's one, but I don't know how to get her.... Never mind....

Realized that I've not got Hua Jian's songs' lyrics for most of his songs. Plus, I have not rip those songs that I have in his elbum in my laptop. Been busy with it ever since I got up from my nest, and there are a lot of outstanding songs that I'm gonna get it from my sis. Some of his elbums I left it with her. Gonna get it and upload the lyrics into it once I rip it into my laptop. By the time I finished everything, and watching tv at the same time, it's already 12plus! OMG!!! It's so late! And this is going to be the final day that I'm going to rot the way I rotted for the past couple of weeks since I'm back from my trip. Tomorrow will be a new day, tomorrow will be the day that I re-write my story in life. *smiles*

走著忍著 醒著想著
看爱情悄悄近了
冷的暖的 甜的苦的
在心里缠绕成河

曲折的心情有人懂
怎么能不感动
几乎忘了昨日 的种种
开始又敢做梦

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著
天地辽阔相遇 多难得
都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
曾经交心就非常值得
我要专注爱你不想别的没有 忐忑

曲折的心情有人懂
怎么能不感动
几乎忘了昨日 的种种
开始又敢做梦

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著
天地辽阔相遇 多难得
都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
曾经交心就非常值得
我要专注爱你不想别的没有

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著
天地辽阔相遇 多难得
都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌

我决定不躲了 你决定不怕了
就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
曾经交心就非常值得
我要专注爱你不想别的没有 忐忑

A super lousy bad day/s!!!!

Was mapling since I wole up at 12plus today. Hm.... I actually fell asleep while watching the Spurs game last night, then kana woke up at 5plus in the morning. By what? By cramps! OMG! Both my thighs cramped for a while last night already, then at 5plus, my right knee cramped till I got woken up! Argh!!! It's the first time I experienced cramps at a place that I do not know what to do.... Usually, you just have to stretch and it will go off after a while. But the part near the knee is somewhere I have not experienced before, and I do not know how to 'treat' it.... After struggling with it for like 10mins, during which I felt aches at my hips while keeping my leg straight trying to stretch it, I finally found the remedy to it. I should have just bear with the pain and bend my knee. It hurts, but it sure helps, as the cramps went off after like couple of mins time. What the hell.... Must be due to the strenuous workout that I got last night, playing to the fullest during p-ball, then to A.B.C for my part II. And that's after like 5 days of no workout whatsoever. No wonder I suffered the kind of cramps that I haven't experienced for a long long time....

Had a few weird dreams during the last couple of days.... 1st is that I dreamt about going on a tour, in Taiwan again I guess, and we went to experience flying in an airplane, those kind of fighter plane instead of the usual passenger plane. And the best part is, we only took off with the front operating part, the controlling area, instead of with the whole body of the plane. Hm.... How do we take off with just that and no body and wings.... Well, we do take off, and the pilot even perform stunts of spin and landing with the head facing the ground. Weird right.... Then because of the time taken for experiencing in the plane, I missed the coach that's fetching my tour group, but somehow because it's a dream, I managed to find the others having lunch at a place nearby. Guess what? It's exactly the same group that I went with during my Taiwan trip. And I saw that gal again in my dream. Is it because I have been thinking of her, that's why this weird dream happens??? Then the 2nd dream is about flying to outer space in a rocket. And guess what? The flying place is actually the ground near my old place, the place where I used to stay before moving to Aljunied. It's my old 4-rm flat! And I literately can see the rocket flying off at my old place. Though it's flying off, but I dreamt about my ex flying off in the rocket and not me, and I was watching it from my old place. Weird x2? Puzzling.... Then the best part is followed by my not so weird but very serious pondering dream last night.... I dreamt about all the nagging and caring parts of my mama and sis. They cared about my living, but I was just too pissed off by their nagging, and I actually threaten to kill them, or even end my own life! Now.... That's very serious.... How will I ever dream about such thing? Am I too stressed over what's happening lately that I became depressed? Or am I actually going crazy? Argh.... What's happening to me? It seems that I became too 'high' ever since my trip from Taiwan. Typically too enthu about the things that's happening around me, and getting my mouth in during talks and being too much a kpo to bother about things that happening around me and those who I know, whether good friends, friends, or just acquaintance. I like seeking attention everywhere, but don't know from who, for what. It's like doing it just for the sake of doing it, and my mind is not registering what had happened. I'm like don't know what gone on. What's happening???

Went burning joss sticks and those 'jin zhi' with my mama around evening time. The place is full of ants! Probably because of those sweet sweet things that's around for the praying. But.... the place was not like this in the past! Before the renovation of the park and upgrading of the lifts that is. There are never any ants or insects before the renovation took place a couple of years ago. I won't say no ants, but not a troop of ants! And it's not just a troop, it's several troops! Coming from all over the place! What the hell! It used to be so clean before the stupid upgrading took place. Now? You typically see everything that you can imagine a dirty place would have; ants, red and black, big and small, then cockroaches, snails, earthworms, millipedes, centipedes, and even rats! My place has become so @#$%& dirty and unsafe with centipedes and rats around! Don't know what the hell is the government doing! If they want to upgrade, find a contractor that's responsible enough to take care of the cleanliness after the project work! Or even during the project, which has been delayed before for don't know whatever reasons! Should have gotten a better contractor, instead of saving money to get those 'chap ba lang' contractors! Not that we didn't pay, every residents have to pay $300+ each ok! We paid, we expect better services! Not this type of half fuck standard & services! It really pissed me off! What the hell are those Ministries doing!!!!

Kicking at A.B.C hadn't been any better. 1st is that they are 20 players including me when I got there at 9pm. That's 4 teams, and goals are not any easy to come by. At least not with my team. Whenever my team plays, we kana knocked out within like 5 to 10 mins, Then when the other teams are playing, it's never less than 15mins. There's this game between 2 teams that played for like 30, or even 45mins! My team waited and waited, for mins and hrs, end up play 5, 10mins and we lost. Haiz.... My best game, or rather longest game today have to be the last, which Chee Ming got hit on the hamstring and asked me to sub him. His team got so many attackers that I went to play in front of the last man. Actually, I rather play there than on the wings, sure got more chances to touch the ball as Ivan's team sure attack more. Well.... I'm right, end up I defended more than I attack today, which is something good. I just want to have more touches on the ball that's all. No chance to touch the ball during my 1st 2 games, which we lost in a flip of the fingers. Sianz.... At least got a runout, despite my tired legs from yesterday's games. Soccer is still the time where I know what I'm doing, happiest time of a usually dull and 'sad' me. Guess football is still my best mate, ever since the first time I kicked it. Perhaps, I'm just not fated to find someone by my side, I should just keep something, my best mate, with me....

First time I went to this porridge buffet with Johnny and the others at Balestial Road, Quality Hotel. The food there is not bad, esp the duck meat and curry chicken. And the porridge of course. hehe.... The first thoughts that came to my mind is, I will bring my parents and sis here if I have the chance in future. But.... have to come after 10.30pm, as the dinner is $9.90++ and the super supper, which is from 10.30pm to 12.30pm is only $6.80++! Dirt cheap man! And you have 2 hrs to slowly eat and no need to rush. Damn shiok.... I took like 4 or 5 bowls of porridge with all the duck meat, curry chicken, veggies, beancurd, hotdogs, fishcakes, etc.... Shiok shiok.... And the freeflow of orange juice, just nice after a tiring game. woohoo! And the finale of the ice-cream. Oh my.... Damn full.... Chit chatted with the others while eating there, and I realized that somehow I began to click with them better nowadays, ever since I talked with a bit of foul languages lately. Not vugalities, just those obscene languages. I realized that words like those just came out unknowingly lately. Guess I really don't know what the hell I am doing and talking about lately, ever since my confidence dropped to a new low recently.... Seems to have given up on life and just live each day without thinking what I should do next.... Without only someone, like her, can guide me the way to go....

如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静 的时候
请不要让我如此心碎

如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎

因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹

因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对

变成不对

如果我说我忍住眼泪
如果我说我不会后悔
在这个夜深人静的时候
请不要让我如此心碎

如果我说我忍住伤悲
如果我说我觉得好累
在这个夜深人静的时候
我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎

因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹

因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对

变成不对

就在这样的一个夜里
不要把心围上层层堡垒
就在这样的一个夜里
不要说你永远无法体会

就在这样的一个夜里
不要让疲倦的心再枯萎
就在这样的一个夜里
就让我说一声请你给我 安慰

因为我会怕黑
因为我无法入睡
因为我心中疲惫
因为我迎着雨打风吹

因为我会怕黑
因为我觉得意冷心灰
因为我隐着我的眼泪
请不要让这一切 变成不对

变成不对
变成不对

Guess I'm really not cut out for studies....

Went to study for my CHI this morning at Suntec Mac, cos I'm gonna take my paper there. Spent hrs on it, before taking a short break outside Tower 2, listening to my mp3, as I'm feeling cold after hrs inside the Mac. That's about 3omins before my paper commerce time. Thought I'm well-prepared, but end up after 90mins of agony, I got my results on the spot. FAIL! And the best thing is, out of 50 questions, I need 35 to pass, and the result shows that I only got 21 to 24 correct! What the hell! I spent a lot of time on it ok! End up not much diff from the last time I took the paper. It's my 2nd attempt already ok.... Why is this happening? Guess I'm going to have a darn hard time passing my CHI. End up, I might not even get myself contracted. It's not cheap, and I'm wasting my time and money on it. Darn it! This is gonna be my 3rd and last time taking it. If I fail it again, I'm not gonna take it anymore. NO MORE! I had enough of it! I'm getting sick of it! @#$%&

Went to meet TC and all those in Kabita's team for ktv at Orchard Partyworld. Hm.... Haven't seen them for quite some time, not since I left Singpost, kind of miss them. Well.... Some of them of course. There are still those that I don't really have much to talk about, but ok lah.... Just hi, bye loh.... I also don't know why I went there, it's for their team to build their bonding. And the time is reaching 5pm, and I'm meeting Chris and the other p-ballers for a game today at 6.45pm. Haiz.... Guess I just want to find someone to pour my frustration to, and just happens that TC called and tell me to join them. I didn't sing much, only 2 songs with TC. The rest of the time, I simply let off my frustration to TC and Lynn jie. Some of them I don't even know, then there's a few I won't even want to talk to, they can't be bothered that type. Only Lynn jie and TC can console me.... Haiz.... Guess I'm just not cut out for studies....

Went to the stadium at 7pm, and guess what.... I'm the 4th player there today. The usually last player, Koh Wee, end up being earlier than me today, and yet we only got 4 players by then! OMG! P-ball is getting later and later, and with the sky getting dark, typically play with feel instead of eyes today. Most of us is like predicting where the ball is, instead of looking for it. End up, Satia turn my corner into his own goal. haha.... Stan was saying Satia is afraid of him coming, so out the ball into his own net. haha.... FYI, today mark the 1st time the 4 players who shaved for the children cancer foundation played together. Chris, Stan, Kheng Chuan and me. hehe.... Even though we have 4 players against the other 5, we do enjoy the moment that we played together. woohoo! Game went on for some time with end to end stuff without any goals, until a good pass by Jon sent Satia clear, and he showed such composure to delay his shot to shoot into the bottom corner. Great pass, great composure, great goal! Well done.... The botak team went 2-1 down, a mistake by me as I tried to kick the ball out of the danger zone and it deflected Koh Wee to our goal. As we all can't see the ball, Kheng Chuan also can't see it, end up it hit Kheng Chuan and into our goal. Tough luck, today got 2 own goals, one at each side. haha.... As it's getting very late, everyone is pushing for the last goal. Somehow, with 2 sick men, Chris and me, in the team, we seems to be outplayed and we are like doing the defending most of the time. And due to the last goal, I like cover the back with Chris and go up to get the last goal. And with a bit of luck, Satia kicked the ball towards me and I place it into an open goal. By then, I'm like coughing like hell and damn shagged le.... 2-2, still with just 1 loss this year. That fateful day where no ball can get into the goal, though we have countless chances....

Went for a drink with Chris and the others at the RC, before making my way to A.B.C for my usual kicking session with Ivan and Fu and the rest. Got there at 9plus and saw 15 players, just right. I'm the odd one out. Well.... Not that I care, as I'm already very shagged. Just enjoy juggling the ball around and making my presence felt. Still, I got chances to play. That's what I like about going down to A.B.C, you will get a chance to play somehow. But.... Shao Wen like got something against me today. 1st, when I'm playing in my team after subbing Chee Ming, he gave the ball away to Ivan and Ivan placed the ball into an unguarded goal. Then when I'm playing against him, he tripped me and I fell to the ground. Hard concrete ground, for goodness sake! Damn pain.... After that, when I took a shot at goal, he came sliding into me. Luckily the force of the shot took me past his legs. Otherwise.... Of course when I tell him that, it's meant to be a joke lah.... Long time friends already, how can we be serious about that.... Accidents happen all the time during football, used to it le.... Most of the time end up with bruises back home after playing at A.B.C anyway. haha.... Most satisfying moment today is after playing a 1-2 with Chee Ming, I took a touch to stabilise myself and place the ball into the open space of the goal. Not bad today, got a goal at P-ball, got a goal at A.B.C. But too bad.... No assists.... That's still forever most sought after thing in my play. Not goals, it's too common. I prefer to be the provider.

Went for supper, or rather dinner for me as I didn't eat anything since 12plus in the afternoon, with Fu, Chee Ming and Shao Wen. Hm.... Usually it's the few of us, but today got a special guest. According to Chee Ming, it's a 'filipino maid'. haha.... Cos Shao Wen played so hard that he got cramps on his calves, and she's holding him like a maid taking care of her master. haha.... It's actually Shao Wen's gf lah.... The reason why she's being called a filipino maid is because she's quite dark. And we made it a joke in front her that she will buy those whitening milk for her shower. Then Chee Ming is so bad that he says already tried before, but no use. She's like that since secondary school. Hm.... Really envy Shao Wen, she knew this gal since so long ago, and now still together. And that gal is like so easy-going, not the kind that will get angry easily. Even when we are making joke out of her, she can still joke back. Not easy to find such gals nowadays. So envious.... When will I find mine?

你说天黑以后要来
我等到月升东山
月眉弯弯 情泪两行也湾湾
我盼伊人 望眼欲穿

你说天黑以后要来
我等到日升窗台
晨雾淡淡 情影俩行也单单
我盼伊人 万般心酸

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪也斑斑

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑 情泪俩行也斑斑
我盼伊人 万般心酸

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑
情泪也斑斑

你说天黑以后要来
我等到两鬓霜白
发丝斑斑 情泪两行也斑斑
我唯一人 转眼半百

你说天黑以后要来
我等到月升东山
月眉弯弯 情泪两行也湾湾
我盼伊人 望眼欲穿

你说天黑以后要来
我等待等待 伊人何在
与你的情 你的小孩
我唯一人 转眼半百

Confidence, can eat or drink? Swallow?

Basically, just stayed at home whole day to study and watch tv. Hm.... More on watching tv than studying! Darn it! I going to fail my paper tomorrow! OMG! How.... I cannot afford to fail.... Please pray that I pass.... I go and study now! hehe....

Was watching this show on ch.8 hosted by Guo Liang, talking about business strategy. Then Nanz is invited to share her experience in setting and expanding One.99 chains of stores and what caused it to fail. And how did she cope with all the pressure back then and what did she do to try and salvage it. She go to the extend of carrying the goods herself to sell it overseas in Indonesia, etc.... But because she was not given enough time to get the cashflow needed, One.99 was eventually took back by the bank as the stocks she brought in is through bank loans and the cashflow couldn't come fast enough. She was so helpless back then, but she decided to go all out and try to salvage until she couldn't do much. What determination of steel! For a lady to display that kind of attitude, she deserves all the admiration for her success.... And now, she's planning for her next venture, while giving motivational talks and training sessions to companies in the meantime. What a lady.... Some of her words caught me; what's important is your mindset. If you can change your mindset, success is within your reach. Always look back and work on your weaknesses, strengths and experiences for improvements to do better. And a final sentence from Guo Liang; reinvent yourself to adapt to situations in order to consolidate your foundation. Some points to ponder....

Watched the preview of the Ultimate Comedian.... If only something didn't cropped up and stopped me, and I wasn't hindered by my ICT, I might have been in the tv also. Haiz.... I actually signed up for it! And they even gave me a call to remind me about it! What the hell! I have only myself to blame eventually.... It's my life, it's my own time management, it's my own control.... Anyway, some of the participants really gave their best. I might have regretted not going as I felt I will do better than them. But when you are inside that room, maybe you won't even know what you are doing and mess up everything. You can put it down to nervousness, that's what will happen if you didn't prepare properly and lack of confidence. That's what I'm lacking then, that's what I'm lacking now too.... Where can I go and find confidence? Is it a thing that I can eat and have it? Or drink? Or swallow? Argh!!!!

Had a chat with some of my old friends, and supposed to meet up today for dinner, but called off because I was sleeping then and didn't see the sms. And also because John wasn't free and it's called off. Planning for tomorrow, so see how ba.... Then asked Sijie and Kaixin to be my models for my clothes, necklaces and hairclips, but both rejected cos Sijie say her hair is not long enough and she also don't really know how to wear hairclips nicely. Kaixin? Well.... She say her ear not nice, hair not smooth enough.... Haiz.... Think I just take pictures of it will do lah.... No need what models for it etc.... Forget it.... Anyway, talked to Sijia today about singing in public. Then she's like, huh, what singing in public? Then I slowly make fun of her, before finally telling her it's the Project Superstar! haha.... OMG! She's so on about such thing, when I asked her about it and send her the website, she asked me whether I'm joining her. Oh man.... That's the kind of people I should be mixing with more often, not like some of my friends saying that it's so embarassing, so malu, so this, so that. Aiyo! It's just to go and have a bit of fun, doing something that you won't ever think of doing and leave a memory in your short life. At least you have something to look back and tell your children and grandchildren when you are old. Come on! Let's have some fun! haha.... But a bit not according to plan, the guys audition is on the 3rd, while the gals audition is on the 9th, different days. Haiz.... What makes things worse is that I'll be going for my Tulips Hearts Day event from 9.30am to 1pm. How har like that.... Haiz.... What bad timing.... Nonetheless, Sijia and I signed up for it, and we promised each other that we will be rooting for each other when those days come, even though we are on different days. woohoo! Time for some fun!!!!

黎明冉冉苏醒尘雾中
他慢慢 走来
就在流水当中摇桨把
又一天 划开

一种冷冷的声音
在他的船头响了起来
似乎水的呜咽

晚霞渐渐昏暗暮色里
他将要 离开
他将渡船靠岸收拾起
往来的 寂寞

一种冷冷的声音
在他的脑海响了起来
像水的呜咽

有人因为流浪到渡口
有人思念靠不到岸
有人不能忘情于繁华中
有人日复一日赶着同样的梦

于是 摆渡人的歌
遗忘在渡口的流转之间
而那些 人们都醉了
没有人 还能够单独醒着

呜 哦 哦 哦 哦 哈 哈

黎明冉冉苏醒尘雾中
他慢慢 走来
晚霞渐渐昏暗暮色里
他将要 离开

Where's my the other woman????

Got up at 9plus to go for breakfast with my mama. Long long time I didn't go for breakfast with her le, and already promised her last night so even though I'm so so tired, forced myself to get up and wash up. Sis slept at 4plus last night playing maple, she's really addicted to it le, but still got up when she heard that I'm going for breakfast. Aiya.... She won't want to take breakfast without me when she comes over. haha....

After breakfast, I came back, watched the EPL highlights and read a bit for my paper on Tuesday, before going back to sleep again. I'm so tired, even though I slept from 1am to 9am last night, don't know why.... *Yawnz* I'm so tired.... End up when I woke up, it's already 6plus when my mama came knocking on my door and tell me dinner is ready. Totally knocked out! Not sure why, maybe my mind wants to take a break, from thinking too much lately.... My direction in life, my wish to have my own cafe, how to achieve my dream, and maybe also that special someone....

Was so hungry that I just scoop the rice and veg on my plate and digging into it. Shiok! Haven't taste my mama's cooking for weeks, or even months! Since I went on my ICT, no time to eat at home, then it's my trip, then came back and fell sick. Haiz.... It's so nice to have home-cooked food. woohoo! If only I can have the chance to enjoy home-cooked food from my mama, my sis, and my someone simple everyday, that kind of life makes me look forward to it, but it's not going to materialise. I will only enjoy food from my mama and my sis, but her? Well.... Guess it's still good enough that I have 2 women to cook for me. 2 of the very important women in my life. *smiles*

Finally touched my maple after months out! Well.... Not a good thing actually, as my pet is dying with my pet food! OMG!!! And sis is so busy that she can't help me transfer from my other character to me! Darn it! And she got me to join her in her pq somemore! Until my party members have to remind me that my pet is dying, so paisei sia.... haha.... Anyway, I don't know how to play that pq, end up keep dying and dying, end up losing all the experience earned. What the hell! But alright lah.... Anyway, I also don't know what to do or kill, end up I didn't contribute much to the course also. But experience lost is always a pain.... haha.... Finally got my pet food, thanks to TC's help. He helped to transfer my pet food to my main char so that I can feed my cute cute Huskey. hehe....

Watched how Man Utd thrashed Fulham 5-1, but I just find that Fulham didn't pose any threat to Man Utd, and not United is in any ways rampaging. If they are playing against Chelsea or Arsenal, or even any of the top teams, they would have lost.... They are good at times, but not really brilliant, and it's only at times, not most of the game. Hope it's only warming up for the new season and it won't last, otherwise, Chelsea is gonna bag another championship and complete their hattrick of titles. Or maybe even more to come in the years to come.... Haiz....

我真的 并不愿意
让你孤单 让你寂寞
也不愿 让你失落
而在牵挂中热泪 满眶

我真的 并不愿意
让你孤单单凄清清一个
也不愿 让你流泪
让你的心悬挂在半 空

不愿 一个人
在风中在雨中走在那街 道上
不愿在喧哗中孤独中冰冷中
想念着牵 挂的你

不愿站在那人群中孤立
不愿站在那人群中想你
不愿留着你孤独的时候
才能体会什么 叫忐忑与不安的心

我真的 并不愿意
让你孤单 让你寂寞
也不愿 让你失落
而在牵挂中热泪 满眶

我真的 并不愿意
让你孤单单凄清清一个
也不愿 让你流泪
让你的心悬挂在半 空

不愿 一个人
在风中在雨中走在那街 道上
不愿在喧哗中孤独中冰冷中
想念着牵 挂的你

不愿站在那人群中孤立
不愿站在那人群中想你
不愿留着你孤独的时候
才能体会什么 叫忐忑与不安的心

我真的不愿意一个人
在风中在雨中走在那街 道
上不愿在喧哗中孤独中冰冷中
想念着牵 挂的你

不愿站在那人群中孤立
不愿站在那人群中想你
不愿留着你孤独的时候
才能体会什么 叫忐忑与不安的心

只愿抱着你轻轻地疼你
只愿拥着你轻轻说爱你
只愿每次我想你的时候
能够有你在身边 看着我 陪伴着我

Anybody wanna be my model????

Didn't have any plans to go out today, cos my sis is coming over. Waited and waited, till about 2plus, before she said she's reaching, though she told me she's out of her house at 12plus. After asking what happened, she told me something went wrong in xiao mei's school. Will find some time to talk to xiao mei about it....

Went for our 'lunch' at 3plus! Hm.... Wonder what you going to call that.... haha.... Got to the market and I bought beehoon, while xiao mei and ah boy took japanese food from the new store, the store where Chee Ming said the owner looks like Li Sheng Jie. hehe.... Sis took wanton mee, and we went to Shop & Save after that. Bought bowl noodle and my fav mug root beer, while sis bought a new drink from Pokka. We also took a couple of those tissue in bags, as I ran out of them le. Went to buy some bread and waffles, before making our way home. Came back and sis play her maple again, and I end up having to clear my room instead of watching tv. Spent quite some time folding my clothes and kept them in my closet. Then clear some of the unwanted papers on the floor to make more space. Sianz.....

Few hrs after our late lunch, went downstairs again to buy dinner back for mama and all of us. Have been eating and eating lately due to my cough. Seems to take a lot of my energy away that I kept feeling hungry. Haiz.... Came back and sis played maple on my laptop, yet again. But today, instead of watching tv to pass my time, I have to tidy my room a bit Cos all the 'mines' had resurfaced again, making my sis unable to move around my room freely. Worst of all is, my clothes and left unfolded and lying around on my nest! There's so many to clear from my Taiwan trip, left lying around! Have to clear, have to clear. hehe....

Time to start work! Time to take some photos with xiao mei as my model. hehe.... For the sake of my hairclips, I have to take pictures of them on xiao mei's hair so that it will appear as appealing, then people will buy. But.... we took some of them, end up not very nice. Few hrs wasted as a result of unprofessional shooting skills by me, and not very skilful in setting the hair nicely with the hairclips. Sianz.... Guess I'll just take them with some nice background and put them up lah.... For goodness sake....

Watched tv and fell asleep, after eating dinner at 10plus. Guess I'm too tired, too drained, thinking of someone.... Though it's been weeks, but it seems like she's my latest interest, can't help but keep thinking of her.... But then again, thoughts and memories are all that I can savour now, since.... Never mind.... By the time I woke up at 12plus when my mama called me up to eat some of the food bought in the afternoon, I was like so tired that I don't want to get up. Can never eat and sleep straightaway, I'll be so zombie.... End up, I got my mama to feed me. I just lie there, and wait for the food to get into my mouth. haha.... Then after that, I crouched into my mama's arms. It's been so so long that I actually enjoyed hugging my mama and behave like a kid. Guess I'm too stressed and emotionally hurt and too out of sorts lately....

让软弱的我们 懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次 寒冷
依依不舍的爱过 的人
往往有缘 没有份

谁把谁 真的当真
谁为谁心疼 谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有 什么神

美丽的人生 善良的人
心痛心酸心事太 微不足道
来来往往的你 我遇到
相识不 如相望淡淡一笑

忘忧草 忘了就好 梦里知多少
某天涯海角 某个小岛
某年某月某日某 一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草 静静 等天荒地老

让软弱的我们 懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次 寒冷
依依不舍的爱过 的人
往往有缘 没有份

谁把谁 真的当真
谁为谁心疼 谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有 什么神

美丽的人生 善良的人
心痛心酸心事太 微不足道
来来往往的你 我遇到
相识不 如相望淡淡一笑

忘忧草 忘了就好 梦里知多少
某天涯海角 某个小岛
某年某月某日某 一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草 静静 等天荒地老

Humans are selfish....

Been busy checking my clients' investment porfolio.... How come everyone suddenly so anxious about their investments? Is the market really that bad? From a certain point of view, yes lah. But there's nothing to get worried about, cos I have been monitoring for you all right.... With me around, no worries man! haha.... Will try to see what I can do for you all, but I don't control the market, so please give me your understanding. *smiles*

Suddenly, I realized that no wonder blog is called online diary. Which means, you have to update it everyday, the way you would do in your diary. I have been updating my blog ever since I'm back from Taiwan, that's about a week ago. Guess what? I still haven't been able to finish my August entries, not to mention my July archives! Everyday when I type in from my notebook and recapturing my thoughts during that particular day, I'm so tired after 2 or 3 entries.... So tired that I decided to take a nap. It can be so draining.... *Yawnz*

Come 6plus, went down to meet TC for dinner, before meeting Jul to come over to my place to sort out the accessories. Something not right somewhere loh.... She's the one who's late, then she's compaining that I'm watching tv and didn't do the sorting and wasting our time. Of course she would say that cos she's rushing to meet her friends after doing our things. Then when I finished sorting out and waiting for her to value the items, she kept talking over the phone and watching her tv program. What the! Now who is wasting whose time? She didn't do anything before we met up today, which is supposed to be on Tues. Then she's sick, but yet she didn't call TC or me and tell us that she can't make it. Supposed to meet at 5pm or 6pm that day, and I have to call her at 3pm before she told me she can't make it! What is this.... I know you are sick, but you have the responsibility to inform us right.... We can't meet up to do our things on Tues, means we have to arrange for today. You should inform us earlier and let us arrange to do our other things on Tues so that we have time available for today right? Then you told us that you can meet us at 7pm today, end up you came only at 8pm. Then you still didn't come and look for us at the place you told us, and just sat at a stonechair nearby talking to your friend. Now who is wasting whose time actually??? Supposed to take pictures of you wearing the hairclip and put up on the web to attract more attention, then you say you are sick and your hair don't look nice, don't want to take. How long are you going to keep the stock from putting up? What the hell! Think I better go ahead and do everything myself and look for model myself. Drag further and wait till the items are too common, you can buy everything and wear yourself, no need to sell anymore.... Sianz....

Watched my fav 'xiao qi' and 'kang xi lai le', cos today's guests include Hua Jian! Seldom watch 'kang xi', but watched today's cos of Hua Jian! He has always been my idol, has almost all his elbums from 'ai xiang sui' onwards. Then, my sis is the one who influenced me, lending me that elbum. Otherwise, I won't know he sings and composes that well. He's such a talent.... hehe.... Even though when he sing or play his guitar, there will be instances of forgetting the lyrics or forgot what to play, that's his trademark and audiences will not blame him for that as he's just so humourous and makes everyone laugh. I would say that his concert is one of the best, if not the best, as he really makes everyone who attends his concert enjoy so much that no one wants to leave early. Haven't been to his concert though, a bit sad when I couldn't go to his concert the other time he's here. But I went to Liang Jing Ru's and happened that her guest is Hua Jian. That day is so memorable.... With him and Jing Ru, both my fav singers, and some of the events that took place there, think that day will be in my mind for long long time to come. *smiles* Hope Hua Jian is going to hold concert here again, I will definitely go this time!

别想你 忍不住我提醒自己
伤了心 有些事也要过去
心很痛 痛得不想再做我自己
别回头 情已去 缘已尽

很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒

人分飞 爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么 能追得回
与你相慰

我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么 有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁

很想你 也不是因为失去你
爱了你 用尽我全心全力
一生情 只为这一次与你 相遇
情难了 难再续 难再醒

人分飞 爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么 能追得回
与你相慰

我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么 有路可退
我如何面对

人分飞 爱相随
那怕用一生去追
我又怎么 能追得回
与你相慰

我为你痴 为你累
风雨我都不后悔
我又怎么 有路可退
曾经深情 你给了谁

Busy day after coming back from holiday....

Got up at 7plus today.... Damn tired.... Esp sleeping for only like 3hrs after watching the England vs Greece game last night. But then again, quite worth it, cos saw 4 goals in the first half. A bit disappointed though, because 2nd half no more goals le.... Sianz.... But then again, so happy that finally David Beckham is dropped from the England squad, and England performed so much better with Gerrard on the right and Downing on the left of Lampard at the head of the diamond, with Hargreaves being the anchorman covering the back 4. At least, no more accomodating Beckham and let him bypass Gerrard and Lampard by him playing his stupid long balls. Didn't anybody told Beckham that he's playing football and not headball? Play so long ball for people to head for what??? Football supposed to be played with foot, not head! For goodness sake.... Now that he's out of the picture, England played with so much more fluency, more play on the ground than just surrendering possession after every long balls by that one player. Yeah!

Met my clients at 9.30am to settle some of their policy issues and then met my friend to discuss our future plans. Kind of like giving him too much advantage, but guess never mind, it won't be for long. Went to meet another client of mine at Tekka Mall, before meeting Marcus at Bugis. OMG! Have to follow up on my clients and catch up with my friends after just 2 weeks away. Tired man, esp with my cough and flu. *yawnz*

Came home and slept for a while, before making my way down to Fort Canning for a concert. Don't think I am there to enjoy, but for some work in fact. Kheng Chuan asked me if I can help out to usher for this concert by don't know what band at Fort Canning, so I told him ok loh since I'm free and out of job at the moment. Plus, I need my living expenses after spending like all my savings in Taiwan le. Poor man now sia.... haha.... Got there and I realized that it's actually an outdoor event, which means it will be so hot and warm! OMG! Faint.... haha.... Well.... Better than cold aircon ba, esp when I'm sick now and I can stand hotness much more than coldness. hehe....

It's so bored throughout the whole event, from 5pm till about 11pm. It's supposed to start at 8pm, end up the band only starts at 9m. Then the music is like so rock loh.... Too rock to my taste. Didn't really a bit of the whole concert, which lasts until 10plus. Before that still ok, able to relax and stand around talking to the people from Motorola, the main sponsors for today's concert. When the guests come in at 6plus, then I have to carry the barricade in and out so that those who are not allowed to get in are stopped. I'm like a door-opener loh.... haha.... Kind of enjoy it though, as we joked about the lady from motorola looks like having a 'toilet face' as most of the guests asked her where is the toilet, which is right behind us. haha.... Got a bit of benefit from the F & B supplier. The uncle so nice, came over and passed me a hotdog bun when I told him that I can't leave my post. So touched, esp when I'm so hungry.... Didn't take my dinner and my lunch is only a plate of beehoon taken at 12plus. Too rushed for time today lah.... haha....

Event finally ended at 11plus and I went to take bus 80 back. Bought food back as I'm damn hungry le and my dad also told me to buy something back when I called home earlier. Took 'hor fun', before watching 'xiao qi' and packing the accessories into the boxes that I bought on Tues. No time to go and really arrange everything into place. Fell asleep while arranging it and woke up at 8plus! In the morning! I must be too tired le....

写一首歌里满满的爱 我唱的歌
就写给你一个人
你让我知道原来情歌所以 动人
因为有爱进行着

关於你的歌 写着後来我们
一遍遍唱着 未来更多可能
关於你的歌 写你单纯天真
看着你静静那种眼神就会 让我好心疼爱

在沸腾 我们可以漫步在每个清晨 黄昏
我们可以爱得深
最希望让你快乐 拥抱你的灵魂
一个我爱的女人

关於你的歌 写着後来我们
一遍遍唱着 未来更多可能
关於你的歌 写你单纯天真
看着你静静那种眼神就会 让我好心疼爱

在沸腾 我们可以漫步在每个清晨 黄昏
我们可以爱得深
最希望让你快乐 拥抱你的灵魂
一个我爱的女人

唱遍了无数的动人情歌
听得到爱你的责任
只要我们就 相信了缘份
爱会永远的 发生

关於你的歌 写着後来我们
一遍遍唱着 未来更多可能
关於你的歌 写你单纯天真
看着你静静那种眼神就会 让我好心疼爱

在沸腾 我们可以漫步在每个清晨 黄昏
我们可以爱得深
最希望让你快乐 拥抱你的灵魂
一个我爱的女人

给你专属的情歌

I'm not a despo!!!!

Got up at 11plus after watching the England U-21 game last night. Hm.... Some of them are virtually unknown, like the striker alongside Theo Walcott and the right back. But the right back is very fast, and the striker also scored the winning goal for England. Other than that, one of the midfielder also like don't know who. haha.... But the U-21 sucks lah! Only win 2-1, I guess.... I fell alseep towards the end and the score is 2-1. Guess what? They are playing against Moldova loh! It's a minnow for goodness sake! And they only won 2-1! What the hell!

Got to my manager-to-be's office at 1plus to finalise some of the details regarding my contract. Seems like I have been finalising for weeks and many times le, and yet still finalising. Sianz.... Had lunch with her, and came back after that. Continue to update my ever unfinish blog entries. Haiz.... My July postings is like virtually empty, don't want know got time to type it in from my notebook. Haiz....

Mama cooked tonight, and I ate a bit before going for my football game at A.B.C. I felt so left out today loh.... Every team like don't want me like that. Some of them just wants to play with those they are comfortable with, end up I kana pushed around to those teams that no one wants to play in. Aiyo.... Don't know why so problematic one those couple of players.... Come already just play lah.... Choose and choose, machiam you are star player like that. What the hell!!! Anyway, I just watch the games most of the time and chatted with Shao Wen. Don't have the mood to play le, kana spoilt by those stupid players. Then because we got a couple of players more today, so I just sit out most of the games. Aiya.... I sick anyway, tends to get angry easily so don't play also good lah.... haha.... Did play the last few games with Ivan and Adam. But I like so 'man ban pai' loh.... Didn't read the game fast enough and got to their through balls slower, sometimes didn't even react fast enough to start my runs. End up they damn frustrated with me. Haiz.... Got 2 good players to give the kind of through balls, and yet I not up to it today. Disappointing....

Went for a drink at 7-11 with Chee Ming, Fu and Shao Wen after the game, before Shao Wen suggested to go to the food centre opposite. I know why liao lah.... He wants to eat! haha.... End up I ate the wanton mee with him. haha.... Talked about why I shave my hair and my Taiwan trip. How come everyone thought I went to 'piao ji' in Taiwan when they saw how sick I am. Aiyo.... You all think I am that sort meh.... Ai! Ya! And it's supposed to be so common in Taiwan that not only Fu and co., most of my friends also asked if I got go 'enjoy' myself or get to know the gals in Taiwan. Of course not lah.... Those who knows what happened to me before I go for my holiday will know I not in the mood to know gals lah.... Stop asking me that! Argh!!!! There's one new store at the food centre, and the owner looks a lot like Li Sheng Jie, according to Chee Ming. Quite true lah, the side view and the hair do looks like him. Then we are talking about his new song and Chee Ming sang 'yan di xing kong', but he only sang out 2 sentences, cos he don't know the lyrics! haha.... Here's the song....

你好喜欢看我眼睛
你说是宇宙的缩影
只要没有分离 天气晴 能看见星星
我努力爱你宠你 调整自己

我是邻居还是伴侣
时间带来残忍结局
在爱情的隔壁 住友情 界线太锐利
对不起就一刀切开所有亲密

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞 看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

用三年去维系感情
用三秒钟结束关系
剩回忆能回去 能温习 能把你抱紧
就算爱烧成灰烬扬起变乌云

眼底星空 流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞 看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

眼底星空 流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔 有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

谢谢他给你给爱另一个 星空

Catching up and searching time....

Got up at 11plus and updated a bit of my previous postings. Haiz.... The way I look at it, still a long long way before I can finish my November achive, esp some have to 'look up' my memory as I didn't write it down. tsktsk.... Anyway, finished whatever I can do at 1plus, before I took my shower and make my way to Bugis to meet Sijie. Better pass her the President's Cakes before it expire soon. haha....

I was telling her that had it been Mon or Wed today, I would have struck 4D or toto! Reason being that I was there earlier than her. Not that she's late, but rather I'm early! I'm seldom early and those who went out with me end up waiting for me. Gals are included! I must have annoyed many gals along the way, Sijie is one of them, she had waited for me everytime for the past 3 or 4 times that I'm meeting her. She must be so angry then! haha.... Anyway, I asked her where can I get the box that I need to store my accessories. She think and think, then tell me there's not much options at Bugis. End up, we took a slow walk to Raffles City and made our way to Carrefour through City Link Mall. haha....

When we got to Suntec, we went to this shop call Yami Yogurt as Sijie wants to eat the delicious yogurt. It have to be delicious, cos it's not cheap! haha.... Then we slowly made our way to Carrefour. As we reached Carrefour, Sijie still eating her yogurt so I told her to eat slowly while I go and get some food as I haven't had my lunch. But.... when I came back with my food, she already finished her Yami yogurt loh.... I like.... Shouldn't have bought the food as she's the one having to wait for me. So paisei sia.... I didn't talk at all, concentrating to finish my food asap. Don't want her to wait too long, though she bought a puff from Polar. Guess she bought it cos she doesn't want to look at me eating ba.... Sorry....

Even at Carrefour, I still didn't managed to find the box or container that I'm looking for.... It's either too small partitions or too big. Haiz.... Then she say she wants to look at some gals' thingy. I can guess what it is when she gave a shy smile, it's those female's 'nei zai mei'. Then she told me to go and look around at some other things. I thought she's afraid that I will feel awkward, so I told her never mind, it's ok for me. Then she told me it's actually she mind! She feel paisei with me around. Haiz.... Me 'zi zuo duo qing' again.... haha....

After that, we realized that there's actually nothing more to see, except that she's looking for a laptop rest. Well... She didn't managed to find it, so.... ya.... we went off after that to City Hall as she's going to her brother's place at Hougang, while I'm going to P.S. Good.... We can take the train to Dhoby Ghaut together. *smiles*. Along the way, we went into Watsons as she spotted the Nivea on offer. Think it's the milk bath or milk cream plus the hand lotion or hand cream at special price. Aiya.... I never know what all those things are as it's like alien to me. haha.... I cracked a joke at her, saying that she does look white after using the whitening milk. Then she shoot back at me, saying that so she's very dark before lah! I'm like.... hm.... Then I told her that I didn't really notice her in the past so no comments. Hm.... Did I say something wrong? haha.... That's not the worst, the other thing is when she's thinking whether to just get the hand lotion, which is what she need now, or the whitening milk which gives the hand lotion free. I told her to get the whitening milk, cos she need it anyway and it gives her the hand lotion free. Then she say that the whitening milk is more ex, so I told her good mah, you can save on food and eat lesser and can slim down also. This is the worst thing! She shoot back and say that now I trying to find fault with her, saying that she's dark just now and saying she's fat now. I quickly told her that she's not fat or plump, just that gals are never satisfied with their figure. I had friend who's already like a bamboo, but she still want to slim down further. Then I told Sijie she's actually not considered fat loh, cos gals cannot be too slim, it will be so awful. But the fact is, she's really not fat lah.... Anyway, the shoot here shoot there, are all jokingly said, meant to be jokes among friends, not really shooting at each other. haha.... She's quite a funny gal actually. haha....

While we are walking along City Link, we touch on the topic on whether do we really like somebody when we see them, or are we just looking for companion as we are afraid of loneliness? I was telling her that I'm still thinking about this, and told her to give me more time to think about it. Immediately, she replied that maybe she have to wait long long for me to give her an answer, don't know have to wait how long sia! What the hell! Now that we are like friend friend le, she starts to suan me sia.... But then again, I also admitted cos I told her uncle me have had only 1 gf so far, so not much experience. haha.... But I also told her a bit of my views about how to differenciate between liking someone or just looking for companion. Told her that if you like someone, you would care about them, wants to be with them to protect them, worry about them if they are having a dangerous job like fireman, when you know that they can't get used to things or easily unwell, you will want to be there to help them get over it, etc.... She commented that I watched too much Taiwan idol dramas le. I'm like.... -.-"' haha.... But it's true ba.... If you only looking for a companion, you wouldn't really care much whether they are involved in an accident working as a fireman or can't be bothered if they are unwell or not. That's what I told Sijie and she just smiled. haha.... Why we came to this topic is because of a guy, and I told her that nowadays, guys are so useless. They like this gal, but dare not tell her, end up she became someone else's. I told her I'm one of those useless guys. I also told her about the gal that I met during my Taiwan tour. I dare not do many things, end up I don't even have her contact now. Haiz.... So sad....

OMG!!! We hardly talk to each other, not even on msn, and yet we talked about so many things today! Like old time friends sia.... haha.... Hope she enjoy it also ba.... Just don't find me irritating can le.... haha.... I can be irritating at times, but I'm not fake at treating people, except for those who deserves it. She said that I'm so thick-skin, saying good things about myself. I told her to go and look at my friendster, it's all my shortcomings loh.... I told her I dare to say good things about myself, as well as bad things. So long as they are true, what is there to hide. She's like so shocked that I put up all the bad things about myself, she definitely won't do it that's why her profile is so plain. haha....

Went to P.S to look for my container. Managed to get one, but not sure if it can hold a lot. took 2 bowls of dessert as I don't know what to eat. Met TC at City Hall to take back my camera and talked to him about some of the plans that we can do, like trading used items like cap, bag, pen, watch, etc for our hairclips. Chatted till about 8plus, before I got home and changed and got down to A.B.C for a kick in few weeks. Saw a couple of new faces, and did enjoy myself today, though the touches are not that smooth yet. Managed to get a lucky break and took the ball past the last defender and slot into an open goal from half court. Enjoy the other games throughout and gave the cakes that I bought from Taiwan to Ivan, Johnny, Wee Kheng, Rick, Chee Ming and Fu Hao. The others all left earlier so too bad for them loh.... haha....

Came back and gave mama and dad their gifts that I bought from Taiwan, and mama wanted to take a look at what I bought back to sell. Showed her and she took a few of them and some of my personal items. Ok lah.... Since she like it, give it to her loh.... Take it that I bought it and give her loh.... Anyway, most are my own personal stocks so still ok loh....

有一日咱 若老
找无人甲咱有孝
我会陪你 坐惦椅寮
听你讲少年的时裪你有外贤

食好食歹 无计较
怨天怨地 嘛袜晓
你的手 我会甲你牵条条
因为我是 你的 家後

阮将青春 嫁乎恁兜
阮对少年 随你随甲老
人情世事己经 看透透
有啥人比你卡 重要

阮的一生 献乎恁兜
才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
等待返去的时裪若到
我会让你先走

因为我会不甘
放你 为我目屎流

有一日咱若老
有媳妇子儿有孝
你若无聊 拿咱的相片
看卡早结婚的时裪 你有外缘投

穿好穿歹 无计较
怪东怪西 嘛袜晓
你的心 我会永远记条条
因为我是 你的 家後

阮将青春 嫁乎恁兜
阮对少年 随你随甲老
人情世事己经 看透透
有啥人比你卡 重要

阮的一生 献乎恁兜
才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
等待返去的时裪 若到
你着让我先走

因为我吗不甘
看你 为我目屎流

Pondering moments, pondering times....

Didn't want to go out today cos of my bad cough and flu due to my throat infection, but been forced to meetup with my client as he's been bugging me since I was in Taiwan. A bit paisei also so bo bian. Since I'm already out, decided might as well go and look for my manager, if I ever get contracted, and sort out the final details of my application.

After settling my issue, she had a sharing session with me, and I appreciate it very much. She re-enforced me on all the things that I had set out to do years ago; my passion, my motive and my motivation for coming into the financial industry. Other than that, she also talked about my personality, and those things that I personally wanted to improve on myself; my inablity to think, lack of use of my brain, inability to put myself in others' shoes to think in their position(selfish in short), my determination and will to push myself that little bit further towards succcess, inability to analyze things and happenings and find solutions for it, lack of focus, lack of composure to handle situations, too trusting of others, lack of confidence, lack of stature to let others give me a chance to show them what I can do for them, etc.... She literately made me feel that I am wasting the resources of this wonderful world that we are in, 'ba wo bian de yi wen bu zhi'. But.... I need more friends like her, friends that will point out my faults and help me to improve as a person. I do not want to look back 5 years later when I'm 30, and I feel like I'm still the same person that I am when I'm 20. What's the point then? We are supposed to be more mature, more developed as a person as we grow older, and not staying at where we are even though time had passed right....

Came back and had a short nap, before getting to N.S for my usual p-ball session with the others. Today is just meant to catch up with the others, though most of the regulars are also playing in the tournament yesterday, as my cough and flu is sure to play a part in slowing down my game. But.... nothing is gonna stop me from playing the game that I so love for so long, ever since I first came into touch with it when I'm 13. It had brought me so much joy, the joy of winning all my trophies, the joy of creating openings and assists, the joy of just having the ball at my feet.... When my manager asked me this afternoon what is the thing that will make me feel proud and I'm most confident about, I told her it's when I'm playing football. The moment the ball touches my feet, it just raises my confidence level and my happiness. But for today, it's mainly to catch up with everyone after missing a few sessions due to my Taiwan trip. The joy of chatting up and joking with everyone, regulars like Chris, Jon, Stan, Kheng Chuan, Koh Wee, others like Khor Peng, Des, Satia, Joe, Matt, Tim, Eddie, Henry, Benny, Tong Chuan, Jonathan, Andrew, and not forgetting those on the injury list like Les, Keith, Ram, etc.... They have formed and played a part in p-ball for so many years.... There used to be so many players that Chris do not have to ask who is available, just be there every Tuesdays and the game will be on. But now, family and work, and injuries had played a part in getting most of the players out of the picture. Now, we have to wait till like 5plus to confirm the game when it's supposed to kickoff at 6.30pm. That's how bad situation is right now.... Wondering how long can such enjoying moments will last....

Anyway, today's game started off with Eddie, Stan, Satia and I against Chris, Jon and Kheng Chuan. Game's flow is quite smooth, with both teams creating openings and chances. I didn't run much cos of my flu, and also because we are 1 man up, so.... ya.... Leave it to the rest, since Satia and Eddie can run a lot. haha.... I just stayed behind to protect the last man guarding the goal. hehe.... First goal is a well-worked goal, with Satia attacking on the right, before sending the ball inwards to me. Took a touch to stop it, before laying it to Stan and he 1st-timed it towards Satia and he slotted it into the goal with a touch as well. Nicely done, as most are 1-touches football. hehe.... 2nd goal is the luckiest goal that can ever be scored. It took a hugh deflection and the ball fell to Stan with the whole goal at is mercy. Well.... Kheng Chuan moved up to join in the attack so no one is guarding the goal loh.... With the score at 2-0, Stan went over to play for Chris to balance up the play. Koh Wee and Shiafu came along and we took a player each. Told Chris that I need Koh Wee as Shiafu just came back from injury, better take care not to overwork his fitness. I need a fit player as we are a man down and a sick man in the team. haha.... Though Shiafu just came back from injury, he's still as good as ever, twisting and turning around. He even pulled a goal back with a nicely solo goal! OMG!!! Seems like chosen the wrong player huh.... haha.... Just joking. Kheng Chuan is the busiest player of the day as Satia and Koh Wee took a lot of shots at goal, all saved by him. I also had a couple of shots kicked away by him, and the one that beated him, struck the right post then the left post and came out. Haiz.... Game ended 2-1 and I guess I'm the most tired player, struggling to catch my breath with my blocked nose. haha.... I'm just coughing and coughing away after the game, the feeling sucks! But I really enjoy today, after few weeks without touching the black and white round round thing call.... football.... woohoo! I love this game!!! *smiles*

Decided to forgo my dinner today so as to come back earlier and rest. Anyway, my cough is definitely going to affect the others' appetite so might as well come back and see what food is available at home. As I walk along the streets, which I had not done so for 2,3 weeks, it seems like I'm back in Taiwan. The same path along the road, the same old buildings around me, same as when I'm there carrying a backpack, though it's not the same and not as big as the one I'm carrying in Taiwan. That's the reason why I said Taiwan is no diff from sg. Most of the things are almost the same, except for the food and people. But then again, even the people there are chinese, so what's the big diff??? haha....

Was walking home slowly, listening to my mp3 and thinking about what my manager-to-be said this afternoon. Am I really taking things too easy in life that I have not paying any attention to my personal development, or should I continue to live life as it is without putting too much pressure to myself? Wouldn't that be very stressful? I admit that I'm not one that can take pressure and I get stressed up easily. So should I actually take things in life more seriously and be more mature? Wouldn't that change my personality and it wouldn't be me? Time for some serious pondering....

站在大丸前 细心看看我的路
再下个车站 到天后 当然最好
但华丽的星途 途中 一旦畏高
背后会否还有他 拥抱

在百德新街的爱侣
面上有种顾昐自豪
在台上任我唱 未必风光更好
人气不过肥皂泡

即使有天开个唱 谁又要唱
他不可到现场
仍然仿似 白活一场
不恋爱 教我怎样唱

几多爱歌给我唱 还是勉强
台前如何发亮
难及给最爱在耳边
低声温柔地唱

白日梦飞翔 永不太远太抽象
最后变天后 变新娘 都是理想
在时代的广场 谁都 总会有奖
我没有歌迷 有他景仰

在百德新街的爱侣
面上有种顾昐自豪
在台上任我唱 未必风光更好
人气不过肥皂泡 ha ah

即使有天开个唱 谁又要唱
他不可到现场
仍然仿似 白活一场
不恋爱 教我怎样唱

几多爱歌给我唱 还是勉强
台前如何发亮
难及给最爱在耳边
低声温柔地唱

几多爱歌给我唱 还是勉强
台前如何发亮
难及给最爱在耳边
低声温柔地唱

其实心里最大理想
跟他归家 为他唱

Soccer rulez!!!!

Woke up at 10plus and rushed down to Bishan CC to meet Chris and co. to return the pladge card for Hair For Hope. Have to trouble my good friend to help me pay in cheque as I do not have a cheque book. haha.... Then as I went to ask around for the next coming event, signed up for the tulip selling in Sep. Hm.... Time for some selling flowers rehearsals. haha....

Went to Junction 8 after that as some of the guys going for the game later wanted to have some food, Stan and Kheng Chuan. I'm still having my cough and didn't want to eat too full, in case I cough out the food later. So Chris, Jon and I just chit chat there, waiting for Stan and Kheng Chuan, while waiting for Satia to come. Was thinking how to get there from J8, and decided to just share cab since there's 7 of us. By the time we take train to Yio Chu Kang and change bus there, it's almost the cost of sharing cab, and it's much slower.

Reached Hiding Place and we are told that we are playing a round robin type of tournament, instead of a proper game lasting 30 to 45 mins per half. A bit sianz, cos such games the most only 15mins per game! Not even per half! Sianz.... The place still the same, not much diff from the time I used to play there so frequently during my younger days, almost a decade ago. Those were the times when I enjoyed playing so much with my schoolmates in my uniform group. Those were the times where we kana thrashed together, 3-0, 5-0, 7-0, and those were also the times when we improved to beat the same team that thrashed us 7-0, with our determination of not wanting to keep losing and the team morale that holds us so strong together. Those were the times.... How time flies.... I haven't saw most of them for years.... Really missed those days whenever I look back at the photos in our school magazines....

Took the team photo with Chris and the others in my team, basically most of them are the p-ballers. hehe.... After waiting for a few games to get underway, we played our first game of the day. I'm damn off loh.... Don't know what the shit am I doing! Don't know what to do with the ball when it comes to my feet and keep giving the ball away. I'm more like catching my breath rather than feeling the ball. I lost my feel and my touch! OMG!!! End up losing that very first game to a silly goal conceded by our gk. Think even Stan can save that goal. Haiz.... Guess I'm still lost after losing my touch and fitness to the 2 weeks' break. Got a wakeup call from Stan and the 2nd game is considerably better. He reminded me of what I should do and I spread the passes a bit better, though not to my usual standard. Managed to get a hard-fought draw out of that game, and immediately have to play our last game of the day. The last game is by far my best game, though not at my best. Almost got the assist for the 1st goal, but there's no denying the 2nd and 3rd goal, scored by Satia and Christopher respectively. Both are from corners, at the same side, just different style of delivering. 2 corners taken, 2 goals scored, and 2 assists for me. Guess the opponents are bad at defending set-pieces ba....

Well.... We could have gotten into the semis, had we not lose the first game. Jokingly pushed the blame to Stan, cos if he had played instead of the other guy, he would have saved the goal and we would have gone through to the semis. haha.... We even made a joke out of it at the end that we might even win the tournament cos after the semis, the 2 teams that's in the final are the 2 teams that went through from our group. Chris said that we are just unlucky to be in the group of death.... haha.... Something disappointed me though at the event, the guest of honour who happened to be a pastor. Though he's quite old and being a pastor, but yet he can't think. I picked up a hp in the toilet and after failing to find the owner, I brought it to the organising committee, but yet the organiser told me off and tell me that there is a prize presentation going on. HELLO!!! I believe returning the hp to it's owner is definitely more important than giving out the prizes and trophies right! I know you can afford to buy a new one, another ex one, but not everyone can afford it ok! And what happens if the owner didn't backup his contacts? Do you know how important that hp is to him? The contacts in the hp! What disappointment.... To think that he's a pastor in his late 40's, but yet he can't do what he preach. And you are telling me he's a devoted religious person? Sorry to say that, but I doubt so. That's why I'm getting more and more skeptical when people tells me how good being a christian is, how it will change your life and how you will become a better person. Sorry, but no point just using your mouth to say it, you have to do what you preach. If you can't do it, don't say it. Saying is cheap, it's free, but how far can it get you? Do it! Don't just talk!

After the event, took bus with Chris and Jon back. Was damn hungry le, so decided to stop at Circuit Road food centre for dinner. I combed the whole place and still can't find my fish soup, have to settle for fishball noodle instead. Sianz.... Then went to my market and finally found my fish soup! woohoo! Fishie fishie, here I come.... haha....

Came back and while switching around the channels, saw there's a game going on between Liverpool and Chelsea, in the 49th min. OMG! Is it the Charity Shield? It's today? I checked with Chris over msn and he confirmed it. OMG!!! I thought it's next Sunday and EPL kickoff on the 26th? Arhg!!!! Guess I lost track of the time and date ever since I came back from Taiwan. Suffering from serious 'jetlag' sia.... haha.... Pool won the game 2-1! Yeah man! Surprised to see Bellamy at Pool, but he impressed me with his cross for Crouch after chasing a long ball down the left wing. He beated Carvalho and executed a perfect cross over the covering Terry for Crouch to head in an easy goal. But Crouch also damn cannot make it one lah! He headed the ball straight down the center of the goal. Luckily Cudicini is the one in goal, had it been Cech there, he can forget about scoring that goal, sure kana saved! No wonder he don't score much with his head, despite standing tall at 2m. What a waste.... haha.... Of course, saw the goals from Riise and Shevchenko during the highlights. Wow! Riise's left foot is really damn precious! He let fly a shot from almost 30m out and it found the corner of the goal! What a shot! Shevchenko's goal is just pure class, from a world class striker. Ball through the heads of the Pool's defence by Lampard, and the first touch on his chest took Shevchenko away from all the defenders. Then all he need is the composure of a world class striker to wait and stroke in past the gk. That's his first goal in Chelsea's colours, and that signals the arrival of a world class player to the EPL.... Too bad he's playing for Chelsea and Ukraine; being a Man Utd's supporter, won't enjoy him playing and scoring goals for Chelsea, and being an admirer of him, kind of sad that he didn't represent a country that can win him international honours. Haiz....

(黑人) 我爱黑涩会上课啰
(丫头) 黑人老大 唉哟我的妈呀

(大牙) 稍息立正老师好 今天要大考
(小熏) 考不停的唱歌跳舞样样好 才是女主角
(妹妹) 还有火星文它 到底 是什么代号
(小蛮) 我的部落格里 留言 快要被塞爆

(合) 乱掉
姐姐妹妹一起笑 开朗微笑做号召
梦想泪水都代表 我们青春洋溢 刚好
姐姐妹妹一起叫 一切我们来主导
天马行空不说教 我们挥霍年轻 真好

(黑人) 到底 来啰 woo hoo
(丫头) 喔 整个自high

(apple) 给我梦的降落伞 在这个舞台
(彤彤) 唱出我的坚持梦想不留白 都会有你在
(筱婕) 还要你跟我来 猜猜 谁是最厉害
(鬼鬼) 一起勇敢挑战 我最 期待的精采

(合) 未来
姐姐妹妹一起笑 开朗微笑做号召
梦想泪水都代表 我们青春洋溢 刚好
姐姐妹妹一起叫 一切我们来主导
天马行空不说教 我们挥霍年轻 真好

(黑人- rap) 七八年级有梦的美眉 这是充满幻想的园地
黑人老大带着你们一起飞 尽情享受青春的无敌
你受够国英数理自然科学加考试 我爱黑涩会让你们透透气
学校林老师没教的事 明星哥哥姐姐现在教给你

姐姐妹妹一起笑 开朗微笑做号召
梦想泪水都代表 我们青春洋溢 刚好
姐姐妹妹一起叫 一切我们来主导
天马行空不说教 我们挥霍年轻 真好

姐姐妹妹一起笑 开朗微笑做号召
梦想泪水都代表 我们青春洋溢 刚好
姐姐妹妹一起叫 一切我们来主导
天马行空不说教 我们挥霍年轻 真好

(丫头) 精神为之一振哟 come on baby
(黑人) 你叫谁baby啊
(丫头) 你就是baby嘛
(黑人) 好啦 好啦 厚

Just not fated....

Woke up at 10plus today, but still can't get her off my mind.... Trying a couple of ways to see if there's any chances of actually contacting her, but I guess it's not gonna be easy. In fact, probably no chances at all.... Haiz.... Who else to blame but myself.... If only....

Sis came over and unpack my things with me. Passed her the souvenirs that I got for her and the kids. We waited for TC to come over to my place after his work and unpacked all the stock the I bought back. Sis gave some suggestions on how to sell and where to sell and how much we are able to sell at. Afterwhich, she took some of the items and my personal goods. Luckily, she didn't take much of the selling stocks that I joint-ventured with TC and Jul. Otherwise, I have to fork out the amount myself sia.... haha....

We decided that we need a box or container and pack everything inside nicely, so we went to those shops around my vicinity to look for a suitable one. Partly also because my mama is away in JB and we also need to buy food back for my dad. TC came along as we haven't finish our planning and discussion, plus we need his views on the containers also. But.... end up we discussed more than looking for containers as we can't find any suitable ones, except the one at NTUC. But it's too ex! It's good, can contain about 10plus designs each. But it's too ex! We need about 4 or 5 of it as we have over 40 designs and it cost $12 or $18 each! Cannot lah! Like that will eat into our profits! Sianz.... Oh shit! Forgot that TC wants to borrow my camera and didn't pass it to him just now. End up, he came up with us, just to take the camera. haha....

After dinner, Sis played Maple and I end up having to entertain myself watching tv. Sianz.... I got some many things to do on my laptop you know! haha.... There seems to be some fireworks display at Marina that side, and we went out to take a look. When I told her that I played fireworks in Taiwan, she like so 'angry', staring at me as she never have the chance to play with it. haha.... How I wish things can settle down soon and I can start my work soon so that I can save up and bring my sis to Taiwan also. Hopefully, by Dec, I would have saved up enough to bring her and the 2 kids to Taiwan for a short holiday trip. But now, just pray hard that everything gets settled quick and I can start my work asap. I need money!!!! haha....

OMG!!!! My sis spoilt my fav chair! My football chair! Argh!!!! Sis.... you better lose weight fast! Or I will kill you! Argh!!!! My poor chair.... sobsob....

Went to the market, yet again, to buy food for my brother-in-law. Along the way, she's telling me that the hairsticks that I bought is too many, not easy to sell off. I actually shared the same views as her, but didn't really think that much when I'm getting the stock. Thought it will sell off as Jul says it's quite nice and should be sellable. Now thinking back, perhaps I really bought too many le.... Haiz....

Came back and continue watching tv. She came to my mind again though my eyes are on the tv. So sad that I didn't managed to get her number.... If only I had been more proactive then, things would have been so different now.... Haiz.... Guess we just not fated ba.... 'you yuan xiang yu, wu fen zai xu'. Fate is not on our side.... There are so many times that we almost can chat and exchange numbers, but.... Fate had played another joke on me again.... Why is it that I always 'cha shen er guo'? Even those that I'm able to keep in touch with, never have any feelings for me even after I 'biao bai' to them.... Why.... Guess I'm just not gonna have the good fortune of having a nice gf, a nice wife....

hey hey
yeah
da da da da
da da da da da

我承认我也有点情绪
该好好谈却让你离去
改天买点什么哄你
你就不会生气

一个星期都没你消息 yeah
十七个留言都没回应
感觉有一点不对劲
让我开始担心

我说了什么 我做了什么
还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的却一直做
该说的没有说

我说了什么 我做了什么
你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过
让我们比较好过 是对还是错

hey yi yeah yeah
wu oh 有什么出错 yeah

足够的技巧不去争执 yeah
足够的成熟但没情趣
会是爱得不够多
还是根本爱错 ho wu

分手这念头你有闪过 yeah
老实说我也想过很多 wu wo
难得但讽刺的默契
想想会更难过

我说了什么 我做了什么
还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的却一直做
该说的没有说

我说了什么 我做了什么
你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过
让我们比较好过 是对还是错

能说的都说 能做的都做
都愿意但没改过
能说的都说了 能做的都做
wo wu wo wo wu wo

我说了什么 我做了什么
可能你都永远不会懂
掏出我的心给你有什么用
又不是没努力过

不是你的错 不是我的错
怪你不如我先想清楚
慢慢了解爱不是在比谁痛
多用心都没有用

怪缘分 不够

Sorry, to all the people I loved, and all those I should have told them....

Got up at 2plus today. It's been so long since I stayed in my nest till so late. The feeling? Warmth and homely. Now then I felt that I have been away in Taiwan for 2 weeks. The homely feeling is so missed, only when I'm back from Taiwan! Darling, if you are reading this, then you will know that I finally felt the difference between Taiwan and sg. The HOME feeling! haha....

Should have got up long ago in the morning, but just didn't want to get up, cos I'm thinking of someone. Someone whom I only knew her name, just her name and nothing else. Not her number, not her email, not her msn. The only thing is only her name and some lovely memories.... If only I have muster the courage to be more proactive and think of what I should have done, things might have been so diferent now.... But....

Was wondering when all the aunties are saying that why I still haven't been able to get myself a partner, given the qualities that I have. Then, I couldn't find an answer for them. Not that I feel that I'm really very good, but rather I can't find anything to tell them. But if they, or anybody, were to ask again, I would have the perfect answer for them. That is, I always do not know how to grasp my chance when it came across. I takes too much time to express myself, and I'm too shy to let those gals that I liked know my feelings. I tried to hide my feelings, fearing that I might do things too obvious in front of other people and embarass myself and them. But now, I hope that I will not commit the same mistake again. Hope that whoever cross my path in future, I will be able to ignore whatever is between us, and let my true feelings be known. But for now, it's time to pick up my feelings for her, and move on with my life.... Since the chances are so slim that I'll ever see her again....

Met my ex, supposedly for lunch, but end up we almost ended in a quarrel again. Haiz.... The problem lies with me lah.... I'm harsh to her again, cos we are supposed to meet for lunch, but end up she said that she's eaten and just want to meet up for a chat. Then she passed me some breads and a cake. My belated birthday cake, I believe. But she didn't tell me beforehand. End up I have to bring the cake and breads up home again, before I got down to meet her again. It's my fault again lah.... We seems to miscommunicate most of the time, and I always end up getting mad at her. Maybe it's a relief to her that we broke up, but I know that she's still healing from it. Anyway, we went to P.S to walk around before she meet her sister to go shopping. Walked till about 6plus, before she made her way to meet her sister, and I met up with Hui ge for dinner. Afterwhich, we went up to his new office opp Meridien and chit chat. It's been weeks since we met up and chatted.

Went over to Killiney P.O to look for Kaixin. She damn busy loh! So busy that she didn't notice I walked in, not even when I sat at one corner waiting for her. She must be blind sia! haha.... Walked over to Yen Li's cubicle and she's still there! It's like after 8pm le and she's still busy with her work. She must be so tired loh.... So hard on her.... Passed her a 'zhong tong bing' that I bought in Taiwan and when she asked about my shaved head, I took out the pledge card and she obligedly donated 10 bucks. So thankful to her, for her kindness to the suffering children. Thanks! *smiles* Anyway, finally got the chance to find no one at the queue and walked over to Kaixin's counter and asked her if she's still going out with her friends. She said yes. Then I passed her the 'zhong tong bing', 'tai yang bing' and the 'feng li su', and went off. Since she's going out with her friends, then what am I waiting there for right.... haha....

Got back and wanted to work on my outstanding posts for the past 7 weeks, but guess what.... My socket shortcircuited! And all my work is still unsaved! What the hell! I'm damn pissed, but I learnt to control my temper from my trip with the tour group, and I learnt to appreciate my parents even more, esp my mama, ever since I'm away for so long. Guess it's also got to do with xiao chen ba.... He reminded me of many things which I had forgotten while I'm busy with my work and my business; filial piety, things that I could have done, instead of things that I should have done better. 'ni zuo de, zai yu gou bu gou, bu zai yu gou bu gou hao'. That really knocked some senses into me, woken me up from my depressed state. He reminded me that, without love, I still have my parents, my sister, my niece and nephew, my family in short with me no matter what happens. They are the ones who are always with me when I need someone, somebody most, isn't it? Not even my ex is there during my worst times, or those that I fancied. Only my mama is there for me.... She can be naggy, but she's definitely the one who cares for me most. Most notably when we are sitting at the garden while my dad's friend help us to fix the socket. Mama was saying that when I told her I'm all alone in Taiwan when I called back on the 5th day of my trip, her heart nearly dropped as she's so so so worried about me. She heard that Taiwan is having earthquake and typhoon on the news when I'm there. She's so worried that she got my dad to call me every alternate day when I didn't call back. That's how much she cares for me, worrying about me every single moment. I love you, mama.... Forgive me if I have upset you with my bad temper and threw my temper at you.... I haven't been a good son.... Sorry....

這一刻突然覺得好 熟悉
像昨天今天同時在 放映
我這句語氣原來好 像你
不就是我們愛過的 證據

差一點騙了自己騙 了你
愛與被愛不一定成 正比
我知道被疼 是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出 自己

努力為你改變
卻變不了 預留的伏線
以為在你身邊
那也算永遠

彷彿還是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遙遠
但閉上我雙眼
我還看得見

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走卻 走失那 路口
感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能感受那 溫柔

那一段我們 曾心貼著心
我想我更有 權力關心你
可能你已走 進別人風景
多希望也有 星光的投影

努力為你改變
卻變不了 預留的伏線
以為在你身邊
那也算永遠

彷彿還是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遙遠
但閉上我雙眼
我還看得見

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走卻 走失那 路口
感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能感受那 溫柔

可惜不是你 陪我到最後
曾一起走卻 走失那 路口
感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能感受那 溫柔

感謝那是你 牽過我的手
還能溫暖我 胸口

Nervous day....

Something happened today along our trip, the elderly auntie fell sick! OMG! It happened during our lunch, where she had no appetite and complaint about stomachache and feeling nauseous. Probably due to the long journey in the morning after breakfast ba.... We had a long ride, before we reached the restaurant for our lunch. So.... ya....

Due to Auntie Linda's family having vegetarian food or lunch as it's the 15th today, I'm rearranged to sit with Uncle Tan and family. There I am sitting just 2 seats besides her, and yet I didn't know how to 'zuo ren'. A couple of times she's having difficulties picking up the food and yet I didn't help her. Right in front of me somemore! I mean the food, and she has to call out to her mum for help. Ai! Ya! So stupid of me right.... Got the chance to get some plus points from her, and yet I didn't know how to grab it. Haiz.... Guess I'm too nervous to think properly....

Taroko Gorge is the next stop for the day, and upon reaching the place, had a chat with Chris as she's quite troubled and worried about the elderly couple. Then she's telling me about the situation where the uncle is scolding her wife when she refused to go and see the doctor. And the auntie is so angry that she said she wants to come back to sg. Poor Chris have to go and talk to her nicely and slowly coax her into going to the doctor. Haiz.... Guess it's not as easy as people see being a tour guide. Have to take care of the people in the group, take care of the itinerary, take care of any unforeseen circumstances, etc.... Come to think of it, it's actually so stressful being a tour guide....

After listening to Chris, guess I'm still only a good listener as I really don't know what to say to console her, went to take a few pictures of the scenery. End up being a photographer for some of the others in my tour group, like Deyuan and his parents, and I'm telling his mum to smile because taking picture must be happy! haha.... She say she don't look nice taking picture, so I told her because she didn't smile mah.... Then I kept saying, 'Auntie, must smile har.... I going to take already. No smile no nice...." Then I snap it when she's laughing. haha.... After that she told me that she will smile when talking to me. Oh man.... I'm so touched.... Someone know how to appreciate me.... sobsob.... Then the young couple, I shall call them Mr & Mrs Luo, just like how Chris address them. And then.... Uncle Tan and family. After taking for them, I asked them if I can take a picture of them with my camera. OMG! Why on earth would that sentence come out of my mouth? I must be feeling too high to actually say that! Tends to do stupid things, like entertaining Deyuan's mum when taking picture, and say things that I normally won't when I'm feeling high! haha.... Then Auntie Tan, being her enthusiastic self, told me to join them to take a picture with them.... OMG!!! I'm so nervous loh.... Didn't know where to stand, until she told me to stand besides Siling. I almost broke out in cold sweat! haha.... But the picture taken is not very nice lah.... I'm carrying that stupid pouch and didn't look very good, and it's taken too far away that the close up don't look nice. Haiz....

Took the coach and went inside the Taroko Gorge. What the hell! It's damn dangerous inside loh.... The road is barely enough for 1 car to passby at each side, and we are walking along the road to get in! OMG!!! Xiao Chen is introducing some of the various features of the Gorge to us, like the Swallow Cave and the Nine Turn Grotto. He also told us about the marbles that's below, how the Taiwanese government didn't want to mile the place for marble, just to preserve the natural scenery it brings. And how someone got jailed for 4 months after selling off a blue rudy he picked up while swimming there. It's supposed to be surrendered to the police, and not for selling off. Strict huh....

Rested at this 'ting', which they served very special coffee and ice-cream. Not that I find it special, as I don't drink coffee and I can't take ice-cream now. I'm sick! Thanks to the many many days of aircon sleeping environment.... Guess my flu and throat infection is catching up on me again.... Haiz.... The coach actually took a turn and waited for us over at the pavilion there, tp bring us to our next destination. Hm.... The driver also damn shiong, he have to wake up so early every morning to pick us up, and sleep so late every nights after bringing us to our hotels. Tough job man....

The A-mei zu dance and sing item is up next. The place? A-mi Aboriginal Cultural Village. At first I thought it's those outdoor kind, where they have the campfire type which I so loved during my schooldays. End up, it's actually indoor performance at a theatre. What a letdown.... But then again, the dances and singings are still very nice and enjoying. Wanted to video it down and show it to my parents and sis when I'm back. What the hell! My videocam ran out of batt as I forgot to charge it last night. Forgot about it as I'm suffering in the cold room with the aircon blowing at me. Shit man! Argh!!! Wasted.... End up appreciating the dances sitting at the front row of the spectators' seats. There are a few different dances that they showed us, like the dances on bravery, courtship, farming, hunting, separation due to work, and most notably, the bamboo dance. OMG! They are so good at the bamboo dance! So complicated and difficult movements look so easy at their footsteps! woohoo! Then the final dance on marriage and they picked up a few of the audience to join them. One of the gals in my group got picked up, as well as William. Then they didn't know what's going on, thought it's only a normal routine where they are kneeing down according to the dance, until they are whacked on the butt by one of the main dancer! Ouch! That hurts! haha.... Eventually, everyone is brought on to join in the final dance and the dancers took a picture with us. Well.... Guess everyone paid for that picture at the end of everything. Quite nice lah, the jade frame, but not the gals that took the pic with me. haha.... Costs about NT500 I think. Can't remember lah.... Uncle me have memory lapses! haha....

Dinner is next, right after the performance at the indoor restaurant itself. Due to the elderly couple not joining us as they went back to the hotel to rest 1st, I'm told to sit with the Tan family again. Guess today is not a good day for me at meals, going to suffer from indigestion.... I always can't eat when I'm sleepy or nervous, and that's what's happening to me for the whole of today! Sick = sleepy and nervous during mealtime. Haiz.... Xiao Chen came over and we joked that William and I both have to eat a lot, otherwise tonight no energy to 'dong fang'. Cos during the performance just now, William is the bridegroom that carried the A-mei gal at his back with a specially designed bamboo chair. As for me, Auntie Tan said that I also have a wife mah, that lady where they teased me at the Mei Non Hakka Village. haha....

Back at the hotel in the night, Chris went over to the elderly couple's room and fed the auntie food, cos she's angry with her husband for not being understanding and insisted Chris to feed her. Not that she must have Chris lah, just that she doesn't want her husband to feed her. Poor Chris.... Doing things that's not within her jobscope of a tour guide. But she's a nice lady lah, took care of all of us along the tour. Being the kpo me, I went to take a look at the auntie, and recalled that Chris told me she's sick because she has not gone to the toilet ever since she came to Taiwan. That's like about 5 days! Of course she don't feel well lah.... Then she's complaining that she need to eat papaya in order to go to the toilet. Found out that there's a fruits stall nearby and decided to go with Xiao Chen to buy the papaya. Just afraid that it's already like 8plus in the night, they might have close shop already. Took the 'ji che' that Xiao Chen borrowed from the convenient store owner whom he knows, and went to the fruits stall. 1st time experience on riding a scooter in Taiwan! Rare experience sia.... haha....

Caught a bit of rain while getting the papaya cos it's drizzling due to the coming typhoon. Haiz.... Confirmed going to fall sick tomorrow le.... Sianz.... Saw Amanda while waiting at the convenient store earlier, and I showed her the 'giant' Heineken beer can. It's so big loh! It didn't state the volume, but we both estimated it at 1.2litre. If only I brought my camera, can take a pic of it and show Chris and Jon and Les and Keith. They will love it! haha....

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
对不起 我有大舌头

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
说爱你 我就大舌头

转身 靠在墙壁
立正 开始正音
说一万遍我爱你
直到你满意

注意 你的嘴型
咬字 含糊不清
说一万遍我爱你
直到你满意

一二三四五六七
开始倒数表白的成绩
每一分钟多一名
竞争者太挤

ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄐㄑㄒ
有些咬字我都咬不清
要说什么都可以
就差我爱你

ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌ

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
对不起 我有大舌头

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
说爱你 我就大舌头

转身 靠在墙壁
立正 开始正音
说一万遍我爱你
直到你满意

一二三四五六七
开始倒数表白的成绩
每一分钟多一名
竞争者太挤

ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄐㄑㄒ
有些咬字我都咬不清
要说什么都可以
就差我爱你

ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌ
hey yeah yeah

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
对不起 我有大舌头

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
说爱你 我就 zi zi zi 大舌头

说话有时我都说不清
嘴巴记得你要放干净

ㄅㄆㄇㄈ ㄉㄊㄋㄌ
ㄍㄎㄏ ㄐㄑㄒ
ㄓㄔㄕㄖ ㄗㄘㄙ
ㄧㄨㄩㄚ ㄛㄜㄝ

ㄞㄟㄠㄡ ㄢㄣㄤㄥㄦ

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
对不起 我有大舌头

说说说说 说你爱我
我我我我 说不出口
口口口口 声声的说
说爱你 我就 大 舌 头

i'm sorry i'm sorry

Enjoying day, with her and the fun....

Took our breakfast at the hotel, before making our way to Lian Chi Tan. Again.... Why I say that is because I already been there before, so.... ya.... Since I don't want to go through the same thing again, decided to find someone to talk to. haha.... Talked to Uncle Tan, Xiao Chen and Deyuan's parents along the way, as Uncle Tan like not very interested in those things, while Xiao Chen already tired of it le ba, after like 30 years in the industry. Did talked to her for a while when we are walking together, and I showed her the Doraemon pic that I took the other time I came here. hehe.... Didn't really walk much there as the place is damn big! Just spent like 30mins walk here walk there, before we went into this shop and buy the Tai Yang Ping. They got the 'guo dong' and 'mua ji', but I didn't buy lah.... All those sg can find one, what for carry so heavy. My luggage is already killing me le. haha....

After that, we went to this Mei Nong Min Su Chun and try the famous Local 'jian cha' from the Hakka tribe. The tea taste very nice, but with the rice inside I don't like it. Decided to get a few different types for different purposed back to drink, and also for mama and dad to try. While we are there, kana tease by Xiao Chen and the people in my tour group loh.... Cos the lady explaining the function of the various flavours is like making fun of me and telling me to buy all. If I don't know what to drink for what purposes, she can come back to sg with me to explain slowly to me. Then the others also join in and ask me to take her as my wife and bring me back to sg and show her to my parents. What the! Aiyo.... I like so paisei, but dare not say that she can be my elder sister liao loh, still want to be my wife. haha.... Some things cannot say out one mah.... But if I really want to take someone as my wife, rather take that gal in my tour group right.... She's younger than me, and so sweet looking somemore.... haha.... End up, I still bought a few packs from the saleslady lah.... Cos the tea really taste nice. *smiles*.

Hakka lunch follows after that, the restaurant is just at the foot of the mountain of Fo Kuang Shan Monastery. Saw the gal's mum is vomitting near one of the tree outside the restaurant, and being the caring and helpful me, I'm sure to be a kpo and go over and see how is she. Then she's explaining that because of the toilet and also the food that she took just now, tends to feel nauseous as she's not easy to get used to food and unclean environment. Then I saw that gal after the auntie told me to get on with my things as she will be ok after a while. Told her about her mum, and she like already gotten used to it. Well.... She had been to many places with her mum to know what she's like already ba.... Then found out from her that she's like her mum when she's younger, also not used to this and that. Now that she's grown older, much better already, but still can't get used to beds, that's why she seldom get good sleep at night during the trip.

OMG!!! Walking up the Fo Kuang Shan is like damn shagged to me loh.... Up the steps is killing me! And yet Auntie Tan can still brisk walk and always the first one to get to the top. Really admire her, to think that she just vomitted. She's very good sia.... Me? I'm like a 52 yr-old man in a 25 yr-old appearance. Shagged! haha.... Threw coins at the bell and wished for family safety and well-being, and for good fortune in my business and work ventures. Besides that, we also got to 'ring' the bell at the top of the Monastery. Same thing, wished for family and business. Yesterday at the Wen Wu Temple already thought me that I must have something to wish for when the chances came along. Just like one of my mentors, Catherine Peh, says; you need to have a wish in mind, before fairy god mother comes along. You can't be asking her to wait for you to think of what you want when she comes, that would be too late, cos she don't have the time to wait for you to think. Hm.... Now I only pray for my family and my business, cos I want my business to make money so that my parents and my sister can take things easier, don't have to keep slogging so hard, just to make ends meet.... While on our way down, Deyuan's mum slipped and fell! OMG! Is she alright? I wanted to go and take a look, but there are already many people there to assist her le, so I decided otherwise. Too many cooks spoil the soup right.... She's one of those who went to take a look, so kindhearted right.... Another plus point. haha....

Hot Spring is the next stop, after our 3 hrs of travelling in the coach. By the time we reached the place, it's already like 5plus le.... Quickly changed up and went to dip into the Hot Spring. OMG!!! Damn shiok sia! It's so relaxing.... The water is so.... heavenly.... First time in Hot Spring, it's more shiok than suana! woohoo! Then she came along, and she looks so nice in her swimsuit. Well.... She's like almost my dream gal; nice long hair, nice looking eyebrows with a little bit of baby fats on her cheeks, nice looking eyes with the eyelashes, nice 'xiao wen' when she smiles, nice collarbone, etc.... Not going to elaborate further, the list goes on and the others are quite confidential already. haha.... Personality wise, she's also quite knowledgeable and knows what she wants in life, esp her work. No airs and quite easy to chat with her. Talked to her during our dip at the hotspring, and she said that she will bath in such hot condition quite often. She's quite used to it, but her mum cannot cos it's too hot! haha.... She likes to bath with such hot water, cos it opens up her pores. No wonder her skin also very good.... haha.... OMG! I lost my towel during my hot spring! End up have to borrow from someone in my tour group to dry myself. Aiyo.... So paisei sia....

Master Bear Resort is next, the place where we will 'fang tian deng' and stay over for the night. Had our dinner there, before taking our luggage to our rooms. After that, we went over for some games at the stage. There's a stage whereby we can play games with the mecee, and release our 'tian deng' after that. The mecee played a few games with us, starting with baseball bat hitting a chair after turning around and take 7 steps to and fro. Auntie Tan went up to play and she hit the chair! Won 5 bear soap and she gave me one. I'm so touched.... hehe.... Then followed by a few more people, and the other gal in the Tan family went up to play. But because she's borned and breeded in UK, she can't really understand mandarin and that gal went up too to be her translator. So nice of her right.... haha.... Then we played the 'wen zi jie long' game, where we will link the last word of every 'cheng yu' with a new one. Our side typically only depends on this uncle who's in my tour group. He like response to every 'cheng yu' the other side linked. Hm.... Su Su you lian guo one ok.... haha.... But end up we still lost in the best of 3, as we only got 1 good player, while the other side got so many to link back and throw it to us. Haiz....

Time to raise the 'tian deng'! We wrote many things on the 'deng' beforehand. All of us in the same tour group. While we are writing it earlier, I asked the gal what did she write, she told me she wrote 'quan jia ping an'. By that, I can see that she cares about family a lot. Another plus point. haha.... But when we took it to light it up, discover a hole and it failed to fly upwards! End up we have to write everything all over again, in the shortest time possible, as the others already flew upwards le.... She also hurriedly wrote the same sentence again, before moving to one side and let the others light up the 'tian deng'. She's wearing this blue blouse with a 'jeans overall skirt'. Don't know what they call it, but she looks so nice in it. I always love to see gals in skirts, they looks more femine that way. haha....

Surprise! Xiao Chen and Chris arranged a birthday celebration for me! I just told Xiao Chen about it yesterday while we are chatting at the Wen Wu Temple, and he really arranged this for me. I'm so touched sia.... sobsob.... There's a place where we can sing ktv, and we held the celebration there. Guess what? Xiao Chen and Chris actually selected the happy birthday song on the ktv screen and everyone sang along. I was so paisei sia.... In my 25 years, no one had sang like that for me before. Even my family, only xiao mei and ah boy sang. My parents and sis are the shy shy type, won't sing one. My friends? They also won't loh.... They find it very 'zuo xi'. Haiz.... Really first time got so many people sing so happily for me.... sobsob.... Time to make my birthday wish after the mandarin, english, cantonese and hokkien birthday songs, they literately sang all the versions. haha.... Though there are calls for me to wish for a good gf, I still keep my wish to family and my business, though I have the urge to wish for something else, then I can tell her afterwards. But.... I think that's really not my priority ba....

Fireworks and filming after the celebrations and getting the wishes from the people in my tour group. I specially thanked Auntie Tan, cos I saw her wrote happy birthday on the 'tian deng' just now, without knowing that it's my birthday. No one knows it, until Chris announced it at the ktv lounge just now. But she got the heart to write it on the 'tian deng', and she even say that it's very important. So touched loh.... sobsob.... Played with the fireworks for the first time in my life! It's banned in sg, and didn't have the chance to play it in Malaysia also. Got her to come and play together, but she like very scared to lit it up. So I told her to stay at one corner and watch loh.... Suddenly, I saw some kids playing the fireworks in a very special way. The fireworks went sideways, instead of the usual upwards! I'm so amazed, and asked the didi to teach me. hehe.... The kids are just so innovative loh.... To be able to think of such ways. Smart sia....

Auntie Tan and her elder sister, Auntie Linda, decided to have a dip at the mineral pool at the resort, and that gal joined her mum and auntie. Meanwhile, I had a chat with Xiao Chen after he asked me over for a drink cos it's my birthday. I told him I don't drink, but because of him, I took a couple of toasts from him. He's a nice guy, bringing all of us a lot of joy during this tour. Then we are talking about filial piety and some of the important values in life that we must have, and what are those that we shouldn't possess. Had a long long nice chatting session with him, before I went over to look for her. Saw the brother and sister with Uncle Tan and Deyuan at the corner where there's a punching bag. After talking to the gal in UK for some time about her field of study and investing interests, I realized that she's actually very interested in doing some investments of her own. Then got to know that she's also very involved in Thai boxing, even right now! OMG!!! Was telling her that I'm sorry if I had offended her in any ways during the past few days, cos 1 punch from her, I will be knocked out and have an early sleep man.... haha.... Of course, that's meant to be a joke lah.... How would I have offended her sia.... hehe.... Got to know her name is Amanda and her brother is called William. They came for the tour with their mum, together with her mum's sister, Auntie Tan and Uncle Tan and their daughter. So total there are 6 of them. Jokingly said that even though we are together for the past few days, we never really know each other's names. Not even when I talked to her cousin for so many days, I also don't know her name. haha.... While talking to Amanda, where Deyuan is there also, I leave most of the tallking to both of them. My attention is actually on that gal, who's having a swim in the pool with her mum and auntie. Auntie Tan kept telling me to go in and join them. Aiya! I should have gone in, but because I too shy and rejected them. If only I had gone in, maybe I will have more chance to talk to her.... Haiz.... Wasted.... After a while, Uncle Tan also went into the pool, that's when I suddenly realized that she's gone. Asked around and was told that she went to take her shower.

Deyuan's parents came to look for him, that's when everyone had their fun and decided to go for their showers. She came with towels and gave to her parents and auntie. So caring of her, another plus point. haha.... Then while her parents and auntie and cousins went back to their rooms, she walked with the rest of us to the ktv hall. Then I was telling her about the joke on not knowing each other's names. Then she said that she called Karena, then I told her I'm Kim Chye. Well.... I always like to know chinese names so I asked her about her chinese name. She told me it's Siling. Then she asked me back, and I told her it's Jincai, as in 'jin xiu qian chen' and 'cai hua'. Decided to say that it's 'cai hua', cos I was told to change my name to that, instead of the 'cai yuan guang jin'. Then we are talking about we are very poor at remembering names, so I childishly wrote my english spelling and chinese characters on my palm and showed it to her. haha.... After that, she was asked to go and call her cousin, William, over by Xiao Chen. Was chatting with the rest and waited for her to come back. But.... she came back with her parents and not William. Haiz.... She's always with her mum loh.... Like so close to each other that I seldom can chat with her alone. Haiz haiz....

Finally found a song that I can sing with Deyuan after Siling and her parents went back to their rooms to rest. Was talking about it since I'm cutting my birthday cake. Well... The songs are not easy to find sia.... And it's the kind where you slot in coins then you select songs that type. Very the 'huai jiu' sia.... hehe.... Sang Alex Toh's qing ren. Not that I liked that song, but that's about the best song that we can find. haha.... That turned out to be the last song, before they have to stop it as it's very late and they are afraid that it will affect the peace of the night. We, Xiao Chen, Chris, Deyuan and his parents, the young couple, and some of the staffs working there, sat around and chatted till they are closing, before making our way back to our rooms.

Went back to my room and I on the tv to watch the programs. I won't sleep that early one lah, even though it's already 1plus in the night. I have a feeling that I'm going to catch a cold anytime soon, cos the aircon in the room is like not adjustable....

快乐 是可以分享的
快乐 需要一些过程
快乐 总是能被记得
因为记忆 只留下美好的

你是 你自己的作者
何必写那 麽难演的剧本
别怪 话说的太多了
我只是 不要你不快乐

被爱 应该是幸福的
去爱 没有想像的愚蠢
相爱 可以非常地单纯
因为爱全是与生俱来的

你问 我怎麽那麽神
这些智慧 该如何才获得
爱你 我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课

有了你开心的 乜都称心满意
咸鱼白菜 也好好味
我与你永共聚 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空 气

有了你开心的 乜都称心满意
咸鱼白菜 也好好味
我与你永共聚 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空 气

你问 我怎麽那麽神
这些智慧 该如何才获得
爱你 我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课

有了你开心的 乜都称心满意
咸鱼白菜 也好好味
我与你永共聚 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空 气

爱你 我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课

Happy Birthday to myself....

Woke up at 7plus today, feeling damn tired.... Strangely, cos I slept at 1plus last night. Should have enough sleep right.... Probably because the aircon is too cold and I caught a sore throat ba.... Sianz.... Anyway, washed up and went for the breakfast. It's not very nice loh.... Same porridge and those 'chinese dishes', typical chinese style. Sianz x2.... Haiz.....

Got into the coach and went for today's first place of interest; Lu Fong Earthquake Museum, the place where Taiwan kana the worst earthquake in 1999, Sep 21. Most of Taitung is destructed as a result of that incident, killing many. Sad.... Next, we went to Sun Moon Lake. Quite disappointed, cos didn't managed to get a good place to take a picture of the whole Lake. Just went for our lunch at the restaurant there, then go round the place in the coach. How to take picture when the coach is moving??? Argh!!!

After lunch, we went to the Wen Wu Temple. Sad sia.... Thought I be able to make wishes to the Guan Gong and Yue Fei, hope that they can grant me my wishes, but.... Haiz.... I wasn't even given a chance to make my wishes, cos I wasn't granted the chance to. Complicated lah.... Just very very sad.... Maybe I wasn't sincere enough in the process, cos I'm distracted by something. A gal, and her family, and the mind to 'impress'. Never mind.... Anyway, I just not sincere enough. But the tour guide nice lah, he consoled me that it might not be I'm not sincere enough, probably not fated ba.... Hopefully it's true ba.... Perhaps I fooled around with him when he's talking earlier and I take things jokingly ba.... I'm so sorry..... Is it a hint that I'm going to have a bad year? I hope not.... I'm addicted to holiday trips le, esp to Taiwan. I want to make more money so that I can come again, so that I can go other places with my parents, so that I can bring my mama to shop in other places. Please.... Please bless me....

Went to a place nearby to watch the Peacocks. Wow! The moment we went in, one of the peacocks 'kong que kai ping'! OMG!!! First time seeing it live! Happening sia! woohoo! Took a few other pictures and heard peacocks 'talk' for the first time also. Somehow, I guess that they are hungry and kept sounding when the kids around the barricades were eating food. Hungry? Should be ba.... haha....

It's a long long trip from Taitung all the way to Kaoshiung after that. 3 to 4 hrs sia!!! Slept in the coach almost throughout, but can't really get to sleep, cos the aircon is sooo cold due to the rain. Freezing man! Was looking at the gal when I can't get to sleep, guess she must be very tired ba.... She like sleeping all the time. Heard that she slept quite late last night. Hm.... Should have ask her if she wants to have a chat last night. Haiz....

Dinner is at this specially reserved for CTC tour package only, according to Xiao Chen. Other than CTC, that Mongolian BBQ Steamboat Buffet is not open to other tour agencies. Sounds fantastic? Ok lah.... I have to admit that the food is quite nice, if you know how to bbq it yourself. It's like Seoul Garden like that, but it's got varieties that you won't see at Seoul Garden. Then I also don't know the flask contain water, thought it's oil cos the uncle and auntie, let's call them elderly couple as they are in their 60's le, that's sharing my steamboat somehow say it's oil inside. Diaoz.... After finishing the food, there's actually a chance for me to ask her to come over to my table and have a chat as the elderly couple had gone outside. But it's like either she's not looking over, or her mum is with her. Again. Aiyo.... Why am I so bothered that her mum is with her huh? Why am I so concerned that I'm doing things so obvious leh? Ai! Ya!

Before going back to the hotel, we went to this night market at Xin Jue Jiang. Basically, there's nothing to walk there, as I've been there before. So.... I talked to Uncle Tan, that gal's dad, since he also quite bored as he's also been here before during his NS days some 30 over years ago. According to him, there's not much changes. There are obvious changes, but not really much. Then he talked about his NS days as an Artilery, and told me all his stories about the experiment with various weapons. Hm.... Though I'm never a compatriot, but I always find it interesting when people talked about the things they do during their NS, esp those older generations. Maybe because they really go through all the shit and went through hell-like training, have a sense of admiration for them ba.... Nowadays soldiers? They are so much worse during my time man! Even though during my time, it's already quite welfare le. Haiz....

Waited at this open space cafe for our coach to pick us up, and that's the cafe that I walked past during my earlier stay here. The same cafe that I stopped the other time to listen to the singers. They are singing 'in love with you' the other time, if I remember correctly. I always suffer from memory lapse lah! haha.... Talked to that gal as she overheard me telling the elderly couple that I came over earlier than them. So I told her about that cafe, and where my hotel is the other time, and the other night market, Liu He Night Market. Almost asked her whether she wants to go there later, I can bring her there. But.... her mum came over and asked me about the hotel charges in Taiwan. Haiz.... What a waste.... So I told her charges in Kaoshiung and Taipei is different, same 3 or 4 star hotel, it cost NT680 in Kaoshiung, while in Taipei it cost NT1600.

Back in the hotel, I wanted to ask her if she wants to come out for a walk later, I can bring her to Liu He night market. Then there's this guy, Deyuan, asked whether we want to come out for a drink later. I thought she might be coming also as her cousins are joining us, according to Deyuan. I thought maybe can ask her later, so I just go up to my room 1st and get changed. Then.... when I'm down there with the rest, I realized that only her male cousin is joining us. She, along with her other female cousin is not joining us. Haiz.... Wasted, wasted....

We went to this pub, newly opened for the first time today. Really their first day of opening sia.... No glasses, no mixers, no dice, no cards, nothing at all! So the waitress have to keep entertaining us, and kana suan by me. haha.... I tend to overtalk with those who are open and can joke around. The waitress is like talking to me in both Mandarin and Hokkien, with a little English in between and kana suan by me upside down. haha.... Just having a fun time joking around, so no offence ok? That's what I told her when I go off earlier after that. Well.... I don't drink, and I don't really enjoy talking to those shy shy type. The gals and guys like all so stranger to each other, even though we come out together to have fun. Atmosphere not right lah.... Only when we are playing games then there's some interaction among us. Still, I went back to the hotel earlier, cos need to discuss with Jul about our stock online. Guess what? The internet access at the hotel sucks! End up alway cannot connect to the wireless, even though I'm at the ground floor already! What the hell! So so disappointing....

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么 让我诚实一点
诚实 难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门 不必理谁

一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机 让它休息一夜
难 想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过 十二点

生日快乐 我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也融了
我要谢谢 你给的 你拿走 的一切

还爱你 的一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日 wu 快乐

一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机 让它休息一夜
难 想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过 十二点

生日快乐 我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也融了
我要谢谢 你给的 你拿走 的一切

还爱你 的一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日 wu 快乐

还爱你 的一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日 wu wu wu 快乐

1st real day of tour....

Woke up at 6plus today, as we are rushing off to several places. Took our breakfast at 6.45am and set off at 7.30am. 1st stop, we went to C.K.S Memorial Hall. Not that interested in that, but part of the tour package so.... ya.... Got there and took some pictures of the garden and some of the buildings, and some basketball setup for some competition I guess.... As I went to look for the toilet, this particular gal caught my eye. She already attracted my attention in the bus as she sat at the seat 'besides' me.... Got a glimpse of her while I move towards the direction of the toilet, and I was telling myself that if she's still around when I come out, I would ask her to go and walk around as she didn't walk about except keeping her parents company sitting at the stone chair. But then again.... when I came out, she's already gone.... Haiz....

Carried on with my photo taking and went to the entrance of one of the halls. Supposed to be opened, but today is sat so they are closed. However, there are a group of aunties and uncles practising their swordplay and fanplay, and another group of students practising their kickboxing. Took some videos of them so that I can show it to my parents. Of course, I can enjoy the kickboxing myself, or show it to my friends. My parents won't know how to appreciate that ba! haha....

Next stop is to the Martyr's Shrine to see the change of guards' ceremony. Basically, it's quite the same as sg change of parade, where they show the rifle display. But then again, it's always more enjoying when you see it at another country, kind of like 'xin xian gan'. haha.... Then we went to the National Palace Museum to take a look of the antiques, things like clay, bronze, jade, etc.... Not so interested, but again, it's part of the package. Sianz.... haha....

Had our lunch at this international buffet. Food is ok lah, not really fantastic. However, we have to put in our own sauces with the raw food and veg, before bringing to the chef to cook for us. What the hell.... How I know how much oil, chilli, water, soy sauce, etc to put in sia.... My mama always the one who do all this one leh.... Aiyo.... Headache man.... I miss my mama.... haha....

Yeliu is the stop after our lunch, where we saw the famous Queen's Head Rock and some other spectacular results of erosion. The view is just so nice, so spectacular. The rocks, the bridge, the walkway, the mountain views, the sea views, the river where you see people playing with the water, it's so relaxing and so enjoying....

After that, we are supposed to go to the place that I specially signed for this package, Daxi Blooming Oasis, the filming ground of My Secret Garden. BUT! Because of the off season, there are no flowers and lemon grass there! What the hell! That's what I have been looking forward to man! Sianz x2, x3! Argh!!!! End up we go to the place, where we can pick tomatoes. OMG! It's again another off season, and we end up looking and buying tomaotes, instead of having the chance to pluck.... Guess I have chosen the wrong time to come to Taiwan sia....

Then we took the coach to Taitung night market, Feng Jia Night Market. Basically, there's nothing much to shop.... Very little guys' shops, and it's quite ex also. End up, I only eat and eat there. haha.... Tried the turkish ice-cream, where the 'ang mok' is so hilarious.... He speaks good mandarin, and he perform tricks while scooping the ice cream and tease the crowd before giving them the ice cream. So cute.... haha.... Finally! Got into this shop, A & D, and bought about 5 t-shirts for about NT580. Wondering why it's so cheap? They are having a sale and what I took is on 90% discount! woohoo!

Came back to the hotel and watched the tv programs while downloading Harlem's new songs. Oh man.... It's so nice.... So nice that I'm going to share with everyone. Later I post the lyrics up ok? hehe.... Point to add, the gal in my tour group look so nice in her black flowery dress today. And I'm like the lyrics, '空气里躲着什么 有点浪漫的心动 我偷偷看你 你也偷偷看我 世界上多了什么 好像变得很不同 站在你身边 这一切都好宽阔'. I did 偷偷看她, but not sure if she got 偷偷看我. haha....

空气里躲着什么 有点浪漫的心动
我偷偷看你 你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么 好像变得很不同
站在你身边 这一切都好宽阔

我还在等着你 静静的爱我
只要有你陪我 静静的就足够
你也在等着我 静静的温柔
就这样手牵手 静静的看着天空

心里面藏着什么 你只想要让我懂
原来我的梦 也就是你的梦 哦
纸条上写了什么 我好想要听你说
让字字句句 充满我们的笑容

我还在等着你 静静的爱我
只要有你陪我 静静的就足够
你也在等着我 静静的温柔
就这样手牵手 静静的看着天空

永远要记得
那天彼此许下的承诺
瞬间点亮的火花
是我们的拥 有

我还在等着你 静静的爱我
只要有你陪我 静静的就足够
你也在等着我 静静的温柔
就这样手牵手 静静的看着天空

静静的手牵手 是最简单的 梦

So touching....

Today is the start of my tour package, but my tour guide and the members will only arrive at 7plus tonight. My hotel only allows me to stay till 12pm, before I have to check out, while the other hotel that I already booked with my tour package only allows me to check in after 3pm. What the hell! Fortunately, hotel have luggage storage services and I kept my luggage with the staff while I go out and 'waste' my time away, at a cost! I was walking around the vicinity and managed to somehow find myself an arcade centre. Guess what.... There's free tokens if you exchange NT100 and NT300, but I thought I only spent a little time there so exchange only NT50 earlier. Then went to exchange another NT100 to get the free 2 tokens. End up I still went to exchange more and total I spent about NT200, but I only got 2 tokens free! Stupid right.... Haiz....

Not knowing where Qilin Hotel is, I took a cab from East Dragon, partly also due to the fact that I'm carrying too heavy lah.... The cab in Taiwan starts their meter at NT70, but.... the meter jumps much slower than sg cabs. So don't think that cabs in Taiwan are very ex, in fact it's much cheaper, cos you travel longer distance in Taiwan and the meter jumps slowly one. haha.... After few hotels stays, realized that hotels in Taiwan don't provide toothpaste, but Qilin is worse than those I booked myself, and more ex! Can you imagine? OMG! They don't have internet access, not even bottled water in the cooler and hot water or hot drink packets! At least those I booked myself while I'm here the last few days, there's hot water outside the rooms, if not inside the room, and there are like coffee and tea bags. Qilin don't have! They don't even have tissue boxes and remote for the tv. What the hell.... It sucks! I shall blacklist Qilin, not going to stay there the next time round. haha....

Was in my room watching tv the whole day while waiting for my tour members to arrive. Can you imagine watching tv from 3plus to 7plus? Fortunately the shows here are damn nice, so much better than those we see is sg. Otherwise, I be bored to death sia....

My tour members finally arrived at the hotel at 8plus, and my tour guide called me and told me that they are going to one of the night market. Hm.... Finally waited for them to come, so decided to go with them, since they are going from the hotel anyway. Went down at 8.30pm to meetup with my tour guide, Chris and Xiao Chen from the Taiwan tour guide. If you are wondering why there's a need for a local tour guide, well.... that's the Taiwanese law, so.... ya.... Anyway, the night market that we went to, basically there's nothing to see loh.... Most are selling snakes tonic soups, or some other stuffs that's meant for ladies. Consolation though, I managed to find my 'sai zhong' in 'xiao qi da cai shen'. But.... it cost a whopping Nt1800! That's like S$90! No way am I going to get it, considering that I am so low in cash now. But then again, it's just too ex also lah.... I told myself that the max I would come out for it is only NT800, and it's like so much more! No way! haha....

Came back early as the night market is so boring, and managed to catch 'xiao qi' for the first time in Taiwan! I didn't know what time and what channel to catch it you see.... Been switching the channels around during my last few stays in the various hotels, but didn't managed to catch it still. Never mind.... Anyway, the first time watching here got a surprise for me, it's showing the public episode, where the people from the public got whacked by 'nai and chen', but both also kana whacked also. haha.... After that, watched the 'wo ai hei se hui'. I'm so touched when the runnerup and the winner gave their winning speeches.... sobsob.... Xiao Jie is always the cute cute little gal who always give her best and showed her true self, instead of acting here and there. In fact, most of the 'hei se hui mei mei' are like that, just that Xiao Jie tends to be more adorable as she's only like 14 or 15, the stage where teenagers are open and daring to 'xiu' themselves. When she's told to talk after getting her runnerup and prize, she kept saying that her dad finds trouble with her whenever she needs to be involve with some of the publicity schedules. She said it so truely and so naturally, no need to act pitiful or whatsoever. And even when her fellow contestants went over to her place, her dad would find fault with her and made her embarrassed in front of them. So cute the way she says it, but so touching also as she cried while saying it. She must be very concerned about the way her dad treats her, and she told her dad to stop finding faults with her involvement in 'wo ai hei se hui'. OMG! So touched.... sobsob....

Same goes for Joyce, the first-timer taking part performing a dance that's so smooth and so natural that you would think she's a seasoned performer. While told to give her speech, she said that she hope her parents do not separate. She's actually facing so much pressure with her family problems, and yet when she's performing, she's so cheerful due to the need of her dance. It makes me feel so embarrassed when I think back about the times when.... It's so small compared to her, the pressure and stress that she has to face.... It's so touching and so endearing.... sobsob.... When Hei Ren told her that he also grew up in a single parent family, as well as Xiao Gang, they told her to take things in her strife, saying that whatever the adults do, must not affect our way of thinking. Most importantly, we must not walk the wrong path and do any wrong things in our life. Once we can't differenciate right and wrong, and doing the wrong things, we are doom for life. Somehow, both Hei Ren and Xiao Gang do say that because they grew up in single parent family, it makes them more determined and more clear about what they want in life and set out to achieve them. It makes me wonder, where did the determination that I so proud of when I was young? Where has it gone? When at times everyone gave up, I'm always the one who perserved to the end and managed to get a result. So when did I give up that determination? Is it during my NS days? My BMT days? Or even earlier than that? The time when I felt the whole world is against me? The time when I felt everyone is against me after some misunderstandings? Did my determination vanish from that time onwards? Am I still able to find back that firing feeling that makes me achieve so many things when I'm young? Can I???

相约来到这世上 却在途中失散
走的路是 否一样
看着同一片艳阳 我忽然有预感
久违的陌生人会遇上

也许是你笑的弧度和我很像
也许是因为守护的星座和我一样
也许是漫长的黑夜特别孤单
才会背靠着背一起等天亮

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

上帝布置的悲伤 和分配的阳光
你和我是否一样
拥抱同一种信仰 我忽然有预感
我们会是彼此的星探

也许是你笑的弧度和我很像
也许是因为守护的星座和我一样
也许是漫长的黑夜特别孤单
才会背靠着背一起等天亮

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

Inefficient purchasing....

Had a very weird dream last night. Dreamt that I flew back to sg for some reasons that I knew of, got back home and had an argument with my dad. He's worried about me in Taiwan alone, and I am flying back here to join my tour package. He thought I am alone and was very against it as I just told him I am alone here for the past few days. He didn't knew it until I called home and told him about it when he asked what have I been doing here. Haiz.... Parents always worry too much.... No matter how old we are already, they will always keep worrying. But then again, no matter how old we are, we are always the small boys and gals in our parents' eyes isn't it? That's a sentence someone told me before.... How I missed her.... Then when I finally have to get to the airport, realised that I'm late for my flight. Was so kan cheong that I showed my usual impatient mood again. Probably that typifies my habit of impunctuality and lack of composure in times of stress. haha.... Then I nearly missed my flight as the flight attendance asked so much than usual about my passport, boarding pass and flight time, etc as if I am some suspect or what. I showed him the 'what the hell' look and told him off. Typical impatient me? haha....

Went for my breakfast after I got a timely 'wake-up' call. It's actually my friend who kept asking me to join the mlm company that he's current in. haha.... Anyway, thanks to him calling, otherwise I will miss my breakfast. It's until 10am, and that call came at 9.30am! haha....

Came back to my room and watched the tv programs and chatting with Chris and my sis. The tv programs here are so much diffferent from the ones we had in sg. How I wish they have those channels.... Perhaps Starhub Digital Cable have it? Hm.... Will check when I'm back. The 'ma la yi jia qin' is so funny sia.... haha....

Took my lunch at 1plus at one of the stalls across the streets of my hotel. It serves the 'xiao long tang bao'. Thought it's those small buns so I ordered a bowl of noodles also. End up the 8 baos are so filling that I have to struggle with my noodles. But shiok sia! So filling that I yearn to come back to my hotel and sleep. haha.... But then again, have to go and get my stocks before I join my tour tomorrow. Too bad....

Was walking to the mrt station and saw a lot of students giving out flyers and standing outside the restaurants to approach customers. Not just a few, but nearly all the restaurants! Competition here is so stiff, you won't see such scenes in sg. haha.... Besides that, in the underground shopping mall, there's also a couple of groups of students performing, or rather say they are practising for some performance ba.... Probably because it's the summer holidays now, it runs from June to August, that's why you see students working and relaxing around.

Didn't really shop much and take my own sweet time today as I need to go and get my stocks. Don't have much time to laze and waste. hehe.... I realised that in Taiwan, the escalator only got up and no down! Typically everywhere you will only see upgoing escalators and not even 1 downcoming at all! You have to climb the steps if you wanna go down to anywhere. No wonder Taiwanese are so healthy despite the oily and unhealthy food that's so common here. You don't really see much vegetables around.... haha....

Got a lot of help from the ladies at the shopping mall where I got my accessories. Otherwise, I will have problems deciding what to get from the never ending displaying showcases. haha.... Eventually took about NT25k worth of goods. Initial budget is like NT37k, but due to some items out of stock and some others short of my planned quantity, left with a lot of budget even after choosing some new items. The designs are not that nice ba.... But the way I settled the bill and checking the items is like doing double work. Should have done it the other way round, more efficient that way. End up I spent about 4 hrs checking the stuffs and tallying with the bill. What the hell! Anyway, after finally gotten everything done at 7plus, went to thank all the ladies at the 3rd level for their help over the past 2 days. Maanaged to catch the lady Mr Lim recommended to me, Yi Tang, today. Didn't see her around yesterday cos she's off. Nice ladies all of them. Chatted with 2 of them, Yi Tang and the other lady that's attached to me for the 2 days to pick my items. Was askign them if they can do me a personal favour by helping me to get the stock and then send it over to me. I will pay for the postage of course. But they point out a very good point that how am I going to choose the design? Hm.... Seems like I still have to come and get it myself. Haiz....

Reached my hotel at about 8pm, just in time to catch my 'ma la yi jia qin'. Don't have the mood to go anywhere else actually, cos of the heavy stocks that I bought. Nearly changed hotel this morning, cos I didn't reserve the room beforehand. Fortunately, the staffs here are very nice, managed to keep my room for me. Thanks a lot! *smiles*

Chatted with Rizuan and supposed to 'report' my explores to Jul. But it seems like she's busy with her work and also due to some other reasons that we didn't get to discuss about what I took. Maybe tomorrow or when I'm back ba.... Just loved holidaying.... In the hotel room, eating chips and drinking the water I bought and put in the cooler provided, using the hot water outside my room to cook my mee, watching tv and chilling away, lying on the big big bed.... Shiok man! But all alone a bit sad sia.... Hm.... I'm going to get company for my next trip. hehe....

阳光优雅地漫步旅店的草坪
人鱼在石刻墙壁弹奏著竖琴
圆弧屋顶 用拉丁式的黎明 颜色暧昧的勾引
我已经开始微醺

火红的舞衣旋转在绿荫小径
连脚步都佛朗明哥的声音
悬在窗 棂小酒瓶 晃的轻轻 对著风温柔回应
原来爱可以寂静

马德里 不思议 突然的 想念你
彩绘玻璃前的身影 只有孤单变浓郁
马德里 不思议 突然那么想念你
我带著爱 抒情的远行

火红的舞衣旋转在绿荫小径
连脚步都佛朗明哥的声音
悬在窗 棂小酒瓶 晃的轻轻 对著风温柔回应
原来爱可以寂静

马德里 不思议 突然的 想念你
彩绘玻璃前的身影 只有孤单变浓郁
马德里 不思议 突然那么想念你
我带著爱 抒情的远行

所以用鹅毛笔 写了封信给你
浅灰的纸里 夹了朵三色堇
你知道它的花语
签上名 我继续一个人远行

马德里 ho oh
彩绘玻璃前的身影 只有孤单变浓郁
马德里 ho oh oh
我带著爱 抒情的远行

马德里 不思议 突然的想念你
彩绘玻璃前的身影 只有孤单变浓郁
马德里 不思议 突然那么想念你
我带著爱 抒情的远行

马德里 oh ya
彩绘玻璃前的身影 只有孤单变浓郁
马德里 不可思议
我走在少了你的风景

我走在少了你的风景

So different 'City Link Mall'....

Missed the free breakfast that comes with my room charge this morning when I woke up at 11plus. Shit! Lugi sia.... haha.... End up have to take my brunch outside. Ok lah.... Went to this shophouse stall and ordered the noodles. Basically, there's nothing inside, just noodles and the special sauce. Ok lah.... Cost only NT30. Cheap cheap. I learnt something here in Taiwan, eat those cheap and little food as there are food anywhere, everywhere. And there are all sorts of food that you might not be able to find or not common in sg. Even the instant noodles are so rare in sg. Taiwanese are very innovative, really. hehe....

Asked around and found the way to get to the wholesaler, take the mrt from Ximen to Taipei, and walk from there. Mrt here is so ex sia.... Min per trip is NT20, more costly than in sg. What the hell.... But the stations here are quite effective ba.... They have a staff specially located to help in enquiries. Unlike in sg, they stand on a platform that's about 1o inches high, so that it's visible to locate even from far. hehe.... Anyway, after taking the mrt to Taipei station, it's another long walk before I get to the exit to the shopping mall. It's exactly like what we have in City Link Mall and the new Plaza Sing mrt mall. A lot of shops along the underground selling clothes, food, shoes, bags, mostly gals stuffs. I realised that Taiwan is very focused on female market, everywhere you see are gals' stuffs. I hardly see any guys' stuffs, even when I want to buy shoes, belt, cap, etc.... all can't find. Sianz....

Though the shopping mall is similar to City Link Mall, but there are always unique stuffs in Taiwan, as usual. And there are like, so many many that you see it almost every few steps away, side by side each other for a stretch! OMG!!! Make a guess what it is? See if you are right, it's those basketball throwing machines that you always see on Taiwanese variety shows. Hm.... Also that kind that some of the arcades have. The people here all damn good at it sia.... Almost 100% shots in, at least 80% ba.... Machiam got professional training like that. Su Su You Lian Guo one ok.... haha.... Other than that machines, there are also many bear bear picking machines. Those where you put in coins and toggle using the joystick. But.... the difference between sg and here is, besides it's so much more common here, it's also much cheaper to grab the bear bear here. Why I say so is that, over here, as long as you tried a specified number of times, the machine will automatically tune to 'free catch' mode. Meaning you don't have to put in coins anymore and you can control the joystick until the bear bear drop into the hole. Unbelievable right! What's more, it's only NT10 per try. And the best thing is, the attendance will place the bear bear so near to the drop zone that you sure will be able to 'push' it in. Shiok right! I spent only like NT160 to catch 2 Doraemon 35th aniversary softtoys. Shiok!!!

Got to the shopping mall to source for the accessories. OMG!!! It's got 3 levels, and every level is selling diffferent types of designs of hairclips, earrings, rings, necklaces, caps, bracelets, etc.... But.... still got no stuffs for guys! What the hell.... Anyway, got down to work and bought about NT4200 worth of samples to come back to my hotel to take pictures and show Jul. Load up and showed her everything that I bought and we discussed over msn till nearly 4am! OMG!!! I ok lah.... But she still have to work tomorrow, so a bit worried for her. Bt then again, like she said, to earn more money so have to work hard. Hm.... It's time I shift my focus and work hard to make more money. I want my cafe!!!! hehe....

我觉得人 的心不只一面
任何事都不是绝对
曾因失去他 感到痛苦心伤
无爱一身隐隐约约淡淡的酸

偶尔会想他 此刻过的怎样
但这只是随便想想
眼前还有好多事让自己忙
常常忘了身在何方

扑面风一阵 气氛不一样
发现 季节已经更换
午夜梦回时 莫名的彷徨
暗自怀念幸福模样

多想再为某人 忙碌和分享
又怕空忙一场
情歌满街 淹没人心房
我却没有一个 倾吐对象

多想再为某人 欢喜和忧伤
却怕旧创又患
爱情 这东西
拥有了好麻烦 少了又拼命想

我觉得人 的心不只一面
任何事都不是绝对
曾因失去他 感到痛苦心伤
无爱一身隐隐约约淡淡的酸

偶尔会想他 此刻过的怎样
但这只是随便想想
眼前还有好多事让自己忙
常常忘了身在何方

扑面风一阵 气氛不一样
发现 季节已经更换
午夜梦回时 莫名的彷徨
暗自怀念幸福模样

多想再为某人 忙碌和分享
又怕空忙一场
情歌满街 淹没人心房
我却没有一个 倾吐对象

多想再为某人 欢喜和忧伤
却怕旧创又患
爱情 这东西
拥有了好麻烦 少了又拼命想

多想再为某人 忙碌和分享
又怕空忙一场
情歌满街 淹没人心房
我却没有一个 倾吐对象

多想再为某人 欢喜和忧伤
却怕旧创又患
爱情 这东西
拥有了好麻烦 少了又拼命想

多想再为某人 忙碌和分享
只怕空忙一 场

Clumsy me....

Woke up this morning and got a box to put my stock so as to be able to send it back to sg. Decided to ship it back instead of fly it back as the charges is a very big difference.... Even though it will take a month, guess I just have to wait ba.... Hopefully the things won't break and send to sg safely. Worried sia.... Left the hotel at 2pm, and called Mr Chen, the cabby that I knew yesterday, so that he can send me to the post office with so many stuffs and my luggage. Got to the post office and spent like 2 hrs repacking my stocks as one of the box is overweight. Max weight is only 20kg per carton and the reading is 23+kg. And then they also don't have big boxes for me to repack. End up I have to repack them into 4 boxes. Take up so much time sia.... Sianz.... Fortunately, Mr Chen waited for me to finish. Or rather say I already booked him and he charges me for it, so guess he have no choice ba.... haha....

Afterwhich, he sent me to the railway station to take the train to Taipei. Bought some food and drinks to bring unto the train as I haven't eaten anything yet. Hungry sia.... And it's like 5 hrs trip loh.... Sianz.... And what a mess I made myself and look like a fool. All thanks to the 'dan zhu qi shui', marble softdrink. There's really a marble inside loh.... And trying to find out how the marble works, I accidentally overturned the bottle! Guess what? Obviously the water spilled all over my pants and pouch! Shit! Rare experience in holidaying though. *smiles*

Bought a lunchbox on the train and I realise how clumsy a person I am. I nearly overturn the box twice! And I kept dropping the food back into the lunchbox after I picked it up. Luckily it didn't dropped to the floor.... Otherwise, I will give the cleaner trouble. Haiz....

Taiwanese are actually not as friendly as I thought they are. Of course not all of them, but have to say some of them ba.... Besides the 2 cabbies, Mr Chen and Papa Joe, Mr Lim from kaoshiung and the hotel staffs that I served me so well during my few days here, the others are not that friendly. Example, when I was at the railway station platform, I asked for direction and which train to get unto to get to Taipei. The couple that I asked is like, I also don't know. Esp the lady, she's like giving me the 'how I know' that kind of look. Shit sia.... Fortunately, most of the people that I asked, gave me much appreciated help. Most are very friendly and helpful, some even showed me the direction and counted which traffic light before I turn left, turn right. So nice of them.... *smiles*

The guys here like damn mei yong loh.... Was asking for directions and then the guy at 7-11 have to ask the gal before he knows where the place is. And it's like just outside and cross a road that's all loh.... Haiz.... Guys nowadays are like so bo chap. End up, I went to ask the cabby which way to go, and he told me is very far and suggest I take his cab. I don't have a choice, do I..... My luggage is damn heavy and I really don't know the place well at all. Haiz....

Got to the hotel, East Dragon Hotel, that I reserved a room, and the attendant is so polite, greeting me very warmly and brought me to the counter lady. Now.... that's the kind of Taiwanese that I knew to be. hehe.... The lady and gentleman over at the counter also very nice, recognising me when I told them my name, and asked me to pass them my passport so that they can help me to register. So touched.... Afterwhich, the attendant even helped me to carry my luggage into the lift and went up with me to bring my luggage into my room. I so paisei sia....

Finally got into my room and unloaded everything and rearranged everything, before I went to bed quite late in the night. Slept at 4plus cos I finally can get into my msn! Shiok! When I was in Kaoshiung, the hotel have internet access, but I just can't get into msn. So sian loh.... Fortunately, my msn works here! Chatted with Rizuan and my sis till very late in the night as I have a lot to talk to my sis, and Rizuan confided in me about his close friend. Not going into detail, but just so happy that I can chat over msn! woohoo!!!

想有幸福的笑容
就好像 名字写在沙漠
只要是 一阵微风吹过
轻轻松松就 把我的所有 带走

走在黑夜的宇宙
看不到 哪里才是尽头
向前走 握紧还在颤抖的手
才能够 让自己 不疑惑

想听你说 要紧握着执着
要带着我 那一年的悸动
那一刻的梦 那时候你总支持我
坚强往前走 你却不在左右

走在黑夜的宇宙
看不到 哪里才是尽头
向前走 握紧还在颤抖的手
才能够 让自己 不疑惑

谁能给我 一支神奇的锁
轻轻一开 就让寂寞飞走
好希望有人 教我怎么忘记伤痛
触碰 以为遥远 的梦

听你说 要紧握着执着
要带着我 那一年的悸动
那一刻的梦 那时候你总支持我
坚强往前走wu 你却不在左右

坚强往前走 你却不在 左右

Busy day in Kaoshiung....

Got up at 11plus today and went to find out the cost of sending my goods back to sg. After walking along the stretch of Wufu road, finally found the post center at Wufu Silu(Wufu 5th road). The postage is damn ex sia! After calculating the cost of sending it back by air for 20kg, it's a whopping NT2365! That's about S$118! OMG! Ex ah!!! But then again, what to do? I won't want to carry a carton and 2 bagsful of things around right? Plus I have my own luggage and my backpack, cannot lah.... I will die man! So.... ya.... bo bian.... But I also can't post it now, cos no money le.... Imagine I came with NT30k with me, now I left only NT4k! I spent like almost NT10k+++ on my goods. Can't remember, but sure more than NT10K at least.... Haiz.... Poor le.... Still got 10+ days to go. I can eat instant noodles for the rest of the days le....

Went to this place recommended by this cab uncle, it's called Lian Chi Tan. Basically, it's a place where you look at the fairies and gods statures. Took some pictures there, will load it up when I'm back in sg. Take a look at them @ my friendster album if you are interested ba.... *winkz* The place is damn big lah! Walked until I cannot take it sia.... To and fro took me about an hr plus almost 2. Tired.... Esp with my backpack and pouch plus my videocam. Faint.... Before I go into the 'park', ate at this stall selling turkey rice. It's so nice loh.... Yum yum....

Got into a cab which is supposed to bring me to this place called Xi Zi Wan to catch a very nice view of the sunset. Isn't that something that I hated? But then again, I shouldn't be baised against the nice view ba.... The cab uncle is so nice.... He suggested bringing me around the vicinity where I will pass by to go to Xi Zi Wan. Since he so helpful, I said ok loh.... 1st he brought me to this place where it holds a bit of history of Taiwan. The place where when the Guo Min Dang rules and killed many people and now became the place where it rested those people and those who died due to some noble acts they did. It's called Zhong Lie Ci. Too bad when I'm there, it's already 5pm and they are closed. And maybe the place is renovating so nothing much to see also. Sianz..... After that, the uncle, he called himself papa joe in his namecard, brought me to this place at the top of a cliff to take some beautiful and unique pictures where no one will ever go on their own. The view is not as nice as I portraited, but it's still very unique. Will load up to my friendster when I have the time. Took a lot of scenery pictures there, and then uncle Joe drove me into Zhong Shan Uni to take pictures of the campus. So nice of him.... He even took the efforts to drove me from one end of the tunnel to the other end, so touched sia.... Wanted to take a pic of him and me, but he drove off quite hastily after he dropped me @ Xin Jue Jiang. Haiz.... What a pity.....

Uncle Joe dropped me at Xin Jue Jiang where it's supposed to have a lot of things to see, eat and buy. End up, I only bought some food to eat, and bought just 2 rings. The things here are damn ex lah.... Or maybe I saw what wholesalers can offer le that's why find it ex. I can't even buy and bring back to sell cos it's so ex, the profit margin is too low to even consider. haha.... Walked the whole place and got into one of the 7-11. You won't believe it, the 7-11s here are everywhere! haha.... Tried to wihdraw money but it kept cancelling, and I thought I can't withdraw money! OMG! I'm really damn poor le! No money, I sure faint! Might even have to sleep on the streets le! What am I going to do??? OMG!!! Luckily, I chose to believe that the machine in that particular outlet is faulty and tried at another outlet. Yeah! I was right.... Managed to withdraw money at the other outlet. Woohoo! If you believe, you will see hope(只要相信, 就能看见幸福绿光). OMG! Too much of Green Forest le. haha....

Walked all the way from Wufu Erlu all the way to Wufu Silu, where the 爱河 is, and also where my hotel is. If you thought it's very near, you are terribly WRONG! It's like walking from Plaza Sing to Orchard mrt, or even further. And worse of all is, the traffic is so complicated that you have to round here and there. I lost my way twice or even more! Actually, it's not that complicated lah.... Just that I'm known for losing my way. Those who knows me well will know. haha.... Good also lah, at least I managed to explore how to roam around in Taiwan, next time I can be the 'tour guide'. haha.... Anyway, the distance is definitely not a joke. Now then I realise how small sg is. And people can still say taking train from Woodlands to Orchard is far. Hello! In Taiwan, everywhere you go is count by hrs! You think is like in sg where 15 mins or half an hr of journey is considered very far? It's time we get our butts off sg and look around the world le. haha....

Got to 爱河, and because today is the Chinese Valentine, saw a lot of couples.... More than usual, everywhere is in pairs, makes me so envy.... Whether it's senior citizens, mid-aged couples, young couples, teenage couples, or even student couples, they are everywhere. Me? I'm so lonely, alone walking along the pathway besides the stretch of 爱河. All alone by myself on my lunar birthday somemore, on Qi Xi, where Niu Lang and Zhi Nu meets once every year. I don't even get to meet my loved one on this day, and perhaps any other day as well.... How I wish that she's with me.... Maybe the next time round? How I wish to, but it's not going to materialise.... What am I doing? I told myself that I'm going to forget her right? Why is she still in my mind? I'm supposed to let go of her, and let her find her happiness. What the.... I'm thinking too much again.... Anyway, was listening to this uncle playing the flute, he's so good at it.... Got him to play a song for me, and bought one of his cds as a token of my appreciation. Took a seat along the place at the 爱河 and smsed Jul about my research so far. Nothing that I saw is associated with cherry yet, but consolation is that, the fruits trend that she said is true, even the local stalls that I asked agreed. Seems like we are on the right track. hehe.... Also smsed Kaixin about her interview today, and some other stuffs which she didn't want to talk about. Hm.... Will 'interrogate' her when I'm back. haha....

Walked along the freak market, Saw a lot of artists writing portraits for those who wants a drawing of themselves. This kind of thing is so popular here, unlike in sg, people find it bo liao and won't spend such money on it. What a waste of these artists' talents.... Walked further down and saw this 'magic' show, and got some 'magic' items from one of the stalls. Haiz.... I anyhow spend money again. Shit! Someone control me plssss. haha....

Decided to come back and rest le, cos I still have to wake up early to do a lot of things tomorrow before I checked out. But end up waiting for so long for my hotdog that I ordered. 1st is that I queued up at the wrong counter, which I ordered something else. It's supposed to be called Kao Lun Pian, but I said Kao Shu Pian, and the guy is like.... 'What's that?' Fortunately, the lady besides me helped me with my poor mandarin, and told that guy I wanted the Lun Pian. haha.... I like so malu like that. haha.... Back to my hotdog, then when I went to the counter serving my hotdog, it's like they haven't defroze it yet, and I waited like 30 mins, even after I finished my Kao Lun Pian, it's still not ready yet. What the shit.... Haiz.... End up got back to my hotel at 11plus. My legs are aching and I still got to do many things that I don't think I will sleep tonight le.... Haiz....

Woohoo! I loved travelling! Got so many things to share, so many things to write about.... Shiok! hehe.... Wonder when will be my next trip.... Hopefully by then, I won't be alone le.... It's so sad to be lonely.... But.... travelling still shiok! And fun! I will save up for my next trip. Most probably it will be Taiwan again. Any takers? haha.... Last of all, my blessings and best wishes for all the lovey dovey couples in this world on this chinese valentine. *smiles*

乌黑的发围 盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
搁着半透明的脸 嘴里说的语言
完 全没有欺骗

屋顶灰色瓦片 安静的画面
灯火是你美丽那张脸
终于找到所有流浪的终点
你的微笑就输了疲倦

千万不要说天长地久
免得你觉得我不切实际
想多么简单 就多么简单
是妈妈告诉我的哲理

脑袋都是你 心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你 全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心

乌黑的发围 盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
终于找到所有流浪的终点
你的微笑就输了疲倦

千万不要说天长地久
免得你觉得我不切实际
想多么简单 就多么简单
让我大声的对你说 i'm thinking of you

脑袋都是你 心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你 全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心

那回城的票根 你留做纪念
不必害怕面对离别 oh no
剪掉一丝头发 让我放在胸前
走到那里都有你陪 相随 yeah

脑袋都是你 心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你 全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心

脑袋都是你 心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你 全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里只为你倾心

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拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉 wo wu

乌黑的发围 盘成一个圈
缠绕所有对你的眷恋
那一种寸步不离的感觉
我知道就叫 做永远

Guess we are just friends after all....

Woke up at 10plus after watching tv till very late, and also because of what Jam told me last night. I was so bothered about it that I just couldn't get to sleep, couldn't get a good night's sleep either. sms darling, but she also didn't reply. Is she really angry with me for what I did? Was supposed to get my room changed at about 12plus, but it seems like there are customers extending and they told me to wait and will call me when the room is cleaned up.

Was watching this variety show on ch.28, Taiwanese ch.28. It's so funny. How come sg doesn't have this channel on cable huh? So disappointing.... Saw the preview that there's a new idol drama going on, wonder if the vcds are out.... I'm going to buy it for sure, as it features an artiste that resembles her very much.... Told her the other time, and promised to send her the picture of the artiste. But.... she just didn't get to see it.... Just like the pendant that I'm wearing now.... Anyway, waited till 4plus until I shou bu liao and went to ask the lady again. She said that confirm there will be a room at 6plus, so I continue to wait loh.... What to do.... It hinder my plan of going out to the beach today to enjoy the scenery and play some seasports here. And of course hopefully can see some pretty gals. haha.... But didn't managed to get to go out. What a waste.... Today's Sunday, sure got a lot of gals.... Haiz.... I could have just go out and come back to change as the lady said she will reserve the rooom for me. Reason why I chose to stay in the hotel also because I'm still bothered by my actions that caused darling to be upset. I just think too much....

Finally got my room changed at 7plus! The time that I finished watching my Green Forest. The final parts are so so so touching.... The part where Da Pao made friends during the relay, the scene where the kids talked to Sophie when she's there to celebrate christmas with them. The scene where William proposed to Sophie, it's so touching and romantic.... The part where Sophie pretended to faint and got William so anxious, it's so funny.... The part where Susan was so concerned for Sophie, it's so warm.... The part where Sophie prepared so many presents that William can open on every christmas till he's 60, 70, as she knows that she might not have the time to do it, so sad.... That's the sentence that caught me; do the things that you've always wanted to, because you might not have tomorrow to do it. Tomorrow might just never come.... If there's ever anything that you wanted to do for your parents, for your partners in life, for your friends, for your loved ones, do it when you thought about it, don't wait till tomorrow or other time. You might not have the time to do it, or they might not have the time to wait for you to do it. Do it before you hold that regret with you forever....

Darling finally replied in the night when I went out to walk alone on the streets. It's like 11plus in the night, and I am all alone in an unfamiliar country. You can call me bold or daring, but I just don't care ba.... Anyway, all I have is my life. If you want, just take it. Anyway, was so upset by some of the things darling said. First of all, I wanted to apologise to her for my insensitivity for getting some contacts that I maybe shouldn't have. But then again, if she treat me as a friend, does she have to be so afraid that I will steal the market or compete with her in her business? Am I such an unworthy friend that she have to suspect that I want to steal her business? Even when I told her that I took some of the goods to help her promote by posting on the net, she even suspected that I don't mean what I said. What the fuck! I don't dare to say that I do a lot for you, but who is the one who helped you carry all the things when we are on the way here, and when you bought your goods? It's me, so that you can get lovey dovey with your Jam! Who tried to do some calculation for you when you are doing your budget? Who is that idiot who bought separate tickets just to get on the plane with you, instead of going together with the tour? It would be so much cheaper and I would still be able to spend my first ever birthday overseas! Even when I'm getting the stuffs while you go to your so-call researched wholesalers, I did ask you whether you getting those things that I got so that I won't clashed with whatever you are selling and YOU yourself said never mind! I also feel bad, that's why I also go to the extend that I looked at what you picked first before I get the remaining, though some I really fancy. Isn't that enough? And it's not like I got dozens or hundreds, I only took a few here and there. Just want to sell off and make a few good bucks, not to make thousands or what. Worse f all, you can sms me and tell me that I can get the goods from you and you consign to me so that I can mark up the price and make some money for myself. You think I fancy that kind of small money? It's not like I selling a lot and can make thousands. I won't even mind that I post on the net and find buyers for you, all these for $0, no profits at all! I mean what I said, not for you to doubt! Sound as if I have to reply on you to get those goods. If I really want, I can easily find those similar things at a much lower cost in Thailand and China, you think I really need your leads! Friends for some time, not really long, but I always took whatever you told me as valuable advices and pour my heart and soul to you, tell you all my sadness and treat you as my jie mei, buddy, but have you treated me like one? Talk is cheap, you really think that people will wait for you to take your time slowly and come to care for them? You want others to think for you whatever they do, but have you done the same for them? Did you really cared for your friends? Seems like this trip make us see each other mroe clearly.... When it comes to money matters, friends can really turn against each other.... Money is not evil, the ones who's using it are the ones that are evil. I dare to say that if ever you are the one who ride on my efforts, I would welcome it with both hands, and not guessing this and that, doubting this and that. Others I would tell them off straight in the face and tell them to fuck off. But not you and some of my good friends. Good friends are meant to be treasured, and not to just say it in the mouth and do things otherwise.... I'm hurt, probably we are not as close as I thought.... Perhaps, I'm only just a friend to you, and not the kind of buddy that I always thought we are....

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天 一个像秋天
却总能把 冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后 生命全改变
原来不是 恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人 还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句

如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人 更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意 我的有口无心
我离不开darling 更离不开你

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后 生命全改变
原来不是 恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人 还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句

如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人 更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意 我的有口无心
我离不开darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人 还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句

如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人 更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意 我的有口无心
我离不开darling 更离不开你